Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
The joint was in a sealed container so it was just fine.That's a big step. Hope you're doing ok. Hope it's not too dry.
I'm not doing too well. I was getting a bit agoraphobic. I am afraid nothing's going to work and I'm just going to give up too. I still think about dying a lot but have a lot to live for. I don't want to leave a heap of devastation at my other people's doorsteps as my best friend did. I can't believe he just gave up like that.
Deep breaths. Patience with the body. Stuff like that.
Was taking quite high dosages of alprazolam per day at first to cope with things. Am basically off it now. Only a little alcohol or half bar at night or day-drinking or what not. I don't really like drinking and it doesn't agree well with my body. I basically just want to be alone. Other people have a hard time understanding that. They are more social and want more comfort. I just want less of everything. It's probably why people seek out alcohol/BZD's to begin with.