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Ok, finally got the account working again. I shall try not to post on here drunk and stoned again....well, okay...at least not change a password lmfao


Well, on me. Still unmedicated and untreated for what, since July? So, 2 almost 3mos. Emotional wreck some days, happy as shit others. Today was explosion day. My girlfriend took something the wrong way after waking up on the wrong side of my bed apparently. We have been arguing all day, well up until about 4pm. We're good now. I hate when we fight because it's over shit we both know but are too stubborn to agree upon right away. We both have trust issues and I wish we both could get over it. We're so right for each other, she is SO wonderful We're both stubborn, heck we're so much alike its scary at times.

She loves me so much, and I need to trust in that. We want to move in together but both agree to wait till summer comes back before rushing into anything, though lately it seems that we'd be better off just living together away from this fucking place - another story for another post.


She really thinks she's gonna be the one to ask, haha, I think not.

She's in denial about my place not being OUR place....kinda like the saying I love you thing. She's been here for 2 weeks straight, been home from 345pm until 1hr ago (well still there) and she already is coming back for the night.

Been looking at houses for a little while but we cant even move out of here until October 2012 anyhow, so no rush on looking really. Oh and I have been saving some money aside for a couple months with no one knowing and will be for awhile. My balls are huge and golden, I am my father's daughter after all. It's okay though, she can keep thinking she's gonna be the one to ask..... well okay, she was the one to ask first....then chickened out. No worries though, no rush when you have forever.

I've fallen off my "wagon" but not like last time. I'm drinking and getting high again but no self harm, no PV, no stupid shit at all. Just weed and vodka and yes some cheap highs from DXM and Benadryl. Oh well, I'm maintaining my weight at 139Lbs and still have lots of appitite, no side effects that I notice yet. My balance and memory are great and my moods are good as long as i use. No withdrawals yet. Slippery slope I know, I'm not stupid.

I would go on with this update but need to do some stuff, will continue later or tomorrow.....or ASAP.

My last day here:

It involved 4 hours of therapy, I am tired and my head hurts, I got a follow-up plan where I am moving to so I can start my new job. I have a therapist that I am seeing twice a week, a life coach just to check-in with and an anger management group therapy. I am tired of therapy.......Gosh

My therapist explained that her best guess is that Jeff has been advised by his lawyer to not contact me. That whatever chance he had of staying out of jail involves listening to his lawyer. I am a risk to his case. My inability to not being able to manage my emotions was a risk to his case. At the very least until they know how to approach this. She said that I would hope to appreciate that and be able to listen to my lawyer if I was in that circumstance as well. She said that if Jeff is acquitted or has to do time, I would hear from him but until then he is putting his emotions aside because his life is at risk. She said what I can do until then is practice managing my emotions and if I can truly manage my emotions and give the man his space which is different than what I have been doing, she said he might comeback.

We assessed the situation of whether I can support him if he does some time and she said it all relies on me and how I am doing. We had a family session with my sisters on the phone. They said that my sisters felt that if they didn't put me in this program quick enough, they were sure that I was going to end up in jail or dead. They said it's not Jeff that they have a problem with, it is me and what I become when I am with Jeff. They can careless if I was with Jeff or someone else. They were tired of getting a call of "your sister is in jail and drove to New Orleans for 8 hours" or "your sister is in the middle of the street in new orleans with no where to go" or your sister is laying and making false allegations about her boyfriend's sister. They were absoultely tired of it and were scared. They said they felt like they had no option except put every penny together in order for me to receive help and have this conversation. The bottom line was if you wanna be with Jeff, do whatever suits you as long as you can manage your emotions and not be a compelete fuckin wreck when you are with him. If you choose to support him if he does time then we would be sad for you but as long as you don't complain and negelct my life as long as I have been doing then they don't care.

The therapist and my family both agreed that Jeff and I don't allow enough time to pass before we start talking again. Which never allows time for us to heal or change. My family said they put me in here because they didn't know what drugs I was doing, what the hell was going on but they knew that I had a hard time leaving new orleans and things fell apart badly.

The therapist said that I even proved that the lawyer was right about advising Jeff not to talked to me when I proved his words by doing what I did to his sister. It took all that money for me to have this conversation. I had to hear of outsiders their guess and analytical thinking of the situation. Now I have to prove to my family, Jeff, his family and most importantly to myself that I can manage my life, my own emotions, not lie or tattletale, and give someone space if I have been asked to. So now I am still suffering but I am leaving with a new understanding, prosepctive about the situation. I understand more than I can ever understand. So we shall see the plan into action. Here I go........

