I just wanted to see if other people do this to themselves as well as I do. I mean, life is what we make of it, right? So why stay in painful times and not try to make better ones. I know it's hard, but maybe it's harder to dewell. Maybe we should let the old person die in a sense and become what we want and not let people have control over us.
Strong people make as many mistakes as weak people. Difference is that strong people admit their mistakes, laugh at them, learn from them. That is how they become strong.
~Richard Needham
I want to learn from them and help others. Instead of always playing the victim. I lost a lot of friends by just feeling like I was targeted for a lot of the pain I endured. Instead of moving on and making things as right as I can. No one is targeted, a lot of times bad things happen to good people all the time. My sorrow caused me and my friends a lot of sorrow that I may never be able to make right. I do understand why, but I will still try. I wished I could take a lot of the things I have had happen in my life for many years, and just make them a distant memory instead of dewelling on them. It would have hurt me less in the long run for sure. Instead of playing the victim, I am going to make things right as I can with what I am in control to make right. So slowly try and get my friends back and my life right.
Please don't make my mistake, and if you have, you still have time to change and get your close friends back or family. You always have time no matter what, unless your dead with no breath in your body. I hope to reach you before the guilt kills you. It almost killed me until I began to see my wrongs and realized the world owes me nothing. I used to think it was such a dumb quote that it is better to love for a short time then to never love at all. It is all how you let yourself feel your experiences, and read that quote and REALLY understand it. It is ultimately left up to us and how it effects us.
Sorry for the rant.
If anyone else wants to write down in this thread about how they would like to change the way they feel, and start trying to take some of the responsible for their outcomes or maybe how they can help themselves feel better. It does help more then you know to write it down. It makes you feel less helpless, if you get some control back.
Strong people make as many mistakes as weak people. Difference is that strong people admit their mistakes, laugh at them, learn from them. That is how they become strong.
~Richard Needham
I want to learn from them and help others. Instead of always playing the victim. I lost a lot of friends by just feeling like I was targeted for a lot of the pain I endured. Instead of moving on and making things as right as I can. No one is targeted, a lot of times bad things happen to good people all the time. My sorrow caused me and my friends a lot of sorrow that I may never be able to make right. I do understand why, but I will still try. I wished I could take a lot of the things I have had happen in my life for many years, and just make them a distant memory instead of dewelling on them. It would have hurt me less in the long run for sure. Instead of playing the victim, I am going to make things right as I can with what I am in control to make right. So slowly try and get my friends back and my life right.
Please don't make my mistake, and if you have, you still have time to change and get your close friends back or family. You always have time no matter what, unless your dead with no breath in your body. I hope to reach you before the guilt kills you. It almost killed me until I began to see my wrongs and realized the world owes me nothing. I used to think it was such a dumb quote that it is better to love for a short time then to never love at all. It is all how you let yourself feel your experiences, and read that quote and REALLY understand it. It is ultimately left up to us and how it effects us.
Sorry for the rant.
If anyone else wants to write down in this thread about how they would like to change the way they feel, and start trying to take some of the responsible for their outcomes or maybe how they can help themselves feel better. It does help more then you know to write it down. It makes you feel less helpless, if you get some control back.