i wrote in this thread a while ago, vowing to stop. i failed eventually. its just too damn hard when you have a roommate who doesnt want to quit and continues to buy weed. i think i could do it if i wasnt living with a stoner. anyways, im on day 3 of a forced break, dont have a connection at the time and the weather is too crappy for a longboard ride to the coffeeshop (thats how ive been getting weed lately). i enjoy not smoking and i dont have the urge to buy weed, although i think of weed 20 times a day. i guess i will break down once my roommate purchases some ganja again.
here are some things i dislike about weed:
- its restricting. when im stoned i rarely pursue everyday activities like shopping, cleaning, talking on the phone.
- it makes me stupid. i am seriously pretty dumb when im stoned. its "ok" when im sober but i know my intelligence is still limited.
- it kills my long and short term memory.
- it makes me antisocial. i find it tedious/intimidating to talk to people and thus have a hard time making friends. even when im sober. i think this may be due to a hightened sense of self awareness
- it alienates me from people who dont smoke. believe it or not, many people arent keen on hanging out with druggies, even if its "just weed".
- it makes me stay at home. why bother with all the hassle of going to a club when i can just smoke weed and play computer with a friend. its just as fun. when i do go out its mostly with people who also smoke weed. because of that i experience less than i could and thus collect less memories to look back on when im old. all those days spent smoking weed are just a hazy cloud of mush. memories of good times are rare. its all just the same.
- it makes me ugly. puffy eyes is the main issue. almost all stoners sport puffy eyes, even when they are sober.
- munchies. its 1 am, im starting to get sober, i need to sleep but i cant because im so hungry. eating snacks never cuts it, i need to make a pizza or something. or go to bed hungry which also sucks.
here are some things i like about weed:
- its fun. getting stoned on a nice summer day with a few good friends is great. playing computer really stoned is great. going longboarding stoned is great. lighting up after an intense party is great.
thats all i can think of thats positive about weed. i have been smoking for over six years.