personally, I am getting tired of reading this guys posts, he comes off as bragging about his severe addiction, and really only comes off as trying to get attention. Which is basically as bad as his addiction.
Here is how I personally feel, and If I'm wrong please correct me,
when you actually lose control of your life, there is a serious problem and when you KNOW you have lost control........and STILL don't try....or don't CARE there is an even bigger problem. By this point there is no help for you, not that mr M even cares.
Another thing that should throw up a flag is the fact that you're PAWNING stuff, when you start pawning your shit to buy drugs, there is a serious problem my brother. After a while what is going to happen is, you're going to run out of shit to pawn, because your room will have nothing valuable in it. This will lead to you stealing from your parents to fund your ADDICTION.
another red flag should be the fact that this dude you're hanging out with is pawning shit to fund his habit, now whats to stop him from breaking into your house and stealing your nice ass stereo and pawning it for more meth?
I know you don't care, and honestly I don't give a fuck about you, so if you don't want to listen to what we have to say, FUCK YOU, go kill your dumbass, it's obvious you KNOW you have a SERIOUS ADDICTION, and you DON'T CARE. so man, why should we give a damn about you?
honestly man, if you don't listen to us, I hope you fucking die. What we're giving you is the TRUTH. and if you aren't fucking MAN ENOUGH to listen to us, FUCK YOU.
now listen, you KNOW you have a problem, and you KNOW it's only going to get worse, now you either become man enough to take control of this problem, or instead of spending money buying an 8 ball you go and buy a gun and blow your fucking brains out man, because you're not doing NOTHING but wasting everyones time, including your own.
now if you're not man enough to listen to that, and fight back against your ADDICTION, just keep on. I have family that had the same problem you have,
do you know where he is?
he's paralyzed, he pawned every goddamn thing he owned until his kids nearly starved to fucking death because he was spending all of his money on meth and rock. Eventually my dad had to FORCE him to hand over my cousin because she was nearly dead.
After that he started stealing from various family members, he stole my goddamn grandmother and grandfathers wedding bands, and pawned them. My grandfather died without one of the most important things to him.
After he stole everything they owned basically, he decided he would steal from one our neighbors, he knew the neighbor was a crazy mother fucker, but the damn meth had his mind fucked up.
he went over there and stole the neighbors TV, The neighbor came to our house and told my uncle if he ever did it again he would kill him
did that mean anything to that spun out son of a bitch, hell fucking no it didn't.....he tried it again the next week
now you see why he's paralyzed. He walked into the house, the neighbor was there, the neighbor put a the lower part of his spine
POW, my goddamn uncle is sitting in a wheel chair right now, for ONE reason.... mother fucking Methamphetamine.
was it worth it? You tell me. He is 35 years old, People ask my dad if he is my dads older brother. My dad is 53.
if you don't want to listen to it, do what I said earlier. Because I fucking guarentee you you will go that same route, you WILL start stealing to fund your habit, and you WILL meet the wrong person, or you WILL end up in jail.
and a 120 pound dried up meth addict will NOT make it in a state prison
THAT IS THE TRUTH