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I’m often surprised how friendly and open people are here. Maybe it is the Mediterranean culture. Here, you can tell people you are a scientist and they want to talk about science. Mention the last book you read and they talk about literature. Then somebody invites you over for dinner instead of shunning you.

With the exception of college campus life, the only way to have a social life in a lot of places seems to be to flash money or to watch football as a social activity. I would tell people that I am a research scientist (long hours, mentally demanding, low pay) or talk about a book I read and people would comment that they thought I was homeless. The only person anybody wanted to be friends with was Hedge Fund Guy, the Professional Athlete, or the Banker. The most common topic of conversation is last night’s professional sports game.

They ask: “What sports do you like?”

I say, “I love sports. I love running and mountain climbing and volleyball in the backyard or on the beach with friends.”

Response: “Yeah I used to [run, ride a bicycle, swim, ski, etc] in college, but I don’t have time any more. I got a job, [or if they are older than 30, they got married, had kids, got fat, got divorced, pay alimony, hurt their back or knees, etc] and now I don’t have time any more. What’s your favorite team? How about those Giants?”

-“I don’t have a TV and don’t watch sports, but I like the Brooklyn Dodgers.”

When I was a kid, I had a neighbor, “Paul,” who used to play baseball for the Brooklyn Dodgers. He played second base and some other positions. I used to go to the park and find him, and he’d tell me baseball stories. He was from another generation that didn’t have all of the barriers and hoops to jump through that many YUPPIES of our time require before they associate with you.

I didn’t watch TV or read about professional sports and the topic never came up when talking to Paul so I had no idea the Brooklyn Dodgers had left Brooklyn.

-Somebody then said the Brooklyn Dodgers had moved and are no longer in Brooklyn.

-Well, I don’t keep up with sports.

-Then they say: but you say you like sports but you don’t watch sports? How can you say you like sports?

-Why would i sit around watching somebody else have all the fun when I could be outside having fun too?

By this point in the conversation, I am ignoring them, and I am thinking about what I want to do tomorrow or the book I’m reading. Maybe they have told me the new home of the Brooklyn Dodgers, but it never registered. Within a few minutes, I have erased from my memory most of what we talked about. I have forgotten their name and face. That was the US, and I have left that place.

Before I came here, I had spent the year in a cabin mostly off the grid in the desert. I was alone except for the company of my pet cats Mr. Bradley Cat and Walter Kitten, and I prefered it that way. Besides my hobby of telepathy, I have been out of practice of communicating with and being around other people.

Not long after moving here, I started trying to be social to make friends. My French is still horrible, so I tend to go where English is spoken. English is the most common language among non-French residents whether they are from Asia, the Americas, the Middle East, or from other parts of Europe.

For a social activity, I now run with a jogging club. It had to be a club where people speak English sometimes. Anything meeting this requirement is usually made of expats. A large proportion of the members of the jogging club work at embassies, NGOs, and other international organisations - the jogging club is very international. Besides myself, there is one other American.

It’s a typical Sunday morning run kind of club. We usually move at an easy jog for an hour, do some cool-down stretches, then finish by having lunch or drinks at a café.

One reason I like this group is that they are very educated and well-rounded. Many have witnessed historical events, have advanced degrees in the arts and humanities, archeology, and history. Some of them are from the oil or finance industries too which don’t interest me any more than talking to other neuroscientists.

My co-workers at the Institut and Sorbonne are also very educated, but they are all neuroscientists. Except for one or two, seeing them outside of work makes me feel like I am still at work. I don’t like to talk about work when I’m not at work.

