What is K holing? I guess it is Katamine related. So you will do it twice the same day (Saturday) early morning and night. I thought one gives a gap of at least 3 weeks in between trips.
You said “for hours and hours I will be gone into a place beyond time and space at one with universe”. That is ego death also I think.
You said “seeing many many things”. I am sure you have seen many things in trips before also especially the during the trip where you took large doses of LSD and Katamine and that which cured your PTSD.
Can you tell me do you see “Benevolent Beings”? I wonder if what trippers see is more or less lucid dreams.
Do you have lucid dreams too?
I sometimes have lucid dreams and I always fly at lightening speed in my lucid dreams and can touch and feel things in nature.
I will be curious to know what kind of things you encounter when you are tripping and when you reach ego death and Union with divine.
What dies Union with divine feel like? Do you feel your presence in that moment or you become one with whatever force we call divine?
i have been doing lucid dreaming for over 13 years. I use to be very good at it.
the K-Hole is when you consume so much ketamine that you enter what is called the k-hole a complete state of dissociation. Out of body, This is like a near death experince or life review. With ketamine its different, you can just keep doing it instead of having to wait. This leads it open to abuse and addiction.
I have seen future events play out in trips that come true. I saw many aspects of my life flash before my eyes. Deep insights into who i am and the life events that made me.
I have seen "beings" on mushrooms. I have seen hindu gods on LSD. I have seen shiva, ganesha, buddha, jesus and i have also seen the devil. I also saw vinshu on LSD one time.
DMT i met some beings.
When you have ego death, what you experince is a total dissolution of separation. Your consciousness expands out to infinity. This is beyond language, time and space. Your life as you know it is gone. What is in this space is just pure love, bliss, peace. The visuals are indescribable just infinite complex beauty.
The ultimate and highest answer to all of reality and life itself is Love. Within yourself is a source of infinite divine love. A full ego death you will know nothing, not even that your on drugs, or human or what planet earth is. Existence fades out and your in a source of infinity. The godhead. Merged into god.
Its breath taking when you come back in awe i usually cry at the beauty of life, Knowing that we are divine, We are one, We are love. This love is beyond anything you could experience in your life.
If people simply knew the secret to life was simply just love. It would end all the divisions, the wars. We are one family. We all came from the same source to experince this human experince. We are divine beings.
one of my most peak experinces during a ego death was on LSD. A rush of endless thoughts i couldn't control, the visuals were insane, suddenly i got stuck in this loop thinking about what if i am living in a simulated reality inside my own head that is also a simulated reality inside that subjects head, it blew my mind i was like i can not disprove or prove this. Suddenly, it struck me what is a simulated reality, what is reality, What is words, what is anything, what is a question?, What am i?, Then i was like what whos even asking this question i was so far gone inside my own mind that as soon i questioned who was asking the question i was shot out of my body out of my room out of earth into space then out of space into infinity where i was no longer human. I was at the source of creation.
Only one word could come to my mind when i returned to my body from that timeless space was GOD.
I can't even begin to describe what it was like. I Cried and cried and got my knees when i came back to my body in awe at the truth. Knowing we are loved so deeply always.
That was the greatest timeless moment of my entire life. Nothing will ever top that. At the time i was like this is it, this is why i have gone through so much pain and suffering through my life, To experince this one moment, this highest truth, this divinity. Everything led me to this point. I felt at peace for a few weeks.
knowing that i will never return to that same exact experince, all i can do is cherish the memory i have of it.