Withdrawal & Craving MEGA-thread

[Madmike]

Damn, I have almost got a panic attacks. I somehow manage to keep them away by focusing really hard.

 

[drug_wench]

im starting to drop my valium dose and i am not comfortable with the feeling
no cravings but plenty of headaches, anxiety, depression and lack of motivation, as well as tingling fingers

also cant afford suboxone anymore so it looks like im going to hav to most likely switch to MMT
a depressing thought to say the least but i can hardly handle coming off valium and suboxone at the same time
not to mention valium makes me crave opiates

 

[mrs_mia_wallace]

Fuck this....

63 hours clean! go me... four more and this is the longest I've gone during this relapse

but I can't get out of bed... and I keep eating...and I can't stay awake for more than five hours.... don't even need the seroquel anymore... fuck you methamphetamine die a nasty death...

 

[claire22]

^ well done bella. seriously. it's a tough job but the absolute worst is done.
food is good, repairing you, bed is good, catching up on lost sleep

 

[dwg52378]

I think I am being judged for using benzos as prescribed.

Benzo withdrawals, ouch. You might want to try soacking in a warm(or cool depending on how you feel) bath. I didn't find many things that helped me out when I was withdrawing from Benzos, but that was one of them.

I think I am being judged for using benzos as prescribed.

Well, I am 168 hrs opioid free- 100% completely (no methadone, suboxone). But I am taking benzos legally from my doctor. I feel like I am doing so good but now you are all scaring me w benzo w/d/. I know , the doc will taper me off, I don't want to get off of them. I get no euphoria from them. Whats wrong with that? I love fuckers (FAMILY & FRIENDS) that don't understand opioid addiciton. I wrote this letter to my family.

Some people believe this medication is merely supplementing the illicit drugs I was addicted to. I would rather be on anti anxiety meds rather than a semi permanent maintenance program such as Methadone, Suboxone or any other opioid agonist. The other option is to continue failing without treatment as I have for years. People (other than my MD) don’t know the hell I was living everyday and lack the experience and education to surmise a treatment plan. This is working well for me. I’m not getting high or euphoric so I discount those baseless theories.

 

[StayinAwake]

I agree with you to an extent. ^^

Most of the people that are coming off opiates and are rx'd benzos are already vulnerable to addiction. Therefore, POSSIBLY (but not definitely) taking a liking to the new drug at hand. I have seen it happen several times.

It happened with me.

I have been clean 60 days off opiates and I have a xanax rx that I rarely take. I have been diagnosed with panic disorder so they are only used and dispensed to me when desperately needed.

 

[.extatic.]

clean from cigarettes now for a month, fuck i miss them

My wallet is happy tho

 

[dwg52378]

Vulnerable to addiction

I agree with you to an extent. ^^

Most of the people that are coming off opiates and are rx'd benzos are already vulnerable to addiction. Therefore, POSSIBLY (but not definitely) taking a liking to the new drug at hand. I have seen it happen several times.

It happened with me.

I have been clean 60 days off opiates and I have a xanax rx that I rarely take. I have been diagnosed with panic disorder so they are only used and dispensed to me when desperately needed.

Yes, Im vulnerable, taking a liking to them as well... 10mg feels nicer than 2 and was rx 90x2mg clonazepam but am mostly taking as prescribed. The the pharm tech didn't
want to fill the RX, said my number of pills increased but not the daily xmg instructions. She strongly thought my dose was too high, questioning why he rx me so many in such a short period. I counted my daily dose to prove to her I have the quantity I should, she was amazed at the starting Kpin does. its only 5-6mg a day. he's the MD and Psychiatrist, let him decide. she was just trippin i guess. It working wonders. The Kpin.

Also, how do you manage to only rarely use the xanax during opioid withdrawal while suffering from a panic attack. Limited supply? Trying to avoid dependence?

Congrats on you 60 (or more) hours now, I.m at like 195 opioid free. SHIT I MEANt HOURS lol < YOUR 60 DAYS. Nice man!

 

[Madmike]

God I have terrible anxiety!! Fuck this is grueling

 

[n3ophy7e]

Hang in there Mike


I am craving alcohol so fucking badly. I am really down (I refuse to say "depressed", I am not depressed) and constantly on the very brink of tears. I feel like complete and utter shit and nothing but a big glass of red wine can make me feel better

 

[Madmike]

Hang in there Mike


I am craving alcohol so fucking badly. I am really down (I refuse to say "depressed", I am not depressed) and constantly on the very brink of tears. I feel like complete and utter shit and nothing but a big glass of red wine can make me feel better

You hang in there too!

 

[n3ophy7e]

Thanks
It's almost bed time, I've almost made it.

