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Withdrawal & Craving MEGA-thread

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starting WD from pharm opiates tommorrow.doin 200- 250mg a day. got a good amount of suboxone, guna get some of that "restful legs" stuff at CVS. im sure some of you know where im at. anyone got any tips on how i can help control my mental control so i dont just give in after 5 days and really stick with it. its ruining alot of shit with my boys and my parents. thanks in advance all ;)
 
tylerwashere said:
starting WD from pharm opiates tommorrow.doin 200- 250mg a day. got a good amount of suboxone, guna get some of that "restful legs" stuff at CVS. im sure some of you know where im at. anyone got any tips on how i can help control my mental control so i dont just give in after 5 days and really stick with it. its ruining alot of shit with my boys and my parents. thanks in advance all ;)
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You just have to finally admit to yourself that you must live the rest of your life without opiates. It has become a poison to your body and taking it again will destroy your life. The venom of a spider might kill one instantaneously but the poison of opiates will kill you in a long agonizing depressing time.
 
cocaine blues

i have heard several stories of drugs(rx) that will kill the craving for coke. At this point i use daily and can't function without. i firmly believe that it is an excellent anti depressant and have researched that it was in fact used for that before it became illegal. what is the best substitute?
 
Ok, I posted in another thread about my extensive Dilaudid IV use. I tried the taper method after using 60 8MG Dillie's IV in 8 days. I had 5 8MG purdue's left so I broke them each into 4 pieces, and slowly went from 2 pieces to one. Now that Im out and this is day 2, I woke after actually getting about 7 hours of sleep last night. (amazing!) I was hurting all over, my hands were shaking uncontrollably and very excessively. I never thought about suicide, but I certainly scared myself thinking about it for a moment. I looked up local suboxone clinics, all of which are only open till 9:30 am at the latest. Closed on sunday! Now I have the entire day tomorrow before I can get to the clinic.

Then.......... I looked at a bottle of 200mg Lyrica. I took a hot shower, 3 advil, 2 750mg methocarbamol (robaxin), and I didnt feel but just a little better. Then the 1 200mg Lyrica (pregabilin sp?) started to kick in. WOW! I was surfing the internet, listening to music, smiling, playing online games with my wife. before I knew it I was having a great time. Laughing, hugging my wife a lot! She doesnt know im detoxing, but she did find a needle, she didnt know I was IV'ing my meds. She freaked, and I decided right there. THAT's IT! NO MORE! I cannot screw up my life. I have a great paying job, a gorgeous wife (seriously Im over achieving a little)

Im work right now.. This is what sucks, but maybe beneficial. I am working today, and will be till 9pm. This might be better for me since It can help keep my mind off it.

The lyrica is a godsend, and it is certainly easing my w/d's! I can stay happy like I am, and a little energy boosts followed by extreme sleepiness. But Ill take it over the nasty w/d's that were surely going to show up!.

I have taken 300MG total today and that should last me through the night. I can get some cyclobenzapine, but I dont really need anything else to tell you the truth.


Please understand I m trying to type speak optimistic. Im torn up inside. This is terribly aweful. Im hurting, my body is sore, Im extremely lethargic, I cant keep off the toilet, and Ive become very very depressed. The Lyrica helps tremendously, but it doesnt cure W/D's. I still may go to a doctor prescribing suboxone. Although, if I make it through tomorrow, I wont go and do it. Because thats the hardest days are 1-3.. everything just sucks.
 
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I would do anything for some coke right now.
I've got some friends working on it but they're taking forever, I'm a bit desperate.
 
I'm withdrawing from heroin right now but it isn't really bothering me too much. It's been a couple day's now since ive used and I think I'm in the clear. I took DXM for the last 2 days and that seemed to help alot. I smoked a bunch of herb to which took away all the stomach issues I was facing.

All in all I'm glad I cut that shit out , I would love to get high right now but I'm not going to. It's just not the type of drug I need in my life right now. It's time for me to move on :)
 
I'm on my 1st day off OC. I don't really know what happend. I really thought I'd never touch the stuff again, but all the sudden I decided I "deserved" some and now I get to go through wd's again. Not too bad today, but I know it gets worse from here.
BTW: Hats off to those WDing from benzos, I did that a few years ago and it was hell!!
 
Ooboom said:
I would do anything for some coke right now.
I've got some friends working on it but they're taking forever, I'm a bit desperate.
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Take advantage... show yourself you can kick it. Man Im telling you its amazing what everything looks like when you are "waking up" Ive been there before, and got through w/d's and lasted 2 months. Then I decided to treat myself. Im married to a gorgeous woman, I make excellent money, and I am or started to head down the same exact path as my father. I spoke to him the other day about how well I am doing in life and career, obviously leaving out the opiate addiction part. And without a pause he said, "watch out, you are doing exactly what I was doing when I was 28 like you. You are playing with the big boys and they party hard, and I bet anything you are surrounded by pills and white collar drugs" I about shit! and after that I realized, OMG I am turning into my father. Its like he knew, without knowing.

