its been since march 17th since i've used opioids but i still get the cravings to use again. boredom is a real struggle for me
The boredom was one of the worst aspects for me when I first got clean. It makes sense. While I was using, I could sit there and stare at a wall and not be bored, cause I was feeling so good. All of a sudden, no more drugs in my system, and I was left to my own devices to try and fill that hollow, blank emptiness.
I needed to find another "cause", to replace my opiate obsession. I started a new job at about 35 days clean, and that helped immensely. It gave me something positive to do; I was feeling great about the money I was making, and meeting new people, learning new things, etc., went a long ways in helping keep my mind occupied.
My main saving grace, however, was the presidential campaign, of all things. I got clean in August, so by the time the worst of the physical symptoms had abated, it was in full swing. Looking at the poll numbers every day, watching the debates, following the twists and turns, etc., gave me something interesting to focus upon. It was like being on a natural "high", adreniline rushes and all. Combined with working my new job, I suddenly found myself busier, happier, more content than I had felt in years. To this day, I will always thank John McCain and Barack Obama for providing me with a new focus just when I needed it, lol.
You need to hang in there, bide your time, and when you are feeling better, you also will find something in life to keep your mind interested. Something real.
I am praying that those trying to get clean right now will make it with a minimum of suffering. Trust me, I have all the empathy in the world for y'all. It's hell on earth, and nobody who has not BTDT could ever possibly understand.