Methoxetamine. It's a hell of a compound. I dosed a good dose of MxE and I am now having these positive epiphanies, I feel alive and blissful for the first time in a long long time. This drug is beyond words. I am thinking about positive changes in my life, all prompted by the mindset this drug put me in. I am reflecting on past mistakes and how to avoid making them again.

This drug heals.

More later.

Hi guys. I'lll be documenting my journey of growing psilocybin mushrooms using the PF Tek method in this blog here. The strand I will be growing is the Golden Teacher and I will cover everything from turning a print into a syringe to picking the last flush.

Keep in tune. I get time off soon for a few months, so I will be starting then.

P.S. I'm a total n00b at growing shrooms, I've only successfully done it once before so this'll be fun!

Hi everyone I was hoping someone could give me a bit of advice on this combination. I'm planning on taking 20mg valium to smooth out the shakes i get from adderall, 20mg of oxy (in form of perocet 10/325) and 10mg of adderall IR....I also made a fentanyl nasal spray bottle and am familiar with the dosing and how much i am injesting. I am very experienced in using these I just wanted an opinion. My tolerance to all of these are high, but I'm one of the few who if I dont use for a few days it will drop (not dramatically but decently). If anyone has experience with this combo any advice is appriciated! I just like the combination of release of dopamine.

About three or four weeks ago family members in New York began getting very nervous about a hurricane that was shaping up to be nearly a perfect storm in the negative sense of the word. As that was taking place one of thr two dozen typhoons (the Pacific equivalent to a hurricane) slammed into Luzon, the island upon which Manila sits as well as it being home to Joysa and her family. Joysa's home in the municipality of Hagonoy, in Bulacan Province sits literaLly 15 meters (45 ft) from a major river. Every high tide there is at least 1.5 meters (4.5 ft) of water in her living room.

With this typhoon, which co-incidentally struch during high tide, she and her family had to climb atop their roof and wait for whatever pittance the govt. decided to air drop to them. I wired her a few hundred US Dollars but until now there is still no electricity there although the waters have greatly receeded.

Then, this past weekend 300 NPA (Maoist) guerillas attacked 4 mining outfits all owned by the Sumitomo Corporation, a huge Japanese company. All 4 are roughly 25 klicks from me (20 miles more or less). It was an incredible attack in , all in the town of Claver which they blew up two ocean going freighters, at least 142 tandem dump lorries, more than 3 dozen backhoes, etc, etc. All in all they wracked more than 1.5 Billion US in destruction in just that one attack. They only killed four soldiers in the mine's paramilitary but also took 4 prisoners. The result has led to a massive redeployment into this part of hell. It seems that when it rains, it pours as the saying goes.

Yesterday afternoon a govt. soldier was killed capturing an NPA camp 2 klicks off of our cattle operation in the town of Esperanza. I have never seen the Flips launch an operation of the current magnitude. Our island already has 70% of the military deployed on it and they are now focusing their full power on our sector. Our guys (BULIF) are operation 24/7 but that isn't unusual.

The common law wife of that Scottish man, Luisa Galvez, the woman that was kidnapped? She was freed over the weekend after the MILF, the Muslim guerillas holding her fled as their camp was being overrun. She was shot in both legs but will live to tell about it.

5 new kidnappings since Sunday but they are all local victims so nooone cares, what a world. I did find a bit of cheer though; on Sunday a 10 year old girl in the town of Magpet was talking to her 21 year old male cousin when he grabbed her, dragged her into the jungle, and bashed her face in as he raped her. Thinking she was dead he left her buried in a shallow pit covered with banana leaves. The girl revived, made her way home and now the bastard is being hunted by the family. Sometimes good people do win.

I ended up getting 3 bags with my wife. Had to hit the exchange up first so atleast we got sharps to use instead on the dull thing we had. Bags were smaller than the ones from the other day, but better quality. Had to cold cop on SouthCarolina again. Always hate having to do that, but atleast it's quick.
So, we each did one and there's one left for tomorrow. After that, no idea what i intend to do. I could sit and go thru WD cause it won't be too bad, or maybe go and try and find a sub. So many things I need to do too....
Atleast we got to hangout with an old friend we hadn't seen in a whlie. Someone I went to school with so I got to hear about what happened to others I went to school with., Guess I missed my 10 year reunion. But, if I didn't want to see them 10 years ago, doubt I'd want to now..
Caught the new South Park. Not quite what I was expecting, but funny as always.

