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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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Lol, I subscribed to a YT channel around a year ago which basically only uploads videos of an automated voice re-narrating trip-reports from Erowid and adding some low quality psychedelic background. Today I clicked on one of the newest videos because the drug combination sounded really interesting, and look who it is, our boy @Cream Gravy?! What a legend.

 
Sorry I moaned like a silly twit earlier. Something posesses me I swear at times.

Always when I'm having an acute panic attack and I lose all sight of things.

Because that wasn't really me that was speaking earlier today. It still isn't.

I managed to calm myself down well and get my wits back a little bit earlier but was crashing hard energy wise and is not ready to go into a deep restful sleep at that time of the day Sunday with so much going on around me.

I can't handle the abruptness of the comedowns. I have experimented a few times with some form of tapering which has actually helped in recent weeks strangely.

You would think it would prolong things which is shared on paper but it actually helps me float down a little more gently and not so harshly.

So I resorted. Only 250 µg earlier on but it did save me from a 24 hour sleep and then some more probably which will be coming when I'm ready.

Sorry for going on like a twat everyone. There is an enormous amount of positive spirit in this thread here particularly and really nobody here is disingenuous at all.

Actually a very mature bunch have frequented this particular thread (and the "other one" lol).

So of all places I would make such a measly moan I can't imagine why my twisted head in that moment shows to do so here, of all places.

In that light I am embarrassed for that. Everybody I can recall seeing post HERE, have interacted with, has been totally chill.

Genuine respect to each of you. Just keeping my head high now. It's still been in a ditch all day. I feel almost in the moment of life again, just. Definitely tripping too. I was not levelling out for a week already but it's that dizzyness & concussion, icky jet lag feeling I don't manage.

Tomorrow, won't be the same type of crash. It did work the other times.

So I'm officially tapering down from LSD because it is affectively intense withdrawls just of a different nature maybe. Psychologically torturous though and physical as well.

Hair of the dog, seems to work.

So, You guys have helped me many times. Individually and therefore collectively overtime as well as in unison.

So has BL. I will be mindful not to speak negatively and cursingly about this website again.

I do feel it can be potentially mentally and emotionally dangerous though but I'm such an unpredictable playground with so many unseens. And I am forever placing myself vulnerablly, fully exposed all angles and my nerves feel it here.

There are people around who aren't very sensitive or understanding always.

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday's dudes.
 
Wow I've never heard anyone claim withdrawals from LSD. I wonder if it's because you're having to deal with so much right now and not able to put yourself into a place more removed from your immediate situation? Best of luck, man. I know kava will be your friend. :)

Psychestim said:
Lol, I subscribed to a YT channel around a year ago which basically only uploads videos of an automated voice re-narrating trip-reports from Erowid and adding some low quality psychedelic background. Today I clicked on one of the newest videos because the drug combination sounded really interesting, and look who it is, our boy @Cream Gravy?! What a legend.

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Nice, what an honor. :) Bet CG will be pleased to see this.

There's one of them doing my first low-dose DOPr trip report. I thought it was an interesting choice because it's very minimal and academic, time stamp notes pretty much only. and analysis at the end. Would have been way more interesting to read my second DOPr trip report. 😁
 
Xorkoth said:
There's one of them doing my first low-dose DOPr trip report. I thought it was an interesting choice because it's very minimal and academic, time stamp notes pretty much only. and analysis at the end. Would have been way more interesting to read my second DOPr trip report. 😁
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Haha currently listening to it. That's hilarious
 
Xorkoth said:
Wow I've never heard anyone claim withdrawals from LSD. I wonder if it's because you're having to deal with so much right now and not able to put yourself into a place more removed from your immediate situation? Best of luck, man. I know kava will be your friend. :)
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Cheers man. Yes kava is a godsend. In addition to the general program it does work to simply put my mind at rest into a state of peace and attachment on a daily basis at a better times.

When I say withdrawals, I think there is definitely something to it.