Man Im going through it again. Just do it, life without that shit is so much better. I was delirious and lost friends and contemplated knocking off people coming out of bars. (this was 8 years ago) But I never did, but that'll tell you what that shit can do.





I was clean except herbs, for 8 years, and then I discovered opiates for real. not vicodins. Dilaudid IV and Oxy IV. There really isnt anything better. I felt like instead of going to heroin this was much more.... civilized. Boy is that ridiculous.

Im ranting.. Just stop now while you have the chance. It ruined my dad's life and ultimately mine until my mom got remarried. My father was making over 200,000 a year in the 80's when I was young. And coke got a hold of him. I guess that is where my addicitive personality comes from...


/rant so sorry...
 
I know how things are when you're clean, I was clean for a little over two years until a month ago. I'm not going to be able to kick it, not now at least.
 
i feel pretty stupid posting here all yall folks dealing with real addictions and relly nasty withdrals, and all i got is i relly trying to stop my drug use. not anything real hard just everything as a whole- im addicted to getting messed up , i find i have a real problem staying sober, im not going to drink or smoke anymore, i hope, i got off meth/coke not even a year ago but cant kick pot or cigerets what the hell is my problem. im sober right now, 1st time in 4 years, i literaly smoke weed 3 times a day for 3 of those years never thought of it as a bad thing, its a real crutch for me, and the only reson at first i was going to stop was cause my tolerance got too high, spending too much money u know. i went for a walk today to exersize and help detox myself-im skinny but horribly out of shape- it was all going good when some random kid called me a fag, normaly i would have been high and just shrugged it off like np, but i got so pissed i wanted to snap that kids neck- and thats not me at all , or mabey it is , mabey thats why i started smoking pot to chill me out, in any case im sweating like crazy, cant sleep , but that could be nicatine too, used to smoke a pack a day,cut back to 3 or 5 a day now im quitting all together this is just day one.

im trying to quit- thats sounds so stupid y cant i just quit, i relly hate tabacco, but i relly like weed but ima stop both for my own good, witch is relly a new thing for me cause i never relly gave a crap about myself up untill just last year. i didnt think id live this long , now i gotta start planning for my future
 
Last night I had my first real withdrawals in over two years, I spent the night shaking, scratching, puking, filling my lungs with more cigarette smoke than air, and basically all around going crazy. After that, and how I'm not much better today I may be going sober soon...thinking about kicking everything. Pot, ecstasy, mushrooms, booze, and especially my main vice,t he coke. I don't know if I'm ready to put myself through quitting again, but it's a thought I'm processing right now, I'm out of money, my options are force myself through getting clean or start doing thing's i'm not going to be proud of for the money...
 
Few days ago I did some heroin for the first time in 10 months. I would like more but know there is no way I can get some. I've been on subs for 10 months and I'm w/d from that so during the w/d I broke down and got some dope. I'm scared of the RLS. that's pretty much the only symptom I will have for the next 2 weeks. Right now I'm on tramadol so its not that bad, tram is definitely helping.
 
*sigh* Me personally am having a very hard time with WD now.It has become a pattern in my life i just cant take anymore.My tolerance for opiates is way high these days and i go thru WD like once a month now.I make it to day 4 or so then right back to it.I can kinda tolerate the pain but the depression is killing me.I am thinking bout asking a good friend for advice on the subject since he has cleaned himself up nicely in the plast several years by attending meetings,doing yoga and meditation.BTW i was clean the past 4 days untill i just dropped 120 mgs of morphine sulphate *sigh*
 
Well Im on day 3, Ive had to work 2 of the 3 days including the 1st day. It is hell, Im lethargic, going to the bathroom every hour, sleepy, anxiety, depressed. I feel like I have lead boots on. I am taking Lyrica, and sometimes that stimulates a great mood for a little while, but overall I just cant get motivated. I take sleep aids at night, and luckily I am getting 7 hours, but thats it, no more no less. I wish I could take a few days off and get through this. I love the hot showers, and hot baths. Id give anything to feel all the time like I do for the 20 minutes I feel great during and after those. But that wears off. Im an important person in my career, and time off is just not an option. I cant take it, I actually shot up spoon boiled water today, just to feel the needle go in. Believe it or not, I kinda was able to seperate myself from wanting to do it anymore, because that was just so pathetic. Here's the problem, my scripts can be renewed wednesday. Dilaudid 8mg and Oxycontin 60mg. Thats one hell of a script to fill every month, for Id say about 9 months. I IV about 60 Dilaudid, and about 30 oxy every month. 3 a day every day! The problem is my back is still fucked up, and I cannot afford the surgery necessary because our insurance has been cut back, so Ive been living on these pills forever. I dont have a choice, and I dont want to tell my doc that Im ready to quit because I want to have to opportunity to have them If I need them. Well now its an addiction that I dont want. Im so torn, and out of pills, and wednesday I could be better coming out of the harder time, and then Im right back in it.

Ugghh

/end rant.
 
I'm craving a good trip right now, but no drug in particular, which is saying a lot for me. I actually feel calm, cool, and collected right now. Wow I never thought I'd say that...

-dp
 
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