This fentanyl analog availability explosion is just crazy ridiculously out of hand especially being the second wave after the first one created analog act that's failing to do anything to keep this one from happening a and doing the damage they have been doing as it should.... It's outrageous as ours only successfully happening due to the attempts to curb opiate use by reducing the access to pharmaceutical opiates that have been around for the longest time a and have much less risk nearly none when a good doctor is making the effort to really make a good plan for a patient and educating them so they can have enough of an understand that with the opiates the patient can mask the problem of temporary physical pain until the proper non drug treatment methods that without the medication end up being unsuccessful due to the issues that the opiates mask, which prevent the patient from having the ability to maintain the non drug treatment that over time become fixed allowing patients to then tackle getting through likely possible withdrawals while maintaining the strength recovered that the treatment brought about so that one can continue life stronger thanks in part to the opiates that were used at a crucial period to help the patient overcome the pain brought on by the challenges the moon drug treatment methods require that without the opiates the patient would be bound to fail and begin to degrade even further than when they started treatment leading to disability that could've easily been avoided. Then there are those with chronic pain that can never recover to a point to where without medication it is bearable although one can manage with opiates if one understands the proper t regimen of opiates that can be stabiliy used at the same dose without ever fluctuating as to not cause tolerance change leading to times when the regular dose is not effective at all with a regimen such as hydrocodone or oxycodone sustained released for either form as daytime active pain maintenance meds due to their effect that prevents the narcotic sedation from developing as strong (at least in my experience) and using preferably the metabolite morphine based counterpart although any of either morphine, hydromorphone, oxymorphone, and even heroin if it was available everywhere while it's availability as prescribed is limited as an immediate release formulation for breakthrough pain as IMO the mu binding opiates while more likely to cause heavy narcotic/sleep inducing sedation gives the best pain relief provided with a reduction of tightness and tension no other pain med has been able to provide I have found in my experience especially without a lack of size effects that cause any relief provided to become pointless while the opiates that opiates that have more activity focused on the kappa region like hydro/oxycodone creating mu effect by converting to their morphine counterpart while each become more selective to either the my for morphine counterparts and kappa for codeine counterparts as the molecule becomes smaller and smaller as they go from no prefix to hydro then oxy while I believe the best and perfect combo that sustains relief without side effects or even cognition impairment besides the physical dependency is using oxycodone in its 12 hour sustained released form orally 2-4x a day depending on daily and individuals needs while oxymorphone is used as needed 4x-6x by either oral/nasal/IV depending on an individual's preference needs as with a half life of 7-9 hours it is the one opiate of all the opiates that are morphine and codeine base and have basic receptor activity vs extensive in areas other than the opiate region that like oxymorphone have a long enough half life that with immediate release forms the medications they don't leave one withdrawing so quickly after a dose that it prevents the necessary full eight hours rest needed to maintain good health that without a sustained release form oxycodone, hydrocodone, hydromorphone, morphine, heroin, and codeine one could not obtain while dependant as the maximum half life of any of these is four hours.....


Just to not be too off topic with my rant I'll tie it up pointing out that due to fentanyls build as a key to fit as deeply into the opiate receptors and create as powerful an effect with the s smallest amount possible even if it leaves it falling apart so fast that it only has a half hour half life maybe hour at best causing it to be pretty useless for managing pain except in extremely short term yet excruciatingly painful situations such as surgery and woman in labor where as soon as the ultra short term pain ends it will leave the system near immediately and something like hydromorphone that has a very short half life as well can be used to ease out of the ultra powerful fentanyl. Even though it's developed as sublingual and nasal for breakthrough and patches for long term pain I highly doubt anyone really would need it where other basic opiates would handle most pains as long as one found a good dose and maintained minimal dosing without taking doses so close together that they stack and increase the tolerance, but at the same time don't deny fentanyl possibly being the only choice that is strong enough for such severe pain. It just has such a high likelihood of causing an out of control tolerance increase it should be the last resort choice always. The most dangerous thing about this compound is that without any modification it can absorb through the skin so it really needs to be properly formulated and used as it should as oddly the transdermal ROA has highest bioavailability next to IV and requires the lowest dose to cause effect making it extremely dangerous to be around the raw pure powder form of this compound and likely ask of its analogs as well.


To end my rant and ideology no one should attempt self medicating with fentanyl due to it being the riskiest of any opiate due to its unique nature that leads to dosing required so often it disrupts any life and leaves no possibility for a full night's sleep. If anyone does choose to foolishly choose to become a gunnie pig for this fentanyl analog or any even knowing everything I shared above start with the lowest dose as if it was more potent that fentanyl.... learn volumetric dosing... Only handle without exposed skin anywhere and a mask to prevent inhalation as well as working over a removable easy to clean surface to prevent spills that if left and not cleaned can kill an innocent animal or even unfortunate person who might step on the spill barefoot.


I hope everyone stays safe although really the best thing to do is boycott these fent analogs even if they seem like an easy solution for a possible supply that can help maintain for all the reasons above as well as to make them a waste of money to the vendors who irresponsibility make this stuff available as they will not keep wasting effort to carry what doesn't sell. It's only available as sadly there is demand, which is in control of the buyers not the greedy vendors who only respond to demand even if it's not what is desired, but something that is obtained when desires aren't accessible whether or not it truly is a replacement or just something that seems like one only to turn out to be worse than nothing most fentanyl users find out once dependant.