OK so I've worked in porn on many sides of the industry, i gogo danced/stripped, escorted, modeled nude, slept with more people than I can count, and ALL I WANT is the most vanilla, boring, lights-off, in-bed, guy-and-girl, monogamous, missionary style sex. (I haven't been in a relationship for years so I don't get laid anyway now, and my libido is like GONE due to meds I was on and just my other situations.)

But it's funny how everyone if they know my past, think I'd be totally into all sorts of kinky shit, but I'm totally opposite. (They also assume I was molested or abused or raped, and nothing like that ever happened to me at all.) I guess all the years of porn, watching it and working in it (mainly as camera-person/editor) and the other stuff I did has desensitized me to the point where I just want something so BASIC it shocks people. And it confuses guys because I think they think I'll be all one way, and then I'm totally not.

I dunno, just felt like saying that.

It's a trap!

Been thinking bout going back on subs too. Best part of them is it keeps the desire to use down and is so much cheaper. The best I ever did was when I would go work up north during the week and do my subs (1mg IV morning, sometimes another after work) then come home for weekend and buy a bundle or two. I actually stayed in Leonardo, about a block from the quick stop from the movie clerks. There weren't any dealers hanging out in front of the store tho.
Scene might be bigger here, but I , for all intents and purposes, was the scene in my town. For almost 2 years I never once had to worry about copping or getting money. Really spoiled me. Although, I gotta say it was nice having a rest after hustling nonstop with no day off for like 16 months. Although, I gotta say I'm soooo lucky to not be in jail. i walked away from being caught with 5 or 6 g of dope, about 400 used needles, suboxone, methadone, valium, and whatever else knows what was in my room.
Glad there's others from Atlantic City on here. Makes the world feel a little smaller.
Definitely easy to cop in the city, but it's just so hot. Took me as long to cop as long as it took me to walk to new york ave apts. Course there was a cop sitting right on the Tennessee waiting, but we walked right by him. Heading there now, post when i get back

Just came back from new mexico where I had a daily dope habit of about 2g a day. Was slinging for the guy running the town. Got busted, but cops fucked up the case and got released and left. Kicked fucking hard in jail and came back home to jersey.
Picked up a small OC habit, not much like 10-20mg a day. Would be more but been taking em oral since IVing those is pain in the ass and getting gel in your veins sucks. Went to city 2 days ago and got 2 stamp bags and might do it tomorrow too. Everytime I get close to clean, I just can't stand the thought of it and feel the need to use again.

The Op Forums banned me with no real reason, here is the admin email i got---

I am sorry krazikomi,
From the comments that you made in you first posts we have decided that you would not be a good fit with our membership.
Please do not make another account as we check IP's and e-mails and usernames where duplicates will be banned immediately.
Go to your other small little boards and let them know how rotten we are to not permit you to be a member. I am sure they will have sympathy for you.
I too am a long term member of bluelight. Maybe I should look you up there.

Bye,



Now i must say that yes i did make some comments that were in poor taste like in a political thread i called Barack Obama a bad ass ninja for killing osama and alwaki. But in this day and age does that really warrant a bann? No where in the forum rules did i see that calling the president of our United States a bad ass ninja unacceptable or not allowed. I thought the site was a great resource for me. And i was going to add the its greatness. instead i get smacked with a mystery bann stick with a sad excuse of an explanation. God this gets me so angry. I also profusely apologized via email to the admin but he/she has yet to get back to me. So come on blue light help me out. Maybe appeal my ban to "Westend" their forum admin explain i meant no harm no foul. I really do want to be a active member on op forums.


Really wow why set off a person like me? Here is the lameness it says now when i log into the site.

You have been banned for the following reason:
Came on talking crap immediately. No attempt at becoming a real member
Date the ban will be lifted: Never

Why because admin is a Republican or something thinks Bush should get credit. I guess we will never know do to the lack of communication after all this.

http://overseaspharmacy.com/forum/forum.php

Watch your posts carefully or it may set of a political shit storm like no other. Better yet don't register with them at all, i like http://www.drugbuyersguide.com/ better. The admin there XanaxMaster is way cool and does not go on political vendettas against site members.

KK

just a test how do i delete?

