1/ When I was a little girl I walked out of the house my dad still lives in now and said to him 'Our house is a very magic house and nothing bad will ever happen here'. He still tells me this story to this day. I still believe it.
2/ I never ever wear high heels and am very boyish. I'm more comfy in jeans, chunky boots or trainers. I'm short so my jeans often end up scuffed at the bottom. This is a never ending problem. I ought to find myself a tailor.
3/ I have been tattooed by a homeless person. On my inner right wrist I designed it myself it consists of spirals and dots, spirals are important especially in nature. It was done in 2004 in my bedroom by a friend who was homeless at the time. I met him at a rock night at Newcastle Arena and we clicked. He was a professional tattooist living in a hostel. All the kit was fully sterilised. Last I heard he had been rehoused and was getting his life back on track. I have another on my back which was done in a tattoo shop.
4/ When I was 21 years old my Mother died. I miss her immensely and it had more of an affect on me than I probably know.
5/ When I was 27 years old my Boyfriend died. I blamed myself (and sometimes still do) for a long time but feel I am coming to terms with this in in the right way,if there is a right way!
6/ I'm not as strong as people seem to think, but maybe I am? I'm very good at pretending that everything is fine and using things to mask my feelings, but when I snap I really do snap. My finger is always half hovering over my self destruct button - often!
7/I can never stay in one place for too long, and could be accused of running away from things. I like to think that I have stopped this now. The longest I have ever stayed in one place other than 'birth home' is six months. I think I have lived in ten cities and 2 different countries, I lost track.
8/I am used to having few personal possessions and living out of suitcases and boxes. Objects are only material objects but it does get me down sometimes, I have to admit that. People are much more important though
9/I have a degree in English Literature yet I do not have what society would deem a career.This does not mean that I do not want one, there is time. I work behind a bar. I am forever being asked at work by people what my 'main job' is. This annoys me yet it does not. Learning about real people and myself is far more important to me than making money and meeting any ideal that society may force upon me. I have endless stories to tell that could probably write a book.
10/ I don't feel like I'm ever going to grow up. I look a lot younger than I actually am. I'm like Peter Pan.
11/ Music is my life. It mends broken hearts. I can't go a day without listening to some. I can't walk anywhere without music in my ears, even if it's just a five minute walk to the shop.
12/ I have been able to play piano since I was six. I can sight read music. Gave up on lessons and let my dad and myself teach me.
13/ I am always late, it's like it's built into me or something. I never lie about why I am late, I always tell the truth, even if I have to just say sorry I wanted another drink, or I had to stay and listen to one more song, or I got a later bus than planned! I refused to leave my mothers womb on time, maybe this is the reason why.
14/ I can no longer remember my natural hair colour. It has been messed around with that much that it is now loosing it's pigment and I will have to dye it for the rest of my life. It's currently half raven black and dark brown on the top. I decided to try get rid of the raven black it's been dyed for the past 5 years.
15/ I can't function on a morning without first having a cup of coffee. Until I have caffeine there is no point at all even attempting to speak to me with the intention of getting any sense out of me!
16/ 'No matter how cold the winter there's a spring time ahead' is one of my favourite lyrics. It's from 'Thumbing my way' by Pearl Jam. It reminds me that no matter how bad things seem nothing is forever and things will change.
17/ I love Nick Drake. This is one of my favourite pictures of him
http://ledebriefing.files.wordpress.com/2007/07/nick_drake.jpg He is said to be holding Psilocybin mushrooms. I am all for expanding ones mind.
18/I am forever putting off until tomorrow what I could easily do today.
19/ I love reading and usually have about 6 books on the go at once.
20/ I tend to help other people as much as I can, often this is detrimental to myself. I have been told that I do this as part of my running away issue to ignore anything that may be going on with me. I've come to a realisation recently, and have started to let others in to help ME!
21/ I bury my head. No explanation needed.
22/ When I was a little girl I used to dream of running away with the circus. I still do.
23/ I flew out of New York on the 10th of September 2001 (American time). The morning I arrived back in London the World Trade Building was hit by two planes, 9/11. A few months before I had decided to fly home on the 11th, but something made me change my flight at the last moment.
24/ I often create my own problems, or push people away to see if they will come back.
25/ I love Machiavellianism. If you don't know what it is look it up.
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LOL i will miss my cola but my health is more important. I have never been super into chocolate, so that is easy to cut out. I now have been stimulant free for 3 days.
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