I know my writing is too much and weird, but my message is there, full of heart, and strong even if not that clear.

This fentanyl analog availability explosion is just crazy ridiculously out of hand especially being the second wave after the first one created analog act that's failing to do anything to keep this one from happening a and doing the damage they have been doing as it should.... It's outrageous as ours only successfully happening due to the attempts to curb opiate use by reducing the access to pharmaceutical opiates that have been around for the longest time a and have much less risk nearly none when a good doctor is making the effort to really make a good plan for a patient and educating them so they can have enough of an understand that with the opiates the patient can mask the problem of temporary physical pain until the proper non drug treatment methods that without the medication end up being unsuccessful due to the issues that the opiates mask, which prevent the patient from having the ability to maintain the non drug treatment that over time become fixed allowing patients to then tackle getting through likely possible withdrawals while maintaining the strength recovered that the treatment brought about so that one can continue life stronger thanks in part to the opiates that were used at a crucial period to help the patient overcome the pain brought on by the challenges the moon drug treatment methods require that without the opiates the patient would be bound to fail and begin to degrade even further than when they started treatment leading to disability that could've easily been avoided. Then there are those with chronic pain that can never recover to a point to where without medication it is bearable although one can manage with opiates if one understands the proper t regimen of opiates that can be stabiliy used at the same dose without ever fluctuating as to not cause tolerance change leading to times when the regular dose is not effective at all with a regimen such as hydrocodone or oxycodone sustained released for either form as daytime active pain maintenance meds due to their effect that prevents the narcotic sedation from developing as strong (at least in my experience) and using preferably the metabolite morphine based counterpart although any of either morphine, hydromorphone, oxymorphone, and even heroin if it was available everywhere while it's availability as prescribed is limited as an immediate release formulation for breakthrough pain as IMO the mu binding opiates while more likely to cause heavy narcotic/sleep inducing sedation gives the best pain relief provided with a reduction of tightness and tension no other pain med has been able to provide I have found in my experience especially without a lack of size effects that cause any relief provided to become pointless while the opiates that opiates that have more activity focused on the kappa region like hydro/oxycodone creating mu effect by converting to their morphine counterpart while each become more selective to either the my for morphine counterparts and kappa for codeine counterparts as the molecule becomes smaller and smaller as they go from no prefix to hydro then oxy while I believe the best and perfect combo that sustains relief without side effects or even cognition impairment besides the physical dependency is using oxycodone in its 12 hour sustained released form orally 2-4x a day depending on daily and individuals needs while oxymorphone is used as needed 4x-6x by either oral/nasal/IV depending on an individual's preference needs as with a half life of 7-9 hours it is the one opiate of all the opiates that are morphine and codeine base and have basic receptor activity vs extensive in areas other than the opiate region that like oxymorphone have a long enough half life that with immediate release forms the medications they don't leave one withdrawing so quickly after a dose that it prevents the necessary full eight hours rest needed to maintain good health that without a sustained release form oxycodone, hydrocodone, hydromorphone, morphine, heroin, and codeine one could not obtain while dependant as the maximum half life of any of these is four hours.....


Just to not be too off topic with my rant I'll tie it up pointing out that due to fentanyls build as a key to fit as deeply into the opiate receptors and create as powerful an effect with the s smallest amount possible even if it leaves it falling apart so fast that it only has a half hour half life maybe hour at best causing it to be pretty useless for managing pain except in extremely short term yet excruciatingly painful situations such as surgery and woman in labor where as soon as the ultra short term pain ends it will leave the system near immediately and something like hydromorphone that has a very short half life as well can be used to ease out of the ultra powerful fentanyl. Even though it's developed as sublingual and nasal for breakthrough and patches for long term pain I highly doubt anyone really would need it where other basic opiates would handle most pains as long as one found a good dose and maintained minimal dosing without taking doses so close together that they stack and increase the tolerance, but at the same time don't deny fentanyl possibly being the only choice that is strong enough for such severe pain. It just has such a high likelihood of causing an out of control tolerance increase it should be the last resort choice always. The most dangerous thing about this compound is that without any modification it can absorb through the skin so it really needs to be properly formulated and used as it should as oddly the transdermal ROA has highest bioavailability next to IV and requires the lowest dose to cause effect making it extremely dangerous to be around the raw pure powder form of this compound and likely ask of its analogs as well.