I'm sober and I've been listening to full DJ set mixes on Spotify.com for hours and I f'n NEED to SLEEP cuz I didn't sleep last night. I'm just so stoked to hear so many awesome hard house/hard dance full sets that I haven't heard before, I can't turn the thing off....

(Thanks for the messages here, I'll reply tomorrow when I am not all feeling cracked out from no sleep.)

Good song. This is going to seem strange compared to my last few blogs, but I feel like God (or karma or Buddha or whoever... I'm agnostic so idk) is rewarding me lately. I've just been having all of these great things literally just fall into my lap. Without having to do any work.

1. Having the opportunity the ASA FMX World Championships.
2. Which ended up being the best night of my life, hands down. I networked, I met a few of my absolute FAVORITE riders, I was treated like VIP all night by people I didn't even know... a few time when the bouncers would be like, "You can't go into that area, you have to have a green wristband", some random person would come up and be like, "No, she's alright, let her in." And I'd get in.
3. I got to touch Todd Potter's dirtbike. Words will never describe.
4. Industry professionals have been hitting me up left and right since then to chill... hot ones!
5. People who more or less ignored me before are now crawling out of the woodwork and wanting to get close with me. Yeahh I know it's because they're trying to get an in now that I'm actually starting to be a bit more well-known in what I do, getting to know professional riders, getting to cover the good events. But it's still a good feeling to know that people look up to me and depend on me. Besides, they'll find out soon enough that I can't do anything for them... I'm not THAT well-connected. Yet. ;-)
6. I've been making some extra cash doing nothing but watching my friend's kids, who I absolutely adore, for an hour and taking them to school... and now instead of her paying me, the state is going to start paying me. And I'm going to be making A LOT more.

Most of those have to do with money, success, fame... materialistic things... but I'm too high on life at this very moment to care how that makes me look. I've needed this. I DESERVE this. For the last four months or so, and especially for the last few weeks, I've just been hoping and praying as hard as I could for my life to turn around. Like, just ONE good thing to happen... and now it's like, all of these amazing things are happening at once. I feel really, really blessed. People say money and fame can't buy happiness, but um... it sure as fuck helps!

Of course my problems aren't eliminated. There's still an undertone of sadness at the fact that *** and I had to finally make the decision to go our separate ways yesterday. I already miss him, and I get sad when I see his name. I still miss **** every day of my life and would give up all of those things I named above just to have him back, but I know it's impossible. I still have to deal with all of the traumatic shit that happened in the military and get over that. I'm still battling addiction and struggling to get off of Suboxone and Xanax, especially now that I slipped so far these past few weeks with taking more than I was supposed to a few days.

But things are starting to get better on the surface. *** was one of the biggest stressors in my life for the past few months, and even though I miss him now, I know I'll get over it soon. It will be nice to have that particular source of anxiety and stress gone. The financial opportunities I've been getting are going to help me massively as far as my debt goes, and I ALWAYS feel better when I know I have some extra cash to spend on myself... instead of just the very, VERY bare necesseties... and someday soon I can start spoiling myself again, even if it's just once a month. I'm a girl - you don't understand how much of a confidence and happiness booster a simple manicure or new haircut or new outfit or a new bag can be. I've been meeting tons of new people, and I'll be starting school soon.. a new school.. and making even more new friends. That definitely helps with the massive loneliness I've been feeling lately. I still want that *special someone* since I've been single for two years, but I'm not going to complain about what I have right now either. I'm content with what I have at the moment.

Now all I need is to work on the things under the surface, and I'll be good to go.
But that is going to be the hardest battle by far, so... yeah. Change is in the air though, and it seems to be for the better. Let's hope it stays this way. Wish me luck guys

I just had the most amazing night of my life. I got to meet, talk to, get numbers, take pics with, etc. my favorite dirtbiking team... the event was amazing... I had sooo much fun while I was there lol I didn't want to leave!!

But the second I got in my car and drove away, I got depressed. I called everyone I knew, because I knew being by myself tonight would be a bad idea, and either no one had a place to chill, they didn't pick up their phones, or they straight up said they didn't want to chill because they were busy. I got turned down for sex twice. Now I'm sitting at home, alone, depressed as fuck and double fisting wine and beer.

There is something wrong with me. How is it that I can have the most amazing night of my life, hell I can get famous athletes' numbers and get invited to after parties and shit, I have all this amazing stuff going on for me... and yet here I am, drinking by myself and crying my fucking eyes out.

