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Withdrawal & Craving MEGA-thread

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^yep i sure know about those dreams.....
tho mine hav bn more about meth than heroin lately

stay strong miss hollywood - ur doing well <3
life will stop sucking the longer u get away from the H

opiyum - i cudnt survive on 2-4mgs suboxone
i was put on 32mg in detox and in 2 weeks was weaned down to 16mg - 32 hadnt bn enough in the first place (i was on a pretty hefty daily dose of fine china), but its the highest dose they can give u and i didnt want to go on methadone
so i was pretty uncomfortable but ill take uncomfortable over methadone

i wud hav had to stay in detox another 2 weeks if i wanted to get down to 2-4mgs and id had enough of that place so i left on a maintenance dose of 16mg
inevitably, esp as im also detoxing from valium slowly, its now gone up to 21mg.....but that holds me, prevents cravings (to a degree) and im content with that dose
 
InTherapy82 said:
^ Yeah, usually when people w/d they are more motivated to be clean. It's like kind of a high in and of itself. But the PAWS are the worst. Due to boredom or something I guess.

Yeah, this thread is an AWESOME idea. We needed something like that. At least I did. I'll be checking in here regularly.
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What is PAWS? I am very experienced with drugs and I dont know. Can you please tell me what PAWS is?
 
^^ PAWS stands for Post Acute Withdrawl Syndrome. I think drug_wench or someone else could probably explain it better than me...

My best dealer just messaged me. They do this when they haven't heard from me for a couple of weeks. Somehow they seem to have a psychic ability to know when it's going to work too... I got that wave of adrenaline/excitement and anticipation as soon as I saw his name on my phone.
 
footscrazy- One of the reasons I think I haven't used in this last amount of clean time i've had is i just got rid of my phone. I'm the same way my hooks will think i OD'ed or something if i dont hit them up so they always send a txt or call me to see if im in need or what. Since i'm a true fiend and have no will power i always end up breaking down and just getting some.

In short fuck cell phones and text msg's.

Blahhhhh i want some fucken dope but i got a drug test in the morning and would rather not fail and be fucked.

who knows what tomorrow will bring though, most likely more sobriety, cause life when i use isn't worth it. At least most of time...

good luck to the rest of my fellow fiends/junkies/lowlifes!!
 
footscrazy said:
^^ PAWS stands for Post Acute Withdrawl Syndrome. I think drug_wench or someone else could probably explain it better than me...

My best dealer just messaged me. They do this when they haven't heard from me for a couple of weeks. Somehow they seem to have a psychic ability to know when it's going to work too... I got that wave of adrenaline/excitement and anticipation as soon as I saw his name on my phone.
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Ohhh I know! They ALWAYS know exactly when to call...when your having a bad day and you want to use, or when your so bored you want to stick toothpicks in your eyes, and always when you have a moment(which I know are far and few between)when you do something that makes you proud and you think "hey, i might just succeed in this sobriety thing!" And then....

RING!!!RING!!!RING!!!

And it's easy to cave.

Change your number and don't give it out anybody. That's what worked for me. Good luck hun!
 
Change your number and don't give it out anybody. That's what worked for me. Good luck hun!
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Thanks <3

I know I should change my number...I will admit there's some part of me that doesn't want let go of my dealers. I've deleted their numbers so many times - then spent an hour getting them again - that I don't even bother deleting them anymore. I didn't get on yesterday, but it's still hanging over me today - I know he's on and I have some mega cravings today. But I think I'm going to go to the shops and buy some shampoo and a new top to wear tonight - and I'm so broke that if I do that I wont have enough $$ to get on.
 
footscrazy said:
Thanks <3

I know I should change my number...I will admit there's some part of me that doesn't want let go of my dealers. I've deleted their numbers so many times - then spent an hour getting them again - that I don't even bother deleting them anymore. I didn't get on yesterday, but it's still hanging over me today - I know he's on and I have some mega cravings today. But I think I'm going to go to the shops and buy some shampoo and a new top to wear tonight - and I'm so broke that if I do that I wont have enough $$ to get on.
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I'm the same way,babe! Don't feel bad!;) I still have my dealers numbers but I changed MINE so they don't call ME and tempt me with their "deal we got goin for just the next couple days!" I think it's funny, all the times I did cave before I actually got sober for longer than a few weeks, when I WOULD come and pick up they would give me extra bags and say "try THIS stuff! it's a new batch and it's the FIRE!" when it would be the same dope as the rest of the bags just less cut! And they do that to get you hooked again.

