Bella Figura
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Jun 5, 2003
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Thanks dude, I know I was messing with fire, thankfully no habit so no withdrawals, and didn't IV this time so there's that...
Not so good, had a roommate use my past against me and file involuntary commitment paperwork in lieu of evicting me legally. Was prescribed latuda. It helped my depression a bit but seems a dangerous med to mess with. I am returning to my normal regimen of benzos twice or four times a month and occasionally pregabalin and kratom. Today had 60mg diazepam and 750mg pregabalin, as well as 750mg oral delta 8 thc. considering some kratom in the next few hours.
For some reason I just took about 200mg propylhexedrine with kava and chamomile and green tea. Had a small amount of kratom. Heard someone died combining kratom and propylhexsdrine but my dosage was low. If I die just know I love all of you
I’ve felt that so many times. It’s weird hey. It always eventually crashes though.I’m starting to think that the fact that I’m feeling so happy and carefree is a worrying sign than I’m more fucked up than I think. Clearly if I’m feeling good about my life right now I’m delusional. But it beats being depressed.
Might be starting to crash now i think. I smoked right up to 10 PM last night amd then knocked myself out for 8 hours and woke up so tired and fuzzy headed. Smoking a good couple of points left me feeling drowsy but unable to sleep.I’ve felt that so many times. It’s weird hey. It always eventually crashes though.
nice thats good to hear, music almost always helps, ( unless its opposition to your taste) i always have headphones at work, they play country/ pop i cant handle it ( antagonists) my depressionAaaaaand I’m at work and I’m good.
got a good coffee and a fresh juice to hydrate.
Girls have been playing music in the morning so that helps, and decorating this pathetic stick on Christmas tree we have that we stuck on the tent. Someone decorated it spastically so I fixed it a little.
back in contact with my abusive fuckbuddy... I’m sure I will regret this but I was feeling weak, I kinda wanna murder my ex at the moment. Also signed up to Bumble again... lifted the age limit to 40. Got a nice one going.
it’s also good the tent is right next to a dog park and there’s a very hyper vigilant German Shepard in there, so adorable barking at everyone.
.... I really should not have snorted that bup yesterday.
Probably only feeling better now because I took the other half of my pregabalin before I left because the withdrawal was bad. I’m going to have to ask for a lower dose to cut down on.....
Got a friend leaving Sydney to live in the country this weekend so invited him over tonight. Hope I feel up to it. I’d feel like a bad friend not saying goodbye.
nice thats good to hear, music almost always helps, ( unless its opposition to your taste) i always have headphones at work, they play country/ pop i cant handle it ( antagonists) my depression
what kinda work do u do
hellyeah, frontline....Luckily I can handle Christmas songs and most genres except some like jazz and country, so it’s good. My soul is soothes by metal though- I don’t think they’d let me play that!
im a nurse. Been helping the frontline at a COVID swabbing clinic waiting for a new home ward and just today got told I’ll be transferring to neurology at some point!!!!! I’m absolutely ecstatic to just get a ward again I don’t even care what it is. So that’s my other good news today!!
DID I MENTION TGIF
My mania calmed down to a depressive hypomania. And I am stepping down as an mod, my behavior is hurting the subforum that I moderate so theres no other way. Need to get my irl together too since Ive been living on BL for a long time.
Im sorry
my behavior is hurting the subforum that I moderate.
Need to get my irl together too.
do whatever you need to for your own wellbeing man - there's never any need to apologise for that eitherMy mania calmed down to a depressive hypomania. And I am stepping down as an mod, my behavior is hurting the subforum that I moderate so theres no other way. Need to get my irl together too since Ive been living on BL for a long time.
Im sorry
at least you CAN post. what kind of phone app. do you use almighty one ?My mania calmed down to a depressive hypomania. And I am stepping down as an mod, my behavior is hurting the subforum that I moderate so theres no other way. Need to get my irl together too since Ive been living on BL for a long time.
Im sorry