To end my rant and ideology no one should attempt self medicating with fentanyl due to it being the riskiest of any opiate due to its unique nature that leads to dosing required so often it disrupts any life and leaves no possibility for a full night's sleep. If anyone does choose to foolishly choose to become a gunnie pig for this fentanyl analog or any even knowing everything I shared above start with the lowest dose as if it was more potent that fentanyl.... learn volumetric dosing... Only handle without exposed skin anywhere and a mask to prevent inhalation as well as working over a removable easy to clean surface to prevent spills that if left and not cleaned can kill an innocent animal or even unfortunate person who might step on the spill barefoot.


I hope everyone stays safe although really the best thing to do is boycott these fent analogs even if they seem like an easy solution for a possible supply that can help maintain for all the reasons above as well as to make them a waste of money to the vendors who irresponsibility make this stuff available as they will not keep wasting effort to carry what doesn't sell. It's only available as sadly there is demand, which is in control of the buyers not the greedy vendors who only respond to demand even if it's not what is desired, but something that is obtained when desires aren't accessible whether or not it truly is a replacement or just something that seems like one only to turn out to be worse than nothing most fentanyl users find out once dependant.


I know my writing is too much and weird, but my message is there, full of heart, and strong even if not that clear.

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• 4-INDOLOL, 3-[2-(DIPROPYLAMINO)ETHYL]
• 4-HYDROXY-N,N-DIPROPYLAMINOTRYPTAMINE
• 3-[2-(DIPROPYLAMINO)ETHYL]-4-INDOLOL
• Dipropyltryptamine

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Ok so i found tapering it down really gives you a moreish king of look on it so flushed the rest of it.

I'm 16-20H in form stopping tapering and whent CT (Was it smart ?? Maybe! Time will tell..)

Symptom's right now are weird blood pressure, hotflashes, fiver, mussel pain, craycy bad stomach (Both ends) and some mind fucking..

That's up until this point..

I seeped on Flunitrazepam 2mg and 2mg cloazepam + 3-5mgl Therelaen.

Really glad i have alot of benzo and theralen

So meany wired dream's some scary and some don't but all were very real!

Why go throw this just to c how it is??
That feels kind of stupid right now!!

It was / is legal her and i love exploring chemicals, but i haven't really liked opiets in general. Also i haven't ben using any chemicals except my Banzo's (Witch i tapered down from 4mg Xanax, 2mg Flunitrazepam, 8mg Clonazepam, 20mg Stillnoct and 30-60mg Remeron-S / a DAY to just 2mg clonazepam in the morning and 2mg in the evening (That was true hell for the heal, now its more the body with fenta.) so that's good.)

I hope / KNOW i will manage this and be ride of it in a moth tops..
I was only taking A-F fore about 2 months..

Love & Light to all Cheminautes out there!!

Summer vacation has started so I have some time to work on my blog. These entries are a few months old. Most of these are only rants and are not very coherent. They don’t have a point except to get things out of my system. I will post several.

When I moved here, it was the first time I had been single and felt really alone for several years. The population of the city and suburbs is around 10 million yet I was lonely despite having recently spent a year by myself in the desert with only my cats for company and not feeling lonely at all. I came here and quickly learned to rely on opiates to help me handle my loneliness and associated depression. By the time I had started seeing Fatima, I no longer no longer used opiates regularly.

I met Fatima at work. She is a medical doctor who practiced medicine in Saudi Arabia before she came to France to do medical research at the Institut.

I thought I would never again date somebody from work because what are you going to talk about when you get home? Since my freshman year in college, I have always been bored seeing anybody who is so much as in my own major. But she works in another lab, has a different project, and has very different life experience so it’s okay.

Fatima is married but separated. The reason she is still married, she explained, is that the divorce and property laws in Saudi Arabia are biased against women. I don’t understand the details beyond that, but the husband seems to keep all of the property and the wife can be thrown out onto the street and faces a life of poverty if her parents do not take her back. That is a common occurrence.

She is keeping me secret from her family who still live and work in Saudi Arabia. Although she has been separated for five years, seeing someone else while separated is still considered adultery in her country. The penalty for adultery is stoning to death for both adulterers. Her father is a minister of some government agency and as somebody who has a high position in the Saudi government, he is very conservative and religious.