When I first started doing dope, my dealer had AWESOME shit. But overtime, it got pretty shitty. Lower quality powder shit, and STOMPED ON HORRIBLY.

I did a lot of thinking about this, and really realized that drug dealing really is like going fishing. The better BAIT you put on your line, the more fish are gonna bite! But once they get a "bite" they switch up the dope on you and make it weaker because they know once your hooked, you'll buy their dope no matter how shitty it is. That was my situation, anyways...I only had 2 heroin dealers and they ALWAYS had the same batch of shit. So I was stuck with "this week's shitty batch" until they got the supposed "fire" batch next week....which wound up not being all that "firey." :\

Looking back on all that, I don't miss it. I mean yeah I do miss the "honeymoon phase" of dope, but I really don't miss that whole lifestyle that comes after you get hooked. Your entire day revolves around getting money to score and scoring. Oh, and lets not forget ducking and weaving law enforcement! I bought my dope at what you would call a "trap house" in the ghetto and the cops knew it was a dope house and would drive by it all the time. A few times I thought they were gonna catch me as I drove away with my score, but it never happened and THANK GOD.

But try changing your number, it might help. If they can't call you, you won't be as impulsive. It worked for me a lil bit. I will admit, whenever I scroll past my dealers name in my phone I STILL pause for a minute, before scrolling to the number I need.:!

Recovery is a bitch. But its so worth it. I just couldn't live that life anymore.:(
 
Im craving coke right now like a mo fo.. Does anybody else just ramdomly smell it throughtout the day or is it just me? Ill be sittin there and all the sudden just smell some hella bomb coke lol. Im not addicted ive only done it twice the last month and not for a year before that. It just sounds damn good.
 
I'm craving adderall and heroin both... one to get me motivated and happy so I can get all my work done, one to numb me and make me happy so I can reward myself after getting my work done. I haven't had any craving problems since I went totally sober three weeks ago - this just came out of the blue, really hard. Depression and other bad feelings triggered it.
 
I notice that when I'm totally sober for a good while (like two weeks) then I don't really crave anything too much. But then I relapsed, and ALL of the sudden I am craving all kinds of drugs! It seems like taking one drug leads to another, which leads to another (ie. adderall, then alcohol to calm down, then coke to feel more high and confident, etc. - no I only did the first, but I was craving others really bad). Staying sober is the way to go!! It's just SO fucking hard to do. I'm going to stop now before I start whining lol
 
Hey yall!

Well its monday morning and i havent had any bupe since friday morning. I was down to 1.2mg two weeks ago and then had a major relapse (well moreso just a crazy ass binge, cos to be honest ive been using most weekends on bupe anyway, AUS $1400 in 4 days...oops) and jumped back up to 4mg for two weeks. Then money and a whole heap of other shit went crazy (lost job, fighting with my man, best mate turned crazy) plus i just cant stand being on bupe anymore...so i figured i might as well use this time inbetween jobs to handle this finally.

So yeah, im crashing with my folks for a week or two (prob less then desirable but they're actually been really nice about it, and i live in the ghetto and have a broke-empty-ass house so staying there wasnt that great an option either). But yeah, ive been on bupe for about 5 months this stretch and jumped down from 12mg to 1.2mg, until that last lil hiccup so whilst im not expecting it to be too pleasent I also dont think itll be too hellish (try coming off a year in Cambodia ;) ) and ive been scripted 50x5mg valiums, 20x300mg codeine/500mg paracetamol and have access to weed, alcohol and all sorts of drowsy ass antihistamines and sleeping tablets.

That being said tho im still a bit nervous just as i cant really talk to anybody bout whats going on and am just getting a bit anxious about whats to come...like, to be honest i aint even feeling too bad yet. Sure my stomachs in knots and im getting anxious and my skin is crazy in goosebumps - but i know its gonna guess wose before it gets better.

Anyway, just wanted to check in and holla at everybody out there thats also going thru this withdrawal shit - keep ya heads up. It fucking sucks hey, but so does being tied down to this shit.
 
I just crave drugs as a whole. Marijuana has been my curse using everyday for about 3 years.

Ive abused just about everything else except the real tough stuff( heroin,meth,crack). My only

physical addiction has been to benzo's and i regret ever getting involved with those damn pills.

Ever since i abused the shit out of them about 7 months ago every night i fucking crave

drugs. If i cant find weed then i look for benzos if i can find benzos i look for opiates so on

and so forth. If i can have them all together hurray for me!! Im tired of it I know what i have

to do to fix this but the cravings are just to much its seems so hopeless sometimes.
 
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