June Getting and/or Staying Sober Thread

[BlueSaffron]

Just put in the order to go down to 22 tomorrow (I'm at 24, been here for a week). I felt pretty good physically when I woke up this morning, and todays dose hit me kind of hard, so I think it's time to go down again. I feel like mayyyybe I'm making a tiny bit of progress.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

^ congrats

 

[phactor]

Still doing this thing! Picked up my keytag at my homegroup last night. So proud of myself.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

%) way to go!

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

I have 183 days today

Much to everyone, keep up the great work everyone!

Six months, well done man.

 

[GettingClean]

Made it through today barely.... everything hurts. Praying for no RLS tonight....

 

[phactor]

%) way to go!

You too!

Grateful to be clean today! Meeting with the head of the CADC focus of my MSW program today.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

184 days today

Much to everyone

 

[GettingClean]

Feel like hell today can't believe I did this to myself again. the rls was bad last night getting some xanax tonight because I can't stand the anxiety and rls. Feels like just moving from one couch to the other is hard today. Called in to work....so damn depressed.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I remember when I was goin through the acute withdrawal from buprenorphine, getting from one place to lay to the other seemed so awful. I know how you feel and what you're going through. Hang in there

 

[GettingClean]

Thanks ch.... great to hear from you. I'm sure sick of this shit...I feel like I'm ready to get my life back. Seems like it shouldnt be possible to have anxiety AND depression at the same time...

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Haha tell me about it.

It certainly is, sadly enough.

There will be a day we can look back on this and realize how strong we are to go through this.

 

[GettingClean]

^Thanks bud. I sincerely hope so.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I already can do that to some extent. I am still going trough PAWS but I am trying my hardest and just doing that makes me happy knowing I am making an effort.

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

How much you coming off?

 

[GettingClean]

Coming off some pretty weak shit...about 400mg of tramadol and 40mg-60mg hydrocodone a day for about three weeks this last time. Had almost two months clean before I relapsed. Before that was up to almost 1500 mg of tramadol and 100mg hydrocodone a day.it's a wonder I never had a seizure.

 

[laCster]

well, i took kratom today, and now i am going to buy some oxycodone. i dont want to, but i dont know. i am not that far deep in te whole, but i am digging deeper day by day. i am kind of unsatisfied with my life right now. and i use the excuse i am young and i deserve to have fun and have amazing days, but of course that is a lie.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

You don't have to go buy them. Good luck man.

 

[laCster]

too late i just did

i am saving one for tomorrow, should i just take it today so i can try to start tomorrow over sober?

 

[phactor]

too late i just did

i am saving one for tomorrow, should i just take it today so i can try to start tomorrow over sober?

Nobody can answer that one. This might sound insane... but How about just getting rid of it? Throw it down the toilet or some shit.

I had to throw away a lot of drugs I have been "saving" when I got clean. I never thought I would be able to throw drugs away but I did.