More than anything is the heaviness and frequency of the use without recuperating between without actually getting my feet anywhere near back on the ground.

It's way worse than any level of MDMA abuse blues.

Even at 200 ug, you can feel a bit off the following day. So 7.5-10 x that and more regularly is the reason.

But yes all factors are involved always. Thanks again for always caring man hope your Sunday night is peaceful. Before I imagine another pretty full on hectic working week exciting all the same.
 
feels better to just let go, my heart is totally fucked from the vaccine, after my second shot i been in alot of pain and it fueled so much hate in me becaseu i believed in science these chemists indoricated me my whole academic career.

And i was just about to go unleash hell on every socalist out there it would of been a blood bath if xoroth didnt put up his kind messages.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
feels better to just let go, my heart is totally fucked from the vaccine, after my second shot i been in alot of pain and it fueled so much hate in me becaseu i believed in science these chemists indoricated me my whole academic career.

And i was just about to go unleash hell on every socalist out there it would of been a blood bath if xoroth didnt put up his kind messages.
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I tried to help a little bit too. But I'm in too much of a position to really be any help atm.

Xorkoth is your man for wise, considerate, compassionate words.

Just really glad You are feeling calmer about the situation now and looking forward again.

I've definitely settled myself as well today but I know it's always a daily event starting out at the extreme bottom end again but somehow finding some peace each day.

Mega wasted though for sure.
 
yup autotripper you helped me alot. I was about to kick off a fulll on shit man i was so fu cking mad. now i am less mad. I need to start cleaning up my place i move this weekend.

i got so caught up in this illusionary world i lost sight of the truths i knew.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
yup autotripper you helped me alot. I was about to kick off a fulll on shit man i was so fu cking mad. now i am less mad. I need to start cleaning up my place i move this weekend.

i got so caught up in this illusionary world i lost sight of the truths i knew.
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I do that myself temporarily lose sight of the big picture and go by my own admission a little schiz even.

So much pressure though you have been under. No wonder. It's unfair too. Okay, aged 25 myself the shit really began for me.

But I have decades of positive memories to look back on since then.

It still seemed to be a comparatively bright world with opportunity which young people today ate being denied.

That's also may be quite timely cleaning up your place can be part of the mental preparation cleaning up your recent jumbled stressed out mindset and leaving it behind.

I really want to do this myself now and try to move in new positive directions but I will need some sort of interventions some outside assistance, To overcome some seriously heavy nerve conditioning and sensitisation for a start. Trauma.

You have helped me regain the will I had for once ever lost last week @tripsitter (lol, just trying to teach my A.I. tablet predictive "TripSitter".

Takes 3 times usually in succession, without an @.

TripSitter okay, It almost had it there except it had a small S in the middle and I'm deliberately trying to teach it- 2 Capitals here (Alexa, bitch 😉).

Try again.. TripSitter (no) TripSitter (NO!) TripSitter(No??) small t =tripsitter or if I start off with a capital T= Tripsitter.

Funny cos it learnt AutoTripper lol, two capitals now problem. 😀
 
SunriseChampion said:
I've been sitting on about 100mg of DMT a mate gave me like a year ago. Waiting for who-knows-what. Kinda scared to try it, I think.
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Yeah, I definitely get some anxiety when I'm about to do it. It's worth it though. Once you get into it the fear melts away.
 
deficiT said:
Yeah, I definitely get some anxiety when I'm about to do it. It's worth it though. Once you get into it the fear melts away.
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I'm at the point where I get some anxiety during mushroom trips and this has made me scared of doing most drugs. It's probably caused by my alcohol use though....so I should try a detox on that and give it a go.
 
deficiT said:
Got a gram of DMT about to be here :) so excited!!! Has been way too long since I've blasted off. Definitely looking forward to it.
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Now, don't take this or if possible by trust in there only ever being solid good intention behind my words and observations...

But the time I have been here, not long nearly 3 yrs tho, now I am a feeling, intuitive person.

