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Separately, I did acknowledge to myself, just upon sudden realisation, no denial, that on reflection I maybe entered a state of psychosis about 4 months ago, after the
plugged overdose, I've not had an experience like that before, being so outside myself afterwards, and due to the high stress levels involved, I also withdrew and alienated myself from family life, have had little contact with others in life too, being very in my own head.
So yes, unhinged I have become, mentally & emotionally, not entirely unseen by myself. But more evident to members here.
It doesn't mean I have lost my mind, even if I have a bit in a sense.
I have however, just recently gotten into a very deep depressive state like I have never experienced before.
Lots of factors again. But the high dose LSD trips lasting days, so frequent has a direct bearing on this. It's like intense, crippling withdrawals for days at first, then feeling even higher, luminous sparkling world but so intense and overloaded by senses, until week to two on, all settled again.
It's a vicious circle too, and it's been months since I had more rhan one week off.
I have been on verge of actually deleting my entire post history and simply withdrawing, but it would take a while for a start and I try not to be too rash, some posts are wrth having made too, for others.
plugged overdose, I've not had an experience like that before, being so outside myself afterwards, and due to the high stress levels involved, I also withdrew and alienated myself from family life, have had little contact with others in life too, being very in my own head.
So yes, unhinged I have become, mentally & emotionally, not entirely unseen by myself. But more evident to members here.
It doesn't mean I have lost my mind, even if I have a bit in a sense.
I have however, just recently gotten into a very deep depressive state like I have never experienced before.
Lots of factors again. But the high dose LSD trips lasting days, so frequent has a direct bearing on this. It's like intense, crippling withdrawals for days at first, then feeling even higher, luminous sparkling world but so intense and overloaded by senses, until week to two on, all settled again.
It's a vicious circle too, and it's been months since I had more rhan one week off.
I have been on verge of actually deleting my entire post history and simply withdrawing, but it would take a while for a start and I try not to be too rash, some posts are wrth having made too, for others.