This depression is getting worse. I can't deal with the emotional pain without pills or alcohol anymore. It's too much. Sometimes I think that if I died tomorrow, no one would realize it. I need a certain person back in my life so bad... I need him more than ever... he made me happy, no matter what kind of bullshit was going down, even when I was raped, he made everything better... he made sticking it out worth it... in fact, he's the only reason I stayed there as long as I did... and now he's never coming back. I keep thinking of how much happier I would be if I could just walk three doors down to his room, knock on the door, and throw back some brews and play Guitar Hero.

But all of that is gone. I feel like something inside of me is dying. I'm getting more and more depressed every day. This is bad. I don't understand how I could have such an amazing night, and then come home and cry. I don't really understand why I'm so sad.

I don't get it.

I don't think everyone who's had an addiction problem needs to be fully abstinent from all drugs/alcohol for the rest of their lives. All addictions are different depending on the substance and person. Just cuz I did way too much Xanax for years does not mean I am an alcoholic. Just cuz I was doing too much speed so I could make more money at my job at the time, and cuz I couldn't handle other things better, does not mean it'll happen that way again.

I mean, because it won't.

Who'll believe that, but I know it's true.

They always say shit like you can judge someone based on their past behavior. And like, people don't change, blah blah.

But some people DO totally change, like, for real. I mean, our body chemistry can change, biologically we change, mentally we change.

I hate how some people get so stuck with their sayings and mantras and beliefs they can't think outside of them, but they THINK they are so open-minded. And they aren't.

UGH. OK. ENOUGH.

(OOH, the new DJ set I'm listening to just got really good. Damn I love Tidy Trax. I don't think THAT will ever change. Loved them from the first note I heard like 10 years ago... I may be 85 and still bouncing to Andy Farley...)

Anyone ever do meth while rolling?

It was HORRIBLE. I mean, not like death horrible, but it ruined a great roll (with GHB might I add, my favorite combo in the universe) for 30 minutes and I turned mean and achy and irritable and, NOT ecstatic. Theoretically meth SHOULD work OK with MDMA, I mean, both stimulants, one works on serotonin, one on dopamine, and E is often cut with meth, so they should complement each other. but I realize, no, they don't, not for me.

Then I knew at the moment: I am a ROLLER at heart. I am NOT a tweaker. I don't LIKE the meth "high." I like being not fatigued all day, and not stuck in bed cuz of my back injury, and not over-eating due to another med i am on or boredom... But I don't like... TWEAKING.

Cuz I spent too much time on that level, and I was bonkers and it was not fun.

Anyway, just my stream of consciousness... (and yes, I used to write/rant on like this WAY before I ever tried a drug or drank. So it's not drug speak, it's me, whether I like it or not, LOL.)

... is that, when you DON'T have awesome crystal, but just got semi sorta so-so kinda OK crystal (like, not dirty or full of nasty ephedra fillers and not making you sick or anything) is that you don't DO IT ALL SO FAST... it's just mediocre but it WORKS, so I am not stuck in bed half the day and I'm losing that horrid weight i gained from a med last year (GOD really, 40 lbs in 3 months, like anyone would get on speed to lose some of that fast... long story, won't rehash it).

I've been using for 6 years (not counting MDMA, which has been for 10 years but haven't done it in 2 years, and getting not great MDMA is NOT a good thing AT ALL though, ever, ever, ever.) And not counting Xanax or other benzos, which I pretty much ate like candy for about 8 years... now I just am prescribed a normal amount every month.

I actually enjoy NOT getting "tweaky" and shit, I kinda just feel, well, NORMAL when I have speed that isn't TOO good to make me wanna clean my house at 4 a.m. or stay up 10 days. And then I don't want to keep doing it all the time, cuz I'm just tired of it faster.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to keep spending what little $ i have on low-quality shit, but I have to see the good side of it. When it's like this, I feel like it's medication, not a party in a bag.

I got a little carried away....

Ultra Personal Survey - Deep survey for the bored soul


001. What is Your Name? SoCalGirl
002. How old are you? 34
003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? Not telling
004. Height 5'5"
005. Weight: 119
006. Location: Torrance, CA

The first time...
007. You had sex? 19
008. You had oral sex? 16
009. The age you started puberty? 11

The last time...
010. You masturbated? weeks ago
011. You took a shower? today
012. You kissed someone? who? a week ago, my ex
013. You saw someone else naked? who? two days ago, a guy
014. You played truth or dare? long time ago
015. What was the worst dare you ever had to do? a TV reality show fake date
016. What was the worst dare you ever witnessed some one do? ?