It was not trivial for her to walk away from a marriage where she was treated like the property of her husband and cast aside to be replaced by her husband’s mistress, to take off her scarf and reject religious fundamentalism, and move here against her parents’ wishes. Not only that, but she is an activist for women’s rights in her country. Speaking out for women’s rights (I think of this as the authentic but rare form of feminism) is another thing that earns women fatwas over there. For the purpose of privacy, I refer to her as Fatima. Fatima is not her real name.
In my free time, I visit many cafés and restaurants here in Paris: Shakespeare and Co Bookstore to read and talk over a coffee with a friend, Café de Flore or les Deux Magots to sit and write all day, Maxim’s for dinner and many night clubs.

Last night, I took Fatima to a restaurant somebody had suggested called le Daniel’s. There is a dress code. The lighting was low and the seats were velvet. A DJ played house music, but it wasn’t too loud. About fifty people and as many women as men, mostly wearing jackets or dresses sat at the tables or mingled on the floor.

On one end of the room the barman was pouring drinks at a long bar. On one wall, a rack was stacked to the ceiling with bottles of wine. A mirror covered another wall. Tables and sculptures were scattered around the room.


Striptease Part II
The club is famous for strip teases. I didn’t know that until the performers came out. Suddenly, the music got loud. Here is a photo of one of the dancers:




Saudi Arabia doesn’t have strip clubs or bars. Women are required to be completely covered to the extent of wearing head gear. Fatima had never seen a strip show before, but she was cool. We watched the act and chatted. She didn’t say anything nasty.

Aelyssa, on the other hand, would have gone apeshit then and there. (Aelyssa is a the last girlfriend I had in the US). She would have stood up and said just loud enough for everybody in the whole bar to hear: WE NEED TO GO RIGHT NOW!

She would have stormed out, given me the silent treatment until the afternoon the next day, then chided me. (She is a school teacher and has a lot of practice scolding her students.) She would have given her neo-feminist rant. She would have complained that men were exploiting those dancers. Then she would have informed me that the dancers are whores and that I was objectifying women.

Then the jealousy would have completely taken over. The dancer happens to be thin and physically fit. She trains, has good muscle tone, coordination, and flexibility. Aelyssa, sadly, had not gone to the gym, ridden her bicycle, or done yoga one time in the last year we were together. She put on a lot of weight and looks like she has aged 10 years.

Aelyssa would have gone on about how whores like the dancers have been brainwashed and imprinted upon men that being thin and physically fit is an unrealistic expectation for women. It is her job as a Feminist to fight this, and it is my duty as her Significant Other to support her. To her, the Venus of Malta (a quasi-pornographic Stone Age carving of a naked women shaped like a pear.) is the natural body type, and the media and whores like the stripper have brainwashed men. The fact that 3 out of 4 Americans are overweight is her proof that fat is the normal and ideal body type. Yet, until the 1950s or so, only around 1 in 10 or 1 in 20 Americans were fat. Even today, only 1 in 10 are overweight in France. Body size is an easy way to spot an American, Australian, or British tourist.

A couple of vacationing middle-aged women were sitting beside us. They were from the Central Valley in California, and they looked like it. When the dancers came out, they suddenly looked very uncomfortable as though they had just realized they were in the wrong place. They made the obvious comment about the girl’s butt being on the bar and they were afraid they would get a disease. The barman, however, wiped down the bar after their act. The standard 10% bleach solution restaurants use kills everything.

METH-LAD:

ALD-52:


AL-LAD:

ETH-LAD:

PRO-LAD:

1P-ETH-LAD:

1P-METH-LAD:

PARGY-LAD:

LSZ:

LSA:


Tied to gather from som many expedience / sites as i could, and compared to my own experiences
Missing is the BU-LAD and LSM i will get those in later.

If someone knows the LD50 for any of these Lysergamide's pleas write it in a comment! It would be greatly appreciated!

General Information:

2C-B is a phenthylamine (PEA) and the drug rose in popularity in the mid 80's as a legal alternative to ecstasy (MDMA), despite that 2C-B is a psychedelic it can be used as a stimulant and mood enhancer in lower dosages. It was classified as a drug by the FDA in 95 in the US,and from 2002 2C-B it became illegal in almost every country.

Wikipedia.org said:

2C-B or 2,5-dimethoxy-4-bromophenethylamine is a psychedelic drug of the 2C family. It was first synthesized by Alexander Shulgin in 1974. In Shulgin's book PiHKAL, the dosage range is listed as 12–24 mg. 2C-B is sold as a white powder sometimes pressed in tablets or gel caps and is referred to on the street by a number of slang names. (To see Bee's, Nexus; Bees; Venus; Bromo Chemical Mescaline; BDMPEA)

The drug is usually taken orally, but can also be insufflated or vaporized.

