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TDS Social vs. where Darksiders come to play

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I'm glad today was a decent day for you man :) Take those moments of feeling better and store them up inside, because over time it has a cumulative effect <3
What heals a broken heart?? Time. With time I promise you will feel better <3
 
Splatchrome, my adhd makes me ridiculously impulsive, but I am slowing learning to chill the feck out, i need to for my physical and mental health. You'll get there man i promise, tomorrow is a new day, if days are too much then do it by the hour :)
 
I need to get back to the mountains. i miss skiing and cycling in the high country. Skiing I was surprisingly good at, and now its been forever since I've hit the powder. God there isn't anything like cruising down the mountain, hitting some jumps, taking some drop offs, testing your fear, etc. It's one of things in this world that just strips all my problems away. I need something like that in my life. Something that doesn't involve getting high to shake my issues. I guess I should get back on the bike. I've never been good, but I've been able to ride 40 miles in the mountains, hitting some decent climbs. I'm a bigger guy as well, so no easy task. I should go out for 20 mile ride, or atleast a 10 mile ride tomorrow.

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yeah for me typically the money seems to go at the same rate, but the consumption increases

it doesn't *have* to be that way though
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Haha I know what you mean. I don't spend my money on material items, food, or whatever, but it finds its way in the hands of some dealer. Thats where most of my money has gone, kinda sucks, especially since I have a high tolerance for a lot of goods, or binge so much. I see my friends around me who could say make a handful of k last months or all year, but I'll consume it in under 2 weeks. Hell of a two weeks, but I could have helped limit the increase in my dissociative tolerance and gotten more joy from it. Not to mention save me money say on other drugs filling the gap of getting high.

I'm trying to change all that. I want to go back to school in a year to finish my BS, but I refuse to let myself go back to school if I plan on getting high more during the few semesters I got left. This may be the last chance I have to finish my degree considering how much I'm already in debt, so don't want to blow it by being stupid in any way. I should be graduating this semester, but fuck at this point I'll be happy to have my degree in few years time.
 
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Yup, demanding sports are great to distract me from my issues, too. Martial Arts and Paintball are the best things to disconnect for a few hours.
 
VanWeyden, can totaly agree on the martial arts, shit keeps ur body and mind healthy, i got to black tips in Tae kwon do, best thing for feeling good and gettting some agression out....
Right now im not feelin too socable but dropin thru to say hi.
TDS is such a great place although i have to admit there are some forums on this site that are Quite cliquey and some very rude people who inhabit them.
Well wishes n luv to everyone here.... Thinks im over it for the day after my last read:|
 
Herro.

Erik do not worry i read science books for fun, fantasy horror, teens and harry potter and gone the teen book series. Terry prachett to anne rice, classics to noel fieldings books haha
 
S.M.F.G said:
VanWeyden, can totaly agree on the martial arts, shit keeps ur body and mind healthy, i got to black tips in Tae kwon do, best thing for feeling good and gettting some agression out....
Right now im not feelin too socable but dropin thru to say hi.
TDS is such a great place although i have to admit there are some forums on this site that are Quite cliquey and some very rude people who inhabit them.
Well wishes n luv to everyone here.... Thinks im over it for the day after my last read:|
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I have to admit that I'm a bloody beginner, until I went to the uni I hated sports altogether. Then I did Judo for a few semesters on and off and the last year I'm into Krav Maga. Not exactly what you would call martial arts but it's simple enough for a body dyslexic like me, it's a lot of fun and I guess its quite effective ;)
 
VanWeyden said:
I have to admit that I'm a bloody beginner, until I went to the uni I hated sports altogether. Then I did Judo for a few semesters on and off and the last year I'm into Krav Maga. Not exactly what you would call martial arts but it's simple enough for a body dyslexic like me, it's a lot of fun and I guess its quite effective ;)
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Ive always wanted to learn Krav Maga but noone here in my province teaches it. It's probably the best thing you can learn for self defense cause it's simple and very effective. Basically just really dirty street fighting.

Ive been getting quite the workout lately shoveling all the snow we've been having. My back, arms and leg's are fucking killing me. And another blizzard for tonight and tomorrow great! :!
 
Hey KAYLA, nice to "meet" you. How's it hanging

paranoid android said:
Ive always wanted to learn Krav Maga but noone here in my province teaches it. It's probably the best thing you can learn for self defense cause it's simple and very effective. Basically just really dirty street fighting.
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It's all about the groins...Yes, it's quite odd. 2 years ago no one here would have heard about it, now there are two or three gyms offering Krav Maga in every bigger town around here. Hopefully the hype will come to you soon ;)
 
been talking to a guy online that wants to resell my "herbal incense"...

found out today that he lives in the same city as my ex-fiancee

wtf

maybe if i name one of my flavors after our old pet name for each other i can win her back =p was a word we made up, if she walks into a party store or something and sees that on a baggie at the counter... lol...

crazy coincidence though. we live in different states.
 
Hey KAYLA:)
seen you before in some other threads but the social is always a good place to visit!!
PA iz feelin sorry for you havin to dig ur way thru snow to get places, that shit must suck even though its a good workout:\
Never heard of this Krav Maga , will have to look it up, sounds harsh, i did some judo also when i was a youngin, only a few months though.
Swims not outta the question today, but im pretty happpy right here atm, and getting hungry... theres roast pork in the frigde im fuckin there=D

TNW.. is that incence still legal where you are??? theyve stomped allover the stnthetic canabolids here:(
 
Man I'm bored as shit. For some reason can't get into contact with someone I'd really like to talk to. Wont answer any form of contact, and it honestly worries me a bit. Never been ignored like that, makes me wonder if their ok. I'd at least get yelled at, never fully ignored like this. I don't know what to do. :( Since I'm worried and anxious I can't get anything done that I should be doing ugh. I start class soon too, just not a good thing. I dunno if I should call them while they are at work tomorrow just to make sure nothing happen to them.

Good news today I got my methadone dose upped to 15mg a day (5mg TID). I'd love to be one 20mg a day (10mg BID), I'll see in the next two weeks if that is possible. Hoping then I can get my clonazepam dose to either .5mg or 1mg. Preferably .5mg and just keep the extra clonazepam around on hand. I've never really had a drug stash other than for psychs so it would be a step forward.
 
Most of the legal highs here suck now, Fucking extract of damiana and shit like opium lettuce.. Utter crap. Although you can still find the odd interesting thing floatin about if ya know where to look i suppose:\
Have had some great legal highs but now thier no longer legal thanks to our fucking stupid analouge act:p gets one a little pissed off.
 
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