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Are you happy with your life?

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drug_wench said:
this is probly hard to consider wen ur currently depressed (i take it its winter where u r now) but ever considered actually going out and 'living and having fun'?
granted, a lot of living and having fun requires money but sometimes if im feeling down ill take a drive into the country or even into the semi-rural suburbs of my city and find a nice forest or bush track or a pathway down to the sea
ill take a picnic and just go for a nice walk, check out my surroundings - once ur fit enough, u can do this all day (im not fit enough ;))
make ur own fun!
although again i say its probly hard to motivate urself to do so if u hav seasonal depression - is there any way u can b medicated for this?
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I sure have thought of that lol.. But it just seems like there's nothing I can do. I don't drive (can't afford to), and there's pretty much nothing to do within city limits. Maybe there is, but I don't know about it. Practically all of my friends are busy with school or work so there's never time to do anything during the week. :p

It's hard to motivate myself all year round. Winter just makes it even worse. If it was summer I'd probably go out for a nice bike ride or something, but even that isn't exactly exciting. I like to bike, and of course I like nature, but you know.

I know I want to do something but I just don't know what, or how. And I guess that makes me feel secluded...

I could talk to a doctor about it, and maybe get some anti-depressants. I was going to go later in the month and talk to him about my anxiety... Or I could self medicate myself, if I had the money. :\


I dont know... My problems are pretty small and insignificant compared to other peoples, and maybe I'm just complaining too much, but it just feels awful. Every day I go through the same thought pattern ("I wish I could be doing this, why am I not out doing that, etc") and I don't know how to change it. Or just lack the motivation... probably a combination of the two.



I'm hoping that once I find a job I'll have something to keep me busy, and I'll be earning some money so maybe some opportunities for fun will present themselves, or I can be more equipped to seek them out. Then I can work on my direction in life, hopefully go back to school next year.
 
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I dont know... My problems are pretty small and insignificant compared to other peoples, and maybe I'm just complaining too much, but it just feels awful.
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if they feel awful to u theyre not insignificant at all - fuck comparing urself to other ppls problems, ur allowed to feel as u feel
as for going for help, u may want to look into something like wellbutrin (as long as u dont hav a history of seizures) - thats an antidepressant that wud probly give u a bit of motivation unlike some of the others
alternatively u cud try therapy.....that wud certainly help ur anxiety - CBTs the one i recommend, its really helped improve my GAD symptoms
as far as self-medicating goes.....well many of us hav bn down that road, and will tell u its not a wise idea
a drug addiction is not wat u need wen ur already depressed and anxious
 
I'm quite happy with my life and who I am. The world is fucked on so many levels and at times it feels like nothing can be done about it, but I can at least reliably change myself and feel good about that.
 
drug_wench said:
if they feel awful to u theyre not insignificant at all - fuck comparing urself to other ppls problems, ur allowed to feel as u feel
as for going for help, u may want to look into something like wellbutrin (as long as u dont hav a history of seizures) - thats an antidepressant that wud probly give u a bit of motivation unlike some of the others
alternatively u cud try therapy.....that wud certainly help ur anxiety - CBTs the one i recommend, its really helped improve my GAD symptoms
as far as self-medicating goes.....well many of us hav bn down that road, and will tell u its not a wise idea
a drug addiction is not wat u need wen ur already depressed and anxious
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Thanks. I just don't want to drown you in my sorrows when there's people out there with far worse things going on than me. :P

And I'm practically afraid of therapy :p Opening up like that to people, it's both complicated and scary for me, I guess. Hell, I can barely even tell myself how I feel about stuff, let alone tell that to a complete stranger. It's complicated.
 
ur sorrows r fairly commonplace around TDS - sure some may seem worse, but i guess its relative to how u deal with things
some ppl will fall apart over losing a cellphone, some ppl will b amazingly stoical wen a parent dies
and its not common to b afraid of therapy either - all i can suggest is take a support person along with u the first time
hav wat u want to tell the therapist written down - get them to read it if u cant
i took my mum the first time
then i realised it was actually really easy talking to my therapist!
 