Aphrodisiac
Before it was scheduled, 2C-B was sold in small doses as an aphrodisiac. Some users report aphrodisiac effects at lower doses.

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Dosage:

	Oral (Swallowed):	Insnuffled (Snorted):
Threshold:	2-5mg	1-5mg
Mild Dosage;	5-15mg	5mg
Common Dosage:	10-25mg	5-15mg
Strong Dosage:	20-50mg	15-25mg
LD50	?	?

2c-b pictures:

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I whiting for the BOH synth to be completed and that the research in its antidepressant / anti anxiety properties will begin!!

wikipedia.org said:

It is the β-methoxy analog of methylenedioxyphenethylamine (MDPEA) and is also more distantly related to methylone. On account of its similarity to norepinephrine, the effects of BOH may be of a purely adrenergic nature.^[1] BOH was first synthesized by Alexander Shulgin.^[1] In his book PiHKAL, the dosage range is listed as 80–120 mg, and the duration listed as 6–8 hours. Shulgin reports that BOH causes slight warmth, mydriasis, anorexia, mild nausea, and cold feet, with no psychedelic, entactogen, or euphoriant effects.^[1] He gives it a ++ on the Shulgin Rating Scale.^[1] Very little is known about the pharmacology, pharmacokinetics, effects, and toxicity of BOH.

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Erowid.org said:

DOSAGE: 80 - 120mg


DURATION: 6 - 8 h.


QUALITATIVE COMMENTS:

With 90 mg: Distinct body awareness in an hour. The threshold is mostly physical. Faint sense of inside warmth, skin prickling, cold feet, loose bowels, anorexia. By the fifth hour, I was on the downslope, and in retrospect I found it good humored but not insightful.


With 100 mg: There was a vague nausea, and a chilling of the feet. It reached a real plus two, with dilated pupils and quite a thirst. How can one describe the state? There were no visuals, and I was not even stoned. I was just very turned on. And I was completely back to baseline by hour number six.


EXTENSIONS AND COMMENTARY:
There are several reports of a nice, mild mood enhancement in the 20-40 milligram dosage area, but searches for psychedelic effects at higher levels gave a strange mix of some sort of an altered state along with bodily discomfort. The BOH name for this member of the BOX family follows the convention discussed in the BOD recipe--with RHS for homopiperonylamine, the simplest of the muni-metro family, q.v. The demethylated homologue of BOH is BOHH, and is the methylenedioxy analogue of norepinephrine. It might well hydrolytically open up in the body to provide this neurotransmitter, and serve as some sort of transmitter in its own right. It is discussed under DME.

Maybe there is something to the concept that when you imitate a neurotransmitter too closely, you get a hybrid gemisch of activity. The term "pro-drug" is used to identify a compound that may not be intrinsically active, but one which metabolizes in the body to provide an active drug. I feel the term should have been pre-drug, but pro-drug was the word that caught on. BOH may well act in the body as a pro-drug to norepinephrine, but with the temporary blocking of the polar functions with ether groups, it can gain access to the brain. And once there, it can be stripped of these shields and play a direct neurological role. I uncovered a very similar analogy in the tryptamine world some years ago. Just as norepinephrine is a neurotransmitter, so is serotonin. And I found that by putting an O-ether on the indolic phenol (to hide its polarity) and an alpha-methyl group next to the primary amine (to protect it from metabolic deaminase), it became an extremely potent, and most complex, psychedelic. This was the compound alpha,O-dimethylserotonin, or a,O-DMS. There is an uncanny analogy between this tryptamine and the phenethylamine BOH.
Somehow the quiet voice deep inside me says, don't use too much, too quickly. Maybe one of the optical isomers is the body thing, and the other isomer is the mind thing. So far, only the racemic mixture has been tasted, to the best of my knowledge.

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Personal Experiance said:

I have just have had the chance to sample this drug at 1 time and i was somewhat tired and worn out from a long night.
I took the safe road and after reading in PiKAL I chose to and ingested 48mg in a capsule and after about 45 minutes i started to feel more energetic or rather not so tired more like normal and my mood was somewhat lifted. Didn't really felt anything special then some light mood enhancement and it took away the feeling of tiredness and instead i felt quite normal.. Maybe cross tolerances was in play her i don't exactly know but it lasted around 4-5H then i started to feel tired agen and i fell asleep. When i woke up i felt rested witch i didn't really expected. Didn't have the time to test it in the higher scale and it's almost a decade ago but now it seems like I'm gonna get a new chance to sample this one. Still need to kick a bad habit first but then it's time for test number #2.

