S0SickofThesePills
Bluelighter
Throw the guilt and shame out the window as it does no good and just drives use and makes us miserable
You are not a failure or looser or weak.. addiction comes from our unconscious and we dont control our unconscious, but over time we can retrain it and learn ways of dealing with its manipulations. Your doing great man.. just go give your wife a hug and thank her for all she's done and say that you are not giving up and you will continue to fight this and will never give up.. dont promise her that this is the last time as that can get us in real trouble.. just promise to do the very best you can and then let your actions do all the talking. You can and will do this. Please take some time when you can and look at this thread as I hope it will allow you to throw out allot of the guilt and shame when you are able to understand how addiction works in the brain. It sure helped me when I took the time to figure out whats going on and as soon as I did a huge weight of shame and guilt were lifted.
The Brain and Addiction (under construction)![]()
That's a great link and really, really bad ass thread that you started. Once my thoughts aren't so damn jumbled I really want to dig into that. NSA you're good people man, you're all over these forums trying to help people and I think it's great you do it.
Day 3 for me. Better than yesterday, coming to terms with fucking up. I had kind of planned this being the week to try and kick...Last time, in August I was able to take an entire month off work and that made last time easier. No way I could take more than a day or so off this time though. After I went back to work my team got moved to the very early morning, like 4:30AM so that we can deal with our counterparts in other countries. So this week I scheduled any and all meetings in the mornings and 'worked from home' the later part of my shifts. So I've had to work days 1, 2 and 3 but only for 4ish hours. Hasn't been that awful...hopefully I'll be feeling ok by Monday so I can work my regular schedule.
Anyway. Thanks to anyone paying attention