I've decided to try and get a formal diagnosis of some kind of adult ADD also... I'm gonna be as blunt as possible, I am seeking drugs, without obviously saying that. I am already on an SSRI for mental health reasons though I'm very very dubious how much good it's actually doing so I figure having crossed that line why not try for another formal recognition of a suspected self diagnosis that I'm always trying to self medicate out of me... I dont plan it to be forever, just until I finish unstressing my life a bit. And somehow I feel having a medical record of having sought treatment for mental health issues might be of some benefit further down the line in terms of what legally sanctioned options might be available or, god forbid, if shit ever does hit the fan
like yesterday when I honestly considered calling an ambulance for 7 or 8 hours while condoning and thinking I might have given myself serotonin syndrome taking DCK on top of an SSRI... although just as likely it was some kind of anxiety attack. Anyway so just waiting for my callback...
On that Raman Spectroscopy thing, I haven't heard of that and am gonna have to look it up but these ultra-high sensitivity detection devices are scary shit. They are remarkable technologies of course, but sadly in the current world it makes things harder for honest drug users. I was once randomly stopped at the border on the way back from a certain country I won't name for fear of, I dunno, a future dystopian enforcement team hunting me down, for a random bag search, I had nothing on me but had been indulging in a little cocaine with an friend of mine. The guy used one of those ultra high sensitivity Ionscan Mobile spectrometers, wiped my bag or something with one of those little swabs, took it to the machine which immediately started beeping loadly and alarmingly. He asked if I'd been using cocaine or had any on me and obviously I wasn't gonna admit anything to an officer of the state but I said well maybe I was in an environment where people were doing coke, y'know I went out, it must be a really low reading and he told me no it was actually quite high but then just rolled his eyes and motioned for me to go. Fucking scary shit and I dread to think what would have happened were I entering a country with seriously barbaric substance laws like anywhere in wealthy Arabia, for example. In fact it puts me off going to any of these places ever... if I did I'd probably buy a whole new set of clothes and luggage carriers before going, keep them isolated and wear latex gloves while packing...
I don't know why if I just looked shifty or anything but something similar happened again when I was visiting a friend in another country which I also won't name but mercifully is in a fairly liberal part of the world. This time I was again selected for a random bag search, the lady this time was less military looking, more talkative and less hostile and again I had nothing on me, hadn't been doing anything in a while either but fuck knows what residue could have been picked up... I could see she also had one of those fucking Ion Scanners sitting in the corner of the room and was praying she didn't decide to give something a swab and go fire it up... but she didn't and just let me pack my stuff up and get on my way.
Apparently they have some kind of log of how often people get checked so they're not seen to be singling people out (at least, that's what she said - maybe more likely they have this list so they know who to fucking check). But, yeah, these things are so sensitive. Too sensitive really because it's conceivable you could brush up against someone who's been sweating out cocaine (for example) and get positively flagged. I think that's usually taken into account and a positive test on the scanner is not sufficient for conviction and detainment... at least in the fairly liberal parts of the globe I spend most of my time... but they could be grounds for temporary detainment, stripsearch, and just major fucking hassle overall... scary stuff. Hopefully human culture (read - sensible drug policy, full legalisation, ideally) advances faster than these dystopian methods to sniff out absurdly tiny quantities of even more absurdly illegal molecules.