Interesting that I felt rested when i woke up! I hade really not expected that!

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BlueLight: The Small & Handy BOH Thread

I have quit a lot of bad habits like Cock, Alcohol and Benzo many times during my life!
But the withdrawal symptoms of Akryl-Fentanyl is the worst i ever experienced!
(It was when i got this i just sad that i would stope taking it, and i know realized i need to ween myself of and not go cold turkey)

It didn't hit me until for some week's ago whin I ran out and hade to stop..
I hadn't ordered more because i noticed i was doing it more and more and hade built up a fairly high tolerance.

I woke up at 4am one day and i felt like i was dying!
My body hurt like hell (Like wheen your sick with high fever but worse), i felt so nauseous and all of a sudden i just puked sitting up in my bed! I rushed into the toilet and puked some more and it was now i also felt the cramps in mostly my stomach but also in my hands and feet mostly. Didn't think the cramps was from Acryl-Fentanyl at first since i know i ha-dent taken my Benzo witch i have hade for 12+ years.

No i skip forward until present day. I now take 0.2mg but I was down to 0.1 but incised it
I take that dosage maybe 3-5 times a day.. (Planing on going down to one in the morning and one in the evening..)

And i have never taken any monster dosage of it.. At most maybe 0.4mg * 10 speed at leased 1h apart

Need to write something that gives me joy now.. But will frequently update along the way until I'm of AF

With Love

I will not say that I'm a Heroin. Opiate or Fentanyle junky!

BUT

For about 2-3moths ago i started taking Akryl-Fentanyle on a regularly basis!
It's widely available where i live and I'm always curious on new RC's and chemicals.

With age i have stopped making rely stupid choices and the frequency of my chemical intake has dropped drastically to almost 0 just before i tried F-A.

I was just curious about it and thought i could at least test it one's..

Don't do that mistake!!
STAY AWAY from Fentanyles!

//With love!

I drink because I like the feeling that it gives me, I also drink because I enjoy the taste of any alcohol.
Meaning, there's been times in my life (not just here recently) but over this past year where I've found myself drinking listerine,not just once or twice, but atleast a dozen times. You think that shit tastes like ass, but for me I can guzzle it down quicker with no chaser. Yeah fucked up, we'll wish I could show a picture of my nose, because it's broken. Not only that I have road rash all along the right side of my arm and body.
It started off with me going to dollar general and boosting a bottle of listeriene, the big bottle (Only the brown shit).
next I went back to my job where we were all waiting on getting paid, I crack the bottle and start drinking. Well, I left and went back to dollar general and boosted another bottle. Well I must have fuckd my face up sometime after that because I found my bag behind the dumpster at DG, and a pool of blood.
Long story short I ended up riding my bike back to the job and the boss man saw my face and thought someone had fucked me up, I ended up riding my bike home and later went to the hospital.
Needless to say I got a fucked up face from drinking listerine.

Rebooked and back on 28th. At peace with it. These last few months have been full of purge and change. Also feeling pretty numb in all aspects but drinking less and using less. Guess that's a plus. Feeling also very betrayed, people that I thought loved me turned out to be snakes. Banking is a cuthroat business full of assholes who only have their best interests at heart. Why the fuck am I in this game. This is not me.

It's ok tho, I will work this out one day at a time. Health first atm.

Rebooked and back on 28th. At peace with it. These last few months have been full of purge and change. Also feeling pretty numb in all aspects but drinking less and using less. Guess that's a plus. Feeling also very betrayed, people that I thought loved me turned out to be snakes. Banking is a cuthroat business full of assholes who only have their best interests at heart. Why the fuck am I in this game. This is not me.

It's ok tho, I will work this out one day at a time. Health first atm.

She is bi and wants a threesome with one of her girlfriends I barely know. This girl introduced my girlfriend to the world of BDSM and is somewhat too openly sexual for my liking; I'm very private with my sexuality, she's very promiscuous and loose. I'm not passing a moral judgement here; just noting the difference in our personality.

