Setting: Alone in my small apartment, outside is 25C degree, yesterday I did some Modafinil and although it wasn't easy, I was able to sleep like 5 hours during the night. My stomach it's totally empty.
Aim: Get high because of boredom, and also research the recreational and non recreational properties of this NMDA receptor antagonist drug.
11.20am - I took 20mg Ebixa Memantine (2 pills) with some Sprite. The box was purchased just a few minutes ago.
11.45am - It's hot outside. I took 20mg more Memantine and 75mg Pregabalin (1 Lyrica pill) just in case to prevent seizures.
12.00pm - Definitely starting to feel 'something', subtly similar to a micro K dose. I was not thinking in K at all, so I don't think it's placebo. Weird.
12.15pm - While researching for experiences on this stuff, I felt a very subtle high in the awareness of my surroundings. Also I noticed I laughed in front of my computer at some point. This is getting interesting.
Gonna do another 75mg Pregabalin and 2mg Clonazepam.
13.00pm - Lying on my bed listening to Oasis, I was able to feel a subtle sensation of urge to do things (like order my room, play some videogames, and even go outside), and at the same time, a sensation of "feeling good"/"everything it's ok" relax. The music sounded pretty good, definitely better, but this could be because of the Lyrica, Clonazepam, or because of the Modafinil taken yesterday.
I couldn't get any CEVs but I am seeing everything more sharp and detailed, it's a very weird feeling. Gonna take 10mg more Memantine (40mg so far), and try my cognitive abilities playing some Tetris. Last note, although I am a little restless, I am feeling kinda happy.
Again, last note: I am beginning to be extremely focused.
1.50pm - Ok, now, I AM HIGH; as I expected, my performance playing logical games (Tetris, Chess) was very good, I was EXTREMELY focused in the shapes, in the blocks coming, in the next move, in the whole arrange of pieces on the board, etc.
Playing Tetris never was so intense and fun.
My ears are ringing a little and mi vision it's... difficult to describe.. like I have a mild layer of noise, and everything seems even more ... interesting, like, a poster it's not just a poster, but a object of it's own (what did I just wrote??).Well, I am going to try to score some DXM, wish me luck.
4.00pm - A lot happened. I got a call from an interview I had the last week to get a job as a programmer. They want to hire me. Awesome.
Back to the DXM; it was a little far but I was able to get 300mg only DXM syrup.
I felt extremely focused in the street, far from any upper I had taken (Cocaine, Modafinil, Ritalin). Coming home I purchased an orange Gatorade for the electrolytes. And now, I am nicely high. I think the Memantine will potentate ^3 the DXM, so I'm gonna start low with 100mg of DXM.
Wow. Some Clonazepam in my desk in any case.
4.40pm - Did 100mg more DXM.
5.40pm - Feeling reeally good. I have a little headache, but everything else in my body feels good and wooby (wooby?), like walls, chairs, and beds feels like cotton.
Playing Infamous 2 in my PS3 was very fun, cool, and nice, also how the texture of the walls began to move by itself. I'm happy.
I won't take more Memantine until tomorrow (I think) because of the long bioavailability.
6.05pm - Writing it's becoming difficult because of the DXM. My eyes are watered, and I randomly see things with blur. Still the little headache, but feeling fine and happy. Measuring my heart pressure with my finger, I get that my BPM (Heart rate) it's ok. The DXM is coming, and I still have 100mg more to go... I'm pretty sure the Memantine are improving the trip a lot. It's 6.10PM... I can't wait until the night comes.
6.15pm - I GOT AGAIN. The awareness you're outside of the time travel line and you measure you're life and the world year by year. Probably that doesn't make sense. But I got it, an AWESOME feeling of mix between DXM and K.... I'm starting to reeeally enjoy this!
6.30pm - Getting incredible thoughts while playing Infamous 2. Like "this is the best sand box game ever made -> what's a sand box? it has so many meanings... it's an open world, you do what you want with what you have whenever you can -> Does my life resemble a sand box game?"
Summer here, waiting for the night to take the 100mg DXM left.
6.45pm - did 50mg DXM.
7.15pm - I'm nicely high, and prepared to enter uncharted territories. I'm gonna take 10mg Memantine and 250mg Naproxen. I hate summer, it's 7.15pm and still it's all sunny.
7.40pm - Had an interesting conversation with my dad over the phone. I asked him to "get" a box of Clonazepam because I was short of it, and if this trip lasts too long I will need a lot to balance myself for my job tomorrow.
I was able to speak normally and even use advanced dialect, and EVEN remember things from the past that he nor me remembered. This is so awesome... gonna take the last DXM, so, at this point I'm reaching the 300mg.
A day later - I will try to be objective. Memantine is an incredible drug. I "grew up" thinking that opiates was the ultimate drug for the human; I was wrong, I knew I was wrong since I entered into my first K-hole, but in the case of Memantine, the perspective changes totally-
First, It's not Ketamine in pills, in case someone was thinking that; at large doses like I used to did half a year ago (70-120mg) it feels like a very subtle mild Ketamine dose (taken by nose or orally), but the drug stays so much time in your system that you develop a feeling of schizophrenia very soon, and even temporary huge memory loss (like going to cross the street and stay still watching at the semaphore thinking and loop-thinking what was the name of that thing with 3 different colors...), something that scared the hell out of me. (In case you didn't get it, it's not worth it as a Ketamine substitute at all).
Second, It's a wonder drug. It is the best or unique nootropic in some cases, it is not a psychostimulant drug of the phenethylamine class, it's not an Amphetamine. It doesn't raise the BPM a lot like any other upper or "smart drug", it is something cool, and of course, with its consequences: you can't redose like you could with drugs like Adderall, Modafinil, Ritalin, Cocaine, etc; if you go farther than you should, it begins to loop your thinking, not your way of deduce things, you fall into mental inner thoughts that loops, and it's scary. Who knows what could happen in the brain of a Memantine OD? at least you don't have to worry about your heart rate.
Third and last, probably something very important for everyone, it DOES reduce the tolerance to almost every drug. In my case, a lot to amphetamines, moderately to opiates, and little to benzos. But even to benzodiazepines, it's incredible.
This is probably why it's ALSO being tested for generalized anxiety disorder, epilepsy, opioid dependence, systemic lupus erythematosus, depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, Tourette Syndrome, problem gambling, attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), glaucoma,tinnitus, neuropathic pain including Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, pervasive developmental disorders, HIV associated dementia, nystagmus, multiple sclerosis, autism and migraine according to Wikipedia.
But damn, I was just passing by and I didn't have my CV with me and it was a down side of it. I left my name and my phone number but the guy fobbed me off, I guess. Too bad.
I don't want to go back. On the other side seeing how London changes people is also sad.