 

[mrs_mia_wallace]

I'm dying for some fucking heroin.

I don't want to have to deal with my life AT ALL, I want to escape it completely... which I'm seeing is when these heroin cravings come, not so random as I had thought (hoped).

Heroin < want to escape my life.

Meth < want to try and deal with my life and make it better.

I thank god I have no source but I also curse him for it.

n3ophy7e-- how long have you been sober? Keep going girlie, you are doing well

 

[drug_wench]

I think I am being judged for using benzos as prescribed.

im not judging u but i will warn u that wen i was put on clonazepam for epilepsy i used them as legally prescribed and eventually i ended up getting rebound wds

id go 2hrs after taking a pill then id go into wd

thats wen i was switched to valium and now im tapering off slowly (due to the epilepsy) - 1mg/fortnight
well, believe me, even tapering as slowly as im doing, its like hell
for the first time in my life since my meth addiction im feeling suicidal at times
id rather come off heroin a million times over than valium

the rebounds didnt start happening till 2yrs after i started taking clonazepam
they dont happen to some ppl - if u want to continue on taking benzos daily even after this warning, i hope ur one of the ppl they dont happen to, cos theyre not pleasant

if not, get ur doctor to switch u to valium and taper u off as fast as poss....the shorter the time uve bn on them, the less awful ur wds will b

dont attack me for giving u this info, like i said im not judging u....im on benzos (tho i wish i wasnt now) - i just feel it is important that u know exactly wat ur taking
i dont judge u at all and i dont think anyone else here does either - i know wat its like to b anxious and its horrible, but there r other ways to deal with anxiety without taking benzos
therapy worked well for me believe it or not (tho i was sceptical at first) - i hav GAD and PTSD and i had panic attacks before i had CBT

gd on u for getting off the other shit - thats no walk in the park
i cudnt do it without suboxone

EDIT: sorry didnt see uve only bn on the clonazepam for less than a month
id say as long as ur off the clonazepam by the time the acute opiate wds die down (or by at least a month) u wont get addicted and no one has any right to judge u

gd on u for choosing to do it without using methadone or suboxone (btw suboxone isnt an agonist its a partial agonist - sorry im very picky about these things, i know its not that important, just another fact to add to the brain ), like i say i cudnt do it without suboxone (probly having to move onto methadone), largely cos im already hooked on valium and that causes me to get opiate cravings esp during the wds, but also cos im a chronic relapser on opiates
gd luck

im currently 3 months or so clean from heroin, nearly 2 weeks clean from meth

 

[n3ophy7e]

^^ You're doing so well hun

I thank god I have no source but I also curse him for it.

n3ophy7e-- how long have you been sober? Keep going girlie, you are doing well

mia, I'm glad you don't have a source for H either. You don't need it hun, you can get by without it.
I've been sober for 16 days, minus each Saturday and last Sunday, so really it's 13 days...if that makes sense. It's been 2 days since my last drink. I am constantly craving

 

[Madmike]

Minor muscle spasms , not too bad anxiety, soon I'll go to sleep with the help of Seroquel.

 

[FDRinTRINIDAD]

I've made it 11 days without heroin and kicked without sub. I tried doing sub maintenance but ended up just selling them so I could score dope. I've been living with my folks again for the last few months and they are on the verge of kicking me out and refused to get me on subs again. I'm happy I dont have subs to be honest I wana try living a drug free life. A big ol' fat shot would be nice though........

 

[silentscience]

massive cravings for ketamine or opiates...no mostly ketamine and maybe some ecstasy.

got out of rehab a few weeks ago and havent been able to keep it clean. used 4 times in 3.5 weeks, so not that bad. used to be every day.

it's fucking hard. the only reason I havent gone out on a binge is cause I don't have the money. that's a scary thought. what happens if I get a bunch of money/start working?

 

[OpiYum]

I read many postings about with suboxone, less is more. My friends report taking much less suboxone than prescribed.

IME if I take a minimal amount of suboxone, like 2-4mg a day my physical w/d goes away. However, if I take like 16mgs or 24mgs, my cravings subside.

However, if I crave incredibly bad to the point where it is affecting my life (I don't want to get fired or kicked out of school/work), I may allow myself drug day provided that I stop the next day or whenever. I don't feel guilty about this either. I think it is okay.

I think that part of the definition of addiction is having the drug take up one's mindspace.

 

[Miss Hollywood]

It's been 3 months off...a few "few bags here" slip ups, nothing major....

It's all I can think about...

I want it...

I need it...

I hate it...

Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin. Heroin..............

*sighs*

I better get my miserable ass to bed so I can stop thinking about it....AND HAVE DREAMS ABOUT IT.

*bigger sighs*

Life fucking sucks.