How 2C-E Changed me mentally at 30mg
2C-E Is defiantly a gem for me from all the psychedelic substances I've tried. I've come to this conclusion only last night, it had been my 7th time I have had 2-CE and the 4th time of a 30mg dosage.
I have had many interesting experiences on this substance good and bad....however those that were bad I find hard to actually say they were bad experiences as I have always managed to learn and grow from them, even know they were the most terrifying times I've ever experienced whilst on them.
The first 2 times I tried this drug were at a 15mg dosage and were wonderful experiences, however this was at a time I was knew to psychedelics and only had a view of "recreational fun" as now I'am learning to appreciate the mind altering state and the beauty that is shown to me. The second time was between 25mg - 30mg dosage only a few hours after ingesting shrooms at a 2 day doof. That also being said it was the first time I had experienced the most terrifying time of my life mentally. I had experienced extreme cases of paranoia, anxiety and got caught in many time diluted loops where everything was repeated, my sister has schizophrenia and I believe that I started getting symptoms worse than she had ever had and I would never be sane again. (12 Hours later I was fine)
For me after that experience I believe that should of been enough for me to say "no" to he drug or at least lower the dosage.. as it's not for me. However after that experience I learned something about myself and I understood my sister in a new way. I wanted to gain the mental control to come out of these bad experiences if they happen again, and having the close friends that I do, I was aware that I had the support if the trip went wrong. Between then and now I have had some amazing times on 2C-E, however to explain these experiences it would be like explaining to a blind person who was born blind what it's like to see.
It's been a 30mg dosage each time after my experience at the doof, I have had 3 incredible terrifying expereiences on psychedelics similar to the one at the doof. However they were from consuming other psychedelics: Shrooms (Tea divided between 3 people, then 30 mins later eating 15, was perfectly fine and loving the trip, 7-8 hours later I ate another 15 and everything went bad.) 28mg of 2C-I (Liquid) also effected me pretty bad, it was also interesting as the drug did not seem to take effect until many hours later, I had not eaten much and was pretty sleep deprived, I was in a nightclub when the drug took effect.
Each time I have had a bad experience I knew that this was my opportunity to train my mind and learn what causes this mental instability and insecurity, I believe I have succeeded as the last 3 times I have done 2C-E (30mg) and things seems to go into dark areas... I have been able to come to light and enjoy the trip.
The drug has made me see evil, talk absolutely nonsense, nausea, paranoia, anxiety..... however keeping my mind active constantly, being around the right people, right vibes and energy I don't have a problem though if I do...I can bring myself to a comfortable place in my mind. I sometimes think back to my first bad experience at the doof....and kick myself a little bit as I believe from what I have learnt in the past 5 months I would know how to get out of that bad little trip in my mind. However if I never experienced that... I would not understand my sister the way I do now nor would I have the knowledge I have now...so I can almost say I'm thankful for those bad trips.... I've grown to appreciate the drug and the beauty it does.
I will one day write up some of my trip reports, the good and bad. Thanks for reading, if anyone has any questions or advice or would like to know more about me such as other drugs I've tried feel free to ask / say.
TIPS for Coming out of BAD Trips:
-Keep the mind active, if you find yourself dwelling on something that's making you feel bad...do something that will change your mind to a positive, otherwise you may go down the rabbit hole of negative thoughts, I've been there and it's not fun.
-Music is good, however if your going into a bad loop, listen to the beats of the music... and if it has a repetitive beat that doesn't seem to change much that can make the loop worse. So change it to a different style.. I prefer psy ambient that has some wobble or glitch. Outdoors I like the environmental psy ambient.
-People, I find it hard to communicate to people that are not tripping especially those I don't know...and can usually cause me to trip bad. Stick with those that are tripping, or inform a close friend that your having a bad trip.
-Also inform yourself that it's only the chemical in your system and it will go away.... that was hard for me.. as I always thought it would never stop and I would be like this for ever.
-Never take 2C-E if you haven't eaten for a couple days and are sleep deprived, the substance can cause nerve damage especially if there is no fat around the nerves. (I don't necessarily believe this, just something I was informed as a possibility) A close mate went into hospital from only 15mg of 2C-E as he could know longer feel his body, tell if he was hot or cold. Even hear his breathing. They had to find out what the drug was and neutralize it. He was completely numb on the left side of his body for 2 days and the doctors said it could be permanent before he left.
Feel Free to add TIPS!