Did you find the Sulfate to be easy on the stomach I may pick up some of that eventually to test out also?
I never had any trouble with tianeptine sulphate although I don't have major stomach issues, and obviously also I'm using lower doses. Fortunately, if anything I find tianeptine to be somewhat settling on the stomach, presumably due to the standard opiate digestive slowing. I did find Phenibut HCl to start causing some stomach irritation, inflammation, bloating, that sort of thing, which FAA doesn't for me, which is kind of surprising given FAA presumably should become HCl pretty quickly in the stomach and the extra acidity should be minor enough, I would think, that HCl would not cause major issues either, but I do see reports of stomach problems with the HCl pretty often.
Actually Phenibut in general is rarely the same as it once was for me now, I'm not sure why, maybe just burnt out the receptor pathways that Phenibut acts on, which I understand are not, in fact, from direct GABA activity which is often assumed but moreso to do with voltage gating in some channel or other, can't remember the specifics, someone please remind me if you can.
I'm trying to not hit my vape. I keep thinking about it, but yesterday I realized I just feel way worse every time I use nicotine than I did before.
Yeah man, I identify with this, nicotine is another substance I seem to have burnt my good times with, pretty often nowadays I don't feel good after vaping except perhaps those first few hits after a prolonged abstinence... still keep going back to it occasionally though. Took up vaping for 2 days at a time twice in the last few weeks looking for something I didn't find but quickly just chucked my vape liquids and resolved to try to stop doing a drug that's really addictive and I hardly even enjoy most of the time... I've literally taken up and quit nicotine probably hundreds of times by now, the feeling is almost pretty blase by now, although for sure the days after a heavy vape indulgence are pretty grimy.
On topic - bit unsettled recently, definitely overdoing something. Today:
250mg armodafinil
100mg esmodafinil
150mg Phenylpiracetam + 250mg Choline
3mg etizolam over the course of the day.
Etizolam is feeling a lot nicer again without combining with piracetam. I do think piracetam was the culprit in my previous few disappointing escapades. Racetams don't seem to combine well with benzos - phenylpiracetam, seemingly, being something of an exception. I guess it makes sense given they are somewhat functionally opposite in action, piracetam potentiates alcohol for sure and makes it more lucid and also more messy, but benzos I think are just too selective such that the fun parts are cancelled out and there's not much left except sedation.
Tried to abstain from caffeine the last few days but relented today with a coffee and 200mg caffeine tablet a few hours later. Couldn't handle it.
Oh, also smoked 2 cigarettes today.... urghurghurgh, gross. Back in the lockbox I think.
Got some kratom coming soon so gonna take a long break from benzos after that, I'm sure I'm still in relatively safe territory but this is an unusually long stretch of indulgence for me... looking for something I'm not finding for sure. Probably way overdue for a good strong psychedelic trip to clean my brain out.
LSD or some kind of tryptamine would probably be my go-tos, although I find the latter a bit better for cobweb clearing, so to speak, but I also find them a bit scarier. I'm a bit wary of all psychedelics really even though they're my favourite drugs. I also do find them to be a pretty big commitment and I always seem to be stressed out recently about work shit or something. Might just take an impromptu week off to get some good tripping in soon...
) So I guess I'll just have to try and relish these last few moments as best as I can.
