^wow, this is an attitude i am really inspired by!
and there i was feeling a little sorry for myself cos im watching a lot of friends going down due to drugs atm (got one crashed on the couch right now....) and im hooked on valium and hav to do a slow taper (slower than most due to my epilepsy) so i cant take my ADHD meds and therefore go to uni (which costs so its not worth going along and failing)
but i read a few of these posts and it puts things in perspective
esp urs nickatina, so thanks for that
That's awesome, it really makes me feel good to know that people can look at my attitude and want to emulate it. The girl I am seeing right now has done that too, and the people in her life have told her she is "morphing" because of it.
I was hooked on benzos too, because I wasn't always this relaxed - quite the opposite, actually. After I got off benzos it was tough for a while, the rebound anxiety definitely wasn't fun. But once the cloud lifted from my head, I think I developed a new appreciation for every time of emotion, good and bad. Because while I was hooked, I basically didn't feel at all, and it ruined my personality. The way I see it now is we, as humans, live for emotions, and to deny ourselves that is to take away our life force.
Then think about this - when we feel bad about ourselves, what do we do? We sit around and mope. We usually choose to isolate ourselves, procrastinate, almost waste away. This only makes the situation worse, especially with all the time to dwell on these bad feelings. But when you are feeling good, the tendency is to go out, get stuff done, hang out with friends and enjoy the feeling. This is productive, and leads to more good relationships, more self-confidence, and less time to think about the bad.
So I think what I'm trying to get at here is that if you focus your energy on thinking about what is good with your life, and forget all about the negative feelings, it snowballs into something even better. Good luck with your taper, remember that there is a LOT of light at the end of the tunnel.