Lucy20
Ex-Bluelighter
Is it that hard to put dirty laundry in the laundry basket and not on the floor next to it?
I'm to sober to deal with your mood swings, no im not apologizing and kissing your ass for YOUR mistakes. No thanks for getting up with your hell child all summer, nothing appreciated of me. You don't realize how close I am to never speaking to you again , you say im so fked up i should be lucky i have you??. Loosing my father in the most painful way and its "luck" dealing with your bs?? Fuck off
He actually said you're fucked up and should be lucky you have him? That really upsets me and I know how much effort you put into the relationship for his kid and everything. By demeaning you, he's trying to lower your self-esteem and make you feel like you can't leave him. Piece of shit. He doesn't deserve you at all.
Thank you, i am messed up from my past but nothing horrible. It do see like he is trying to convert me that i can't do better. I know i deserve more then this and every time I say "leave me then and find someone with no issue " he changes his tune and talks about how strong and beautiful i am. I don't know what kind of head games e is playing but i can't handle itt. Im newly sober, im watching the only person i have die slowly and alone(except from me), i'm worried i will loose my job . I have so much going on right now and he claims he is there to support me but he isn't. Not the support I would want.
He thinks that where i opened up to him and shared things i never thought i would, probably a mistake, that i am bound to him in some way but im not.
I have always had pride in myself being independent and a strong person so i know i can survive without him and seeing how im being treated while going through the hardest thing I could go through has done nothing but make me sick.
Not seeing him again isn't what hurts, it was confiding in him and trusting him to be treated like garbage
My ex tried to make me feel like I couldn't do better. He would say things like "No one will love you like I do." Any man who tries to control you like that should be left. You are an amazing person and you have enough to deal with. You don't need him adding negative vibes. You shouldn't give him the time of day to poison your thoughts. He's not worth it. You have so much going for you and you have a bright future. Just do the best you can and only focus on taking care of yourself. You need to forget that guy. Are you still technically together? If it were me, I'd get rid of his ass. You don't need someone making things worst.
I told him I was done but i don't speak to him much because i don't want to be more upset. I thought it was withdrawal from paxil but now i think that he just hid himself very well. When I look back there were signs of a shitty personality but i was in love and looked past it all.
There is no coming back from adding extra pain and stress on me at a time like this, i wouldn't do that to an enemy, let alone someone i claimed to love
people need to wise up.