Random:
017. What are you wearing? sweats
018. Are you single? yes
019. How many relationships have you had? many
020. How many of them were sexual? many many
021. If you could change on thing about yourself what would it be? That I hadn't been so crazy
022. What kind/brand of underwear are you wearing? Joe Boxer Thongs
023. Have you ever had a one night stand? yes
024. Are you happy with your looks? yes

The URL link to this survey is:
http://tjshome.com/survey/takesurvey.php?id=335.


Sorry ya'll, thanks for putting up with me!!! %)

Well, I'm not ranting about shit right now, but actually am looking for any DJs/producers, etc. of any genre and experience-level, who want to take a crack at remixing any of the pro-recorded vocal-only tracks I have.

I wrote them, so no prob with copyright or anything. I have a demo out from several years ago and am on quite a few sites with remixes of my tracks, a couple even got club play and radio play in the UK and Germany a couple years ago...

I have a few songs that haven't really had any remixing done with them yet so they just sound like acappela ballads, but can be remixed easily with trance, house, etc. And I have a couple tracks that HAVE been remixed, but it was awhile ago and i'd love to hear different versions.

So this is basically a casual, fun thing for our self-promotional purposes, and if there are any money-making opps that come around for our finished track, we'll discuss the terms then.

Send me a message or reply if interested and i'll email you the vocal track mp3s, and send you the links to the other stuff I've done so you can hear it.

yeah I'm dropping the anonymity thing by doing this but really, I don't think anyone HERE will care about that.

Oh and my sound is similar kinda to Jes, Dido, DJ Sammy, Lasgo... you know, the typical female vocals they use on clubby tracks and such... it's what I started listening to back in like 2000 so I started writing/recording my own stuff of those styles then. But now I mainly listen to much harder stuff, hard house and hardstyle, industrial, EBM, darkwave... so I'm totally open to any type of remix (even if it's not electronica.... my vox can work in mainstream styles too, sort of like Jewel, Michelle Branch, that kinda stuff...) so whatever you want to make from my vox, I'll be interested in it!

Contact me if interested and I'll send you the stuff.

I have been in a little funk lately.

A funk is kinda like, where everything is shitty for like 3 or 4 days. Including my social mood. I have been kind of bitchy to my friends and family lately. Nothing out of the ordinary, but I am normally pretty happy go lucky so it is different for me.

I guess I am stressed from legal shit. I have to write a 5 page paper on the effects of drugs to the brain. I guess I will do some research. Really, it will be tough to write it without glorifying drugs.

Gah, just a lot of bullshit. I have to appear in the court in front of the judge this week. It is just a hearing, where the judge checks on your probation status to see how you have been doing. Other than the fact I can't find work and haven't payed my fees, I have done everything else perfectly. I haven't failed one drug test, I have done all the requirements as well.

Things should go smoothly. I am REALLY hoping to find a job soon. I met up with a guy at my old work. I use to work at a gas station called happy kampers. It is also a game room, so they have slot machines. You can only win store credit on them, though. Even though I was fired from there, I am still very social with everyone there and make my appearances every day. Well, I met a dude that I had seen before when I worked there. His dad owns dish network and he has a computer science degree. He's real chill though, we have joked around before. He said he has a new job coming up and needs someone he can trust. I use to work at dish network, so I am very good with the subject and have a lot of knowledge on it. He was impressed with that, and took my number and gave me his card. It looks really good, but because of previous let-downs lately, I am not going to get my hopes up.

We shall see. Everything will be alright, it always is.

I'm 17, and i've done coke about 6 different times. Im a little guy, and i have smoked weed, done percs, vics, morph, methadone, x pills, molly. But when i do coke, im scared i'm going to have a heart attack. I just get really paranoid, and this prevents me from getting high off coke. i've only did about one line because i was scared i was going to die. Help? 8(

I know i shouldnt be into this stuff, but i'm 17, i'm 5'5 110 lbs. I smoke weed once a week or so, i have been doing percs and vics for over a year. Only when i can find them. So i have a little expierience with them. I get high with around 15mg of oxycodone. So, how does the fent patch work? i'm getting it today and would it get me high? if so how long? How to be safe about this? It's 25 mcg.

If you like pills and pot!

I need more pot though.

That is all.