What immediately pops to mind is usually what I run with which is why evidence is a slight bugbear to me in life. 🙂

So, right out with it as I am pretty wasted nicely though add some really nice Kava, Fiji & Vanuatu, oh plus Tongan lol.

Directly, not articulated- first, when I even see or saw you earlier posting here I was like cool this man's interested in chipping in a bright word here as well.

Because it seemed a little incongruous with what I've experienced generally since being here with different people and tendencies to be drawn into particular threads or not I mean.

Now, You're talking about DMT lol.

Enjoy that mate. There is no need in my opinion to feel shame or guilt or wrong about using these clean natural psychedelics I just go that stretch far, (I won't say too).

But it's not even a guilty pleasure I've always tried to address this stigma when used moderately these medicines of the mines are incredible tools and so powerfully therapeutic potentially but generally for the most part anyway.

So I hope I have hung around the place to follow your new DMT habit and daily posts here lol, showing increasing signs of looning until you know how it works, some dumbass git member says in a no-man's land thread "I think DeficiT should no longer be mod!" 😉

Okay. Ignore below. I just want to test this now because I've noticed it's another case of two Capital letters, so...

Deficit (it- no but..)

DeficiT (me)

DeficiT me again

DeficiT DeficiT DeficiT DeficiT "Deficit" it is!

But still, AutoTripper perfect? Lol. 😀 Just distracting, amusing myself. It helps. I'm still on quite a trip and kava has been lovely today with weed.
 
Psychestim said:
Lol, I subscribed to a YT channel around a year ago which basically only uploads videos of an automated voice re-narrating trip-reports from Erowid and adding some low quality psychedelic background. Today I clicked on one of the newest videos because the drug combination sounded really interesting, and look who it is, our boy @Cream Gravy?! What a legend.

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God, that was a long time ago now :rolleyes:
 
SunriseChampion said:
I've been sitting on about 100mg of DMT a mate gave me like a year ago. Waiting for who-knows-what. Kinda scared to try it, I think.
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That's understandable apprehension at something unpredictable it's like the school playground on the first day there is naturally fear but also excitement and I have learnt that focusing on that excitement and building that can basically be such a steadying stone to walk into any psychedelic experience.

Now I've never actually taken DMT myself and allergies would likely prohibit me these days but I may depending on things to come. I would encourage you though to look forward to it and trust that you just might be surprised that it's nothing to be afraid of and quite the opposite is the impression I've gathered of it so far from the outside.
 
I have just been contemplating and still integrating with the help of some cannabis just now, It occurred to me on reflection from the angle of having a natural interest in human psychology which I did study at university simply because it was interesting and second nature to me at the time....

I think it's possible that I recently experienced some type of psychosis without really being aware of it because I feel like suddenly I've largely snapped out of it.

Despite having gone full circle. I think it's possible though when I reflect on everything for weeks or months maybe my behaviour at home and online as well.

Just typing that out now because it struck me so powerfully in that visionary moment just then.
 
It did help. I had zero craving for LSD today. No need. But I hate those rapid descents, too fatigued for life, too hammered to be dozing for days.

250 Mics is actually like a 250 Mic trip. Very pleasant. It had a comeup to peak phase harder to watch, but it's replaced the 1500 level trip yesterday.

Because otherwise, here I was assured a dark day no energy, switched off.

Tomorrow will be an easier mental adjustment. Now to me, this is HR. I was still knocked out all afternoon but came around, comfortable relaxed, some energy decent mood.

Not crashed, miserable. And I have a better chance in fact a very good one of not having a day like that tomorrow.

I will see anyway because I'm still learning about using Boces this way to titrate down from the level of a trip.

To me it makes a lot of sense like I would all of you against the arguments that's more it's just a bad thing because it still a tool and stepping stone.

Final word that is no way attempt to justify because you know me guys I just do it myself and I simply report.

Thank you all for at least believing my word here anyway because one in particular not here really choked on it.

It's nice to be believed when you are as honest and then straight as people and possibly be in life.
 
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