I have taken a long break from the use of chemicals. It has been over 2 and a half years since I have used anything. Recently I have been looking into my favorite class of compounds; 4-substituted tryptamines!
To be concise and not take up much of your time, I found 4-AcO-DMT to be absolutely the most amazing chemical, in many cases superior to mushrooms. For personal introspection, 4acodmt, with a friend or two; mushrooms. I ventured off into 4-HO-MET. I received 1 gram and I had access to a .001 scale.
I tried several 20-30 mg doses in numerous settings, and I was completely let down. It felt very.... "synthetic." The colors were pretty, sure, but the bodyload, visuals, and the headspace were not even comparable to 4ACODMT or 4HODMT.
That is until I tried a 75mg dose and the effects changed COMPLETELY. It had such an organic feel to it. The visuals were very, very DMT like. Very deep, and everything had that classic "mushroom heaviness" to it. Like standing, even just breathing has this deep, sloooowness to it. Getting up and moving was out of the question. Closing my eyes were comparable to a strong DMT hit, except lasting for a solid 2 hours. On 20-35mg doses 4-HO-MET is extremely stimulating for me.
I understand this is a "heroic" dose, and honestly I don't need to qualify myself or even justify that dosage. I knew it was 4-HO-MET. I know myself and my environment. With that being said, when I use a psychedelic I do not take them to get the giggles, or to see pretty colors; I use them for a spiritual experience.
75mg were comparable to the visuals of about ~30mg 4-ACO-DMT. The visuals of 4HOMET become similar to 4ACO's at this dose. Very tribal, ancient. Dark colors, not the typical light greens, yellows and pinks associated with 20-30mg dosages. Dark purples, "saturated" dark greens and navy blues. I couldn't count how many times I thought to myself, "My God.. this feels like DMT." Physically feeling it was almost identical, mentally however, it didn't have that cosmic feel to it. No real magic, no Ah ha's. 4HOMET always retained this lucidity about it, no matter the dose. That's exactly why I do not like it; you can't give yourself to the universe.
I tried a 80mg dose a few months later was convinced this substance is just not for me, while at the same time I would be willing to take it again but not under 75mg. The numerous 30mg trials are just pitiful, synthetic and abusive. I understand that is opinionated, but after trying 4-AcO-DMT, 4-AcO-MET, 4-AcO-DiPT, and 4-HO-DMT, the 4-HO-MET just didn't do much for me until I took it at 75mg.
EDIT*- I have tripped probably 100 times or so, over the course of the 10 years I have been using psychadelics; I used to be so scared of high doses, terrified I might have a "bad trip." But once I receieved that complete earth shattering experience and learned so much about letting go, acceptance, trusting in the spirit of the universe that things will work out and these types of things, I now seek that very ego death experience each time I take psychadelics. I play around with 20-30mg dosages a couple times to see what they are about and if they would have any use for friends who aren't there yet, but other than that, I go for dosages that are impossible to "hang on." Thank you so much for allowing me to share, BL. This forum has played a significant impact on my life lol
