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Bluelighter
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If you mean why did i up dosage from 16 a day to 32mg a day, well while on 16 i relapsed and started using, i went and seen my case worker and doctor and told them the truth that it wasnt holding me (note i did NOT ask to be upped, i never have).
Just on this, what drug did you relapse with? Can you please elaborate on the substance and dose? If it was codeine, it would have had absolutely no effect while you were on a huge dose of Suboxone like 16mg +. Taking codeine on a Suboxone dose that high would be like firing a ping pong ball at a tank - it would do absolutely nothing!
Based on my experience with codeine and Suboxone, it sounds like your treatment has been severely mismanaged. Rather than increasing your dose because you still had 'cravings', they should have kept you on a low dose (8mg at most) and let you stabilise. Suboxone is in a completely different league to codeine. Even a 2mg dose is far, far stronger than the 400mg + codeine dose you were on. Given the comparative strengths of the two drugs, I'd say that your 'cravings' would have to have been completely psychological. In my experience, addiction Drs will let you tell them what dose you want to be on but even so, it's simply irresponsible for a Dr. to up you to that dose without making you sit on the dose for a month or so to let it stabilise.
I'm quite concerned that you have jumped out of the tiny little scrub fire into a raging inferno. It could take you years to drop down from a dose of 32mg and replacing Suboxone with Methadone just bumps you up another level, like going from 8mg to 16mg to 32mg. Since you started on maintenance treatment all you have done is get your addiction more and more entrenched. To be honest, it sounds like you are chasing a high which is completely contrary to maintenance treatment. Before you go to Methadone, try sitting at your current dose of Suboxone and evaluate its efficacy not by how high you get but by the absence of withdrawal symptoms. You have to give it a few weeks before writing it off as ineffectual.
Good luck and feel free to shoot me a PM if you want to talk to someone who's been though something simlar.
*edit* Didn't realise this thread went for seven pages - what I've said may be irrelevant at this point. I'll leave it there as there's a chance it could be of interest to someone else in similar circumstances