Visuals not strong at all?
Hey!
So after reading loads of good stuff about 4-ho-met, I decided to get hold of some. Spent a fair amount of money, and effort to get it.
Now online (in this, and other threads) the consensus on this substance seemed to be "hardly any 'mindfuck', hardly any bodyload, lots of pretty visuals, very easy going, not much anxiety, and very recreational".
Yesterday I tried it for the first time: 17mg orally on an empty stomach, took 60mg of Methoxphenidine about an hour before (this usually gets rid of any bodyload and anxiety for me). I take 4mg of Buprenorphine daily, but this never dampened my trips before.
Basically I got the exact opposite of the other descriptions: I was tripping alone, in my flat, dim lighting... The 'mindfuck' was strong, the visuals were weak compared with my 4-aco-dmt experiences which often gave me absolutely mind blowing, and intricate visuals. The come up was not nice at all this time. Just didn't feel comfortable in my body, almost flu-like. I have to admit that I made a big mistake because I tripped, even though my set wasn't right: I've been feeling rather down and depressed recently.
My trip was very introspective (unlike what other people have said). It revealed a lot about my personal issues etc. It was exhausting, and although I'm thankful for the experience, it wasn't what I had expected at all. I thought by insufflating an eyeballed dose of about 5-10mg 90 minutes into the trip would increase visual activity (like it has done with 4-aco-dmt for me in the past).
My question is: could it be, that what I had was not 4-ho-met? It's from a reputable vendor. The smell somewhat reminded me somewhat of the smell of dmt vapour... Lastly, does the set and setting influence the amount of visuals? I even vaped some weed which for me often dramatically increases visuals, but it didn't do much this time. I'm slightly confused and disappointed.
Sure, I could try a higher dose, but somehow I feel like that isn't the answer.
Don't get me wrong, I still think it's an interesting chem. It's just not what I expected it to be. I do like my fair share of beautiful visuals (don't we all?)...
I would really appreciate it, if someone had some answers to my questions. I'm hoping that a better set and setting will give me a more visual trip. But for now, im going to take a break for a while, until I feel more stable psychologically. I'm aware of it not being smart, and a bit reckless to take a psychedelic while in a depressed mood.
Kind regards,
Mude