Well.. the world is fucked up and so am I, it's a nice relationship but I would hardly call it a state of happiness.
 
nope, not even a bit...i fucked up too much this past year, and besides that, i've always been a nagativist , pesimistic depressed person, sick with bordem...
 
yes mostly cheerful. . . I am not interested in feeling good, I am interested in the nature of the "feeler"
Who is this conscious being that "Feels" good and or bad , , what is the nature of the experiencer ?
well its got me interested ! (*_*)
 
To tell you the truth I was really happy with life before I made the stupid decision to take two pills of e on one night along with some alcohol and weed two and a half weeks ago. Unlike most people, the e adversely affected me-in a bad way-and I really cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I am convinced that I have permanent brain damage since today is one of the most spaced out days I have had. Isn't it supposed to get better with time...
 
^^DDDUUUUDDDEEEE......if you "are convinced" you ahve brain damage, your body is actually going to create it!!! There have been many studies showing your brain can actually GIVE you diseases or CAUSE illnesses just because you THINK you have them!!!

I PROMISE YOU you don't have any PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE from doing e a couple times or whatever....
 
you know I think you are fucking right god dammit! There is nothing wrong with me! Its all in my head! I am going to keep on saying that!
 
^exactly
ffs mate, u did the E 2 and a half weeks ago!
give ur brain credit - itll recover if u give it a chance!
 
I have insane head pressure everyday 24/7. I had a horrid trip 2 months ago. Its almost impossible to sleep cause i see colors when i close my eyes. Honestly i wish it would all end.
No im not happy with my life. I fucked up and now i dont know if i will ever be the same that i was.
 
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No, not at the moment. I just quit my part-time job in hopes of figuring some things out with the extra time I have. There's hope that my current maligned state has to do primarily with mixed-up priorities and preexistent anxiety, rather than a chemical imbalance.
 
^I am just so beside myself. I lost a best friend to an overdose just days ago. I do not even know why he was taken from me like that, what lesson did I need. I mean, I had lost my husband that way in 1998 by the same thing. Fucking drugs, I hate them. I guess everything happens for a reason, and you never knew Joe, like my ranting like this is probably something weird to read. I just loved everything about him, and we completely connected. It is so hard to imagine not talking to him or hanging out with him being ourselves. I dunno, to keep going is all I know. I have never feared death, but after my daughters, I do, but only for their sake. I wanted it to work out this time, and I lost him forever. Just know Getyagun, that you can get a lawyer, and at least you are alive. Take this as it comes as you can. That is all we can do, living is our only gift. We can make it anyway we want, even if they take our freedom. Fuck it, take that time to meditate on how you will come up when you return. At least you are able to make your fate the best you can. I do not want to be one of the ones who gave up. I hope you will be okay in this. Keep us updated?
 
am i happy with my life? i wake up everyday having to deal with the fact that i'm a loser with a big ugly face that's as dumb as a butt which is why i'm lonely and getting kicked out of school. i grew up a loner with low self esteem my entire life giving me a TON of insecurities which is part of the reason why i can't really connect with people or find a girlfriend. i can't find a job cause i almost always fail miserably at interviews and i'm almost completely broke and not really sure i'd be able to pay rent next month and i just got a parking ticket today and yesterday at two different locations. i have absolutely no creativity whatsoever and am absolutely lost in life. no skills in anything, i fail at everything i try. i'm bearing the weight of having to succeed seeing as though i am the "goldenchild" of my economically disabled family so i basically don't have much to fall back on like many. i am as smart as a cucumber, no wait scratch that i wouldn't want to insult the cucumber like that. i'm slowly killing myself with cigarettes cause i'm too much of a pussy to do it in any other immediate way. i'd keep going but who cares right? so am i happy with my life? yes/no. yes because i know when i die none of this will matter and i won't be missed just another nameless, faceless meatbag and no because i'm not dead yet.
 
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