Now I've never been in much doubt that I satisfy my woman sexually. Not to brag, but I give her hair pulling, leg shaking oral orgasms and penile ones; I listen carefully and attentively to her fantasies and do my best to fulfill them; I ask her often how she found a sex session went, especially if we tried something spontaneous and new or if if things got a little rough. But I've always had an inkling in the back of my mind that my penis and masculinity could never fully satisfy her and she'd always have a craving for the female touch and finesse.

Well, now I feel like that gut instinct has been vindicated; she suggested to me earlier today, with some keenness, that we have a threesome with one of her friends; a girl I've met few times and barely know; a girl I find sexually attractive, but don't trust, as I don't trust anyone readily when it comes to sex (I've always been a very private person with my sexuality; again, personal disposition.)

To complicate matters further, my girlfriend and I have been engaging in a predominantly D/S relationship for most of the time we've been together. Now while this is only sexual role play and I know I don't ACTUALLY own her, the idea of giving her up to another person physically hurts.

Two people build an intense bond when they've been in a D/S relationship for a while; I think the only way I could handle a threesome is if both my gf and her friend submit to me.

I would become far too jealous and angry to see someone, male or female, use my slave in a way I disapproved of.

I'm glad I wrote this blog, as it's helped me clear up my thoughts surrounding the whole situation a bit.

Yes, that's where I stand. The threesome can take place ONLY if I am in command. This won't be a problem for my girlfriend, and I don't think for her friend either (she's a switch.)

Hey, I actually feel less confused and emotionally distraught now. Typing this all out has, in real time, helped me identify my boundaries.

Cool.

If anyone's interested I'll let them know how things turn out.

It's been a stormy week here in the 'ville', been busy with work cutting trees, so that's a good thing with all these storms and shit, job security breh.
I've been trying to stay busy with work, and finding work. It was some troubling news that my family doesn't want me back around,but I gotta move past that shit and try and move on with my life, yeah it sucks that I can't call mom and dad like I want to, I just have to give it over to god and pray that one day the extranged relationship that we have will get better over time. I'm not counting on it to happen anytime soon.
Still no girlfriend in my world, I have been looking and I got a fucking black eye out of it, so just going to work on myself before I decide to work on getting pussy. It will happen, with the right girl.
I'm still living with this family, and I've never fit in so much in a dysfunctional family before. So after experiencing mom calling cops on daughter for stealing her mom's van, and hitting a can of duster a few times with the other twin,I've never felt so ,like part of something. As for drugs, I'm heroine and meth free. Mom would be proud.

Going to watch it rain and around 8pm I'll be good and shit faced to pop a few bottle rockets off.
Hope everyone has a safe 4th of july!

I guess i mostly post when things aren't great but that's okay. I was doing really well and then I fell flat on my face again. This time though it is proving to be significantly more difficult to pick myself back up. My short term memory may never recover. That is really scary. I mean I am a lot better than I was but I am not normal. I am not sure I could hold a job or anything.

Sacrifice is the highest of the virtues in the concern of love. If you love something, or someone, sacrifice is never sacrifice but a righteous pleasure. Undoubtedly sometimes it hurts - its strenuous. However it's always worth it because the sacrifice is always done for the greater good of the person or object of affection.

If ever you find a pursuit, human or hobby or otherwise feeling empty or lacking - ask yourself. What have I sacrificed lately to show myself and this thing that I am willing and able to give my all for its prospering?

I am really hurting right now. I am under pressure from my methadone clinic to stop smoking weed. The thing is weed is the only drug that makes me not want to kill myself. I am on a ton of precribed psych drugs effexor, gabapentin, seroquel and klonopin. I still feel like I would be happier dead.

Methadone has been the lone bright spot on the last year. Not craving heroine is amazing. But if they take that away from me I will get back on heroin and set out to kill myself with this run. I know a guy who sells acetyl fentanyl so I think I am going to stock up while it's around.

I had a dream that I would get out of this hell hole state. I don't care that much about where I go. California. Seattle, philly, colorado. Pretty much anywhere with medical pot and fun outdoor activities. I want to snowboard or surf. But it'd probably a pipe dream at this point. I have no job no money and I'm probably going to end up strung out again once they kick me off the mdone.

THE FIFTH AND FINAL PART WILL BE REVEALED LATER

Pressure,,,
I break it in the blender
Submachine with no surrender
Try to hit me up in traffic
Work me with the Magick
Spend it.
........
Hope these niggas don't play with me.
Got 3 that stay with me.
Hope these niggas don't play with me

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