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No no, second breakfast comes after breakfast and before brunch, which then comes before elevenses. I must be the only hobbit here.

(If you have to explain it, it wasn't funny there Dave)
 
Today was productive and positive, but I still can't feel better for to long. I'm still more depressed than I've been in 5 years, probably since I moved in the middle of high school, if not worse atm, so maybe my whole life.

Hopefully a job will pop up soon as I got one positive reply as I turned in an application. They say they will call me this week to set up an interview, so we'll see. Anything to waste the day and get started on getting the fuck out of this house and state. Just hope I can control myself and stop myself from becoming more of a drug addict than I already am.
 
^^ Splat that is great you had a good and productive day. Wishing you the best of luck with your job interviews and stuff, I'm sure something will pop up soon <3


Dave, I got it!! :D And I've not even read the Hobbit or LOTR :p

badfish45 said:
You ever have one little thing that upsets you a lot? You know, like there's a situation that upsets you, and there's one thing about that entire situation that basically makes you upset with the whole situation, and through that you find everything else about the situation that makes you upset.

You ever have that one little thing thrown in your fucking face when you're desperately trying to cope with it in a healthy way? Doesn't really help.
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Umm YES!! And that situation for me is my family. So that happens to me at almost every family function :|
 
I wish I kept my old one. I guess what can you do,.. move forward no matter how hard it is. Getting a job has been holding my head further into the water bucket, making myself become more and more depressed the longer I'm unemployed. Just hope when it happens things start getting better. I don't know how much longer I can keep feeling this way.

It's hard being all alone, far from all my good friends, with no ability to even have a weekend get away due to the distance. It would be a lot better if I still have the social world I have a 1000 miles away here while I try and rebuild my life. Everyday getting out of bed is such a struggle. I know I have no one I'm gonna interact with socially and no one to talk to day to day anymore. Not sure how I'll make it through the next handful of months till I have enough money to be financially viable to move back to home state. 7 to 8 more months by myself? :(

I am happy that I am finally seeking help/getting it, especially with someone I feel comfortable talking to. Its something I've avoid doing for years and years. (to close with some positivity)
 
Dave said:
No no, second breakfast comes after breakfast and before brunch, which then comes before elevenses. I must be the only hobbit here.

(If you have to explain it, it wasn't funny there Dave)
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Nope, you're not the only hobbit. I generally go by Sam (my middle name) and it's actually Samwise on my birth certificate.

Fucking hippie parents... :p
 
I love your parents sheffsam, cool as fuck. Yes, i am a geek :) i also agree with Dave on the food, and seeing as how i am from Lancashire which is what the shire was based on, it makes sense. Just wish i could eat without it damn near killing me lol.
 
Samwise :D

My dad read me LOTR when I was young, and our cats when I was a kid were called Merry and Pippin, hehe..

D2P love I will pm you imminently, just cooking dinner and finishing modding, then I am all yours :) <3
 
Oh goody :)

Cool names for the kittehs. My next one shall be a maine coon called Gandalf
 
Ahhhhhhhhh I SO want a maine coon! Best cats ever :D Also, awesome name! =D
 
effie said:
Samwise :D

My dad read me LOTR when I was young, and our cats when I was a kid were called Merry and Pippin, hehe..
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OK, that's just odd. I grew up with a cat called Merry, originally started off as part of a pair, but Pippin vanished as farm cats sometimes do. Merry lived to about 17 though, and in her hayday would catch rabbits that were bigger then her.

Secondly I used to live with this maine coon (lighter included for size reference). He's not got a LOTR name tho, he's called Makar after one of the characters from Zelda:The Wind Waker.
 
SplatChrome said:
True, but I am ridiculously impulsive, so when I buy in bulk, I end up using in bulk haha.
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Too easily done esp if that is one of your personality quirks. I am also very impulsive and when in that mind set it is impossible to persuade me otherwise haha.
 
Sheffsam said:
OK, that's just odd. I grew up with a cat called Merry, originally started off as part of a pair, but Pippin vanished as farm cats sometimes do. Merry lived to about 17 though, and in her hayday would catch rabbits that were bigger then her.
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That's actually not that odd ;) My boyfriend's mum loves LOTR as well, and her old Golden Retriever was named Samwise, and she has two old cockatiel birds called Merry and Pippin =D
I'm sure there are LOTS of LOTR nerds in the world who have a pair of animals called Merry and Pippin :D

Oh and Sam, I am also absolutely LOVING that your middle name is actually Samwise. That is so so cool!!!
 
I'm ADHD, so its a part of life. I'd run through amounts of weed a little to quickly than I should have. Hazy period of time in my life haha. I'm terrible with opiates too.

I got a high tolerance to most drugs because I tend to go big for short periods, rather than go small over time. I guess I like to chase that same feeling that you get on that first fantastic nod, high, whatever from a substance. Sadly some drugs like methadone aren't so nice in the idea of chasing that high. It was probably my favorite drug of all time, but once you dose it to many days in a row, or build a tolerance over 50mgs, it starts to lose its magic fast. Probably why its such a good drug for some chronic pain, or chronic problems, it doesn't have the same abuse potential with everyday use. Which is honestly why I put myself on it. I could abuse oxy, or hydros if I would want to eat 80-140mg, but methadone, no.

Yeah, so really whats best for me is to have someone hand out my stash everyday to me, or me to buy in small quantities. Though now I need to not get high anymore. Already stopped smoking weed, and stopped amphetamines for almost 2 months now, just need to control my opioid use.

I'd like to stop being such a druggy. Drugs can be very negative in life, especially when combined with mental illness, and I've shown myself that. I can't say to people anymore that I'm a successful druggy going to college, about to get my degree. I fucked up, not really because of drugs, but after fucking up they made everything 100x worse. I wont stop wearing my ketamine t-shirt though, gotta represent my roots haha.

Today is meh so far. Still cant escape this feeling of loneliness, and it's driving me mad. Fuck, the last time I've hugged someone was july 31st. I've grown tired of my life being constantly away from the things I love. Seems they are always 1000s of miles away.

edit: txting is also the devil when your so impulsive haha, it always gets me in tight spots with women. its a curse.

edit: to clean it up after n3os snipping :P, sorry will be more careful next time. I should have known better.
 
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n3ophy7e said:
That's actually not that odd ;) My boyfriend's mum loves LOTR as well, and her old Golden Retriever was named Samwise, and she has two old cockatiel birds called Merry and Pippin =D
I'm sure there are LOTS of LOTR nerds in the world who have a pair of animals called Merry and Pippin :D

Oh and Sam, I am also absolutely LOVING that your middle name is actually Samwise. That is so so cool!!!
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I can top anyone's cat being named Pippin. My first boyfriend's name was Pippin! As far as I know he is still going by that name all these years later. =D
 
^^ No wayyyy!!! That is SUCH a cool name....like, for a person! :D


Splat I know you're going through a really tough time right now <3 Things will get better soon, I promise. I know people keep telling you that, but that's because it's true! I reckon getting clean off all drugs would give you a GREAT headstart in the right direction. And you're going to graduate from college as well, that will be a massive achievement! You've got a lot to look forward to.
P.S unfortunately I have to edit some of your post out due to our "No triggering content" rule here in TDS, I hope that's okay man <3
 
I hope so, I've just been in this same situation a few years ago and it took forever to get better. I wasn't in as crappy of a position as either. You're right, just feels like right now with no job, one of the most important tools for me to get happy (money ugh!), I'm stuck. I hate being stuck, especially with no money, to much time, and no friends. Today was decent though, for the most part. Heart still feels broken, but seems like there is nothing I can do about that.
 
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