you're sooooo high right now and want to share? post here
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paradoxcycle
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mrsumone said:
Stop being a prick. Yes, he has a problem, but being nasty and calling him names is not going to help him. He needs to realize on his own that he needs help. We are ALL worried about him and I think it's pointless to berate him for something he obviously cannot control.
TrickyGirl
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I am sitting here like a dumbass spending money I dont have on the net sucking on a pacifier looking cute but being a dork by doing this action but owell I am alone in my big ass room that use to be the garage damn I need to get my own place so I can tweak out and clean this whole house really quickly cause it is quite dirrty well not really but damn it would be so much fun right now shit I am high to be thinking about cleaning CLEAR sign right there lol o well until then laterz.....8)
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Ps, why am I sucking on a pacifier because I can MOFO.....
I am sitting here like a dumbass spending money I dont have on the net sucking on a pacifier looking cute but being a dork by doing this action but owell I am alone in my big ass room that use to be the garage damn I need to get my own place so I can tweak out and clean this whole house really quickly cause it is quite dirrty well not really but damn it would be so much fun right now shit I am high to be thinking about cleaning CLEAR sign right there lol o well until then laterz.....8)
8) Ps, why am I sucking on a pacifier because I can MOFO.....
Hmmmm....I did not forsee this....I am also twacked....and it does seem to work on me a little bit. But I digress, this shall be the first and last time I get truly tweaked, for I am going to hide the remaining ammount from myself so that if I crave it I shall not be able to find it. There's alot left....now to blindfold myself and stash it somewhere in the house in the dark....Good thing I prefer depressants to stimulants, and in case I stay up for 3 days I've got my comedown kit (weed, beer, xanax) *sighs* chinese dinosaurs....with shotguns.....Fuck this, I'm going back to sleep like I was already...stims can't keep me up no matter how strong they are. I'm rollin up a fatty as I write this, but I'm not sure how long I'm gonna be sleepin...... 
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8( 8) I think I'm gonna go skate, or play my bass....gotta do somethin cuz this saturday night is boring
8( 8) I think I'm gonna go skate, or play my bass....gotta do somethin cuz this saturday night is boring
TrickyGirl
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I am fucked up and have started to wonder why its is that I can always find a party to go to and stuff to do during the week but not on the weekends thats a little fucked I generally do most of my partying during the week huh thats wierd to me for some reason and makes no sense whatsoever shit I hate that I wanna go party but I am stuck at home on the damn computer wondering why it is that I do the shit I do when I do it fuck it laterz.....
I am fucked up and have started to wonder why its is that I can always find a party to go to and stuff to do during the week but not on the weekends thats a little fucked I generally do most of my partying during the week huh thats wierd to me for some reason and makes no sense whatsoever shit I hate that I wanna go party but I am stuck at home on the damn computer wondering why it is that I do the shit I do when I do it fuck it laterz.....
Synapse999
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Re: .........
Thursday is the new friday......
Monday is the new sunday?
I hear ya. But, think about it.
You can always find a party during the week, but not on the weekends.
This would mean tons of people in your area are the same way.
Therefore, does make sense
Everyone is sitting home alone on the weekends lol.
Its kinda good that way, safer, Less trouble, less police waiting for you everywhere.
Its that way here too, Weekends suck....sit here..bored....consuming massive amounts of dexedrine & xanax.
Don't really think i should post how much of what i took tonight, But i didn't break the original topic trust me. I'm here and over there at same time ;p
Also sitting at the pc, wondering why is it i do the shit i do when i doit.errr whatever quote was. heh..
TrickyGirl said:I am fucked up and have started to wonder why its is that I can always find a party to go to and stuff to do during the week but not on the weekends thats a little fucked I generally do most of my partying during the week huh thats wierd to me for some reason and makes no sense whatsoever shit I hate that I wanna go party but I am stuck at home on the damn computer wondering why it is that I do the shit I do when I do it fuck it laterz.....
Thursday is the new friday......
Monday is the new sunday?
I hear ya. But, think about it.
You can always find a party during the week, but not on the weekends.
This would mean tons of people in your area are the same way.
Therefore, does make sense
Everyone is sitting home alone on the weekends lol.
Its kinda good that way, safer, Less trouble, less police waiting for you everywhere.
Its that way here too, Weekends suck....sit here..bored....consuming massive amounts of dexedrine & xanax.
Don't really think i should post how much of what i took tonight, But i didn't break the original topic trust me. I'm here and over there at same time ;p
Also sitting at the pc, wondering why is it i do the shit i do when i doit.errr whatever quote was. heh..
Ninjetic, with the amounts he takes, im sure he has experienced a crash or two.
Well many people here have tried many different ways to help him and it didnt work so dont bitch at me for saying hes stupid for what hes doing, when, IMO, he is.
If you knew that you have an addiction to amphetamine (which he has been in the upper 200mg's if not 300mg's), would you start doing methamphetamine, one that is much much worse for you? Not to mention that he just recently tried coke also and seemed to love it... and he now has a readily-available supply of meth and coke, and said that he gets the coke for cheap...
I do worry about him also, which may be a reason why i responded like i did. He has gone from normal, recreational use of Adderall.. to straight up binging for days on dosages that are, more than likely, tearing his insides apart... I feel bad for him.. but that does not change the fact that i think what he is doing is stupid.
paradoxcycle said:
Well many people here have tried many different ways to help him and it didnt work so dont bitch at me for saying hes stupid for what hes doing, when, IMO, he is.
If you knew that you have an addiction to amphetamine (which he has been in the upper 200mg's if not 300mg's), would you start doing methamphetamine, one that is much much worse for you? Not to mention that he just recently tried coke also and seemed to love it... and he now has a readily-available supply of meth and coke, and said that he gets the coke for cheap...
I do worry about him also, which may be a reason why i responded like i did. He has gone from normal, recreational use of Adderall.. to straight up binging for days on dosages that are, more than likely, tearing his insides apart... I feel bad for him.. but that does not change the fact that i think what he is doing is stupid.
Yeah, but I take my aderall at about 6 in the morning. It will still be working around 2am when I don't need it too. I only need the shit to keep me awake and paying attention in class, otherwise I wouldn't be perscribed to it in the first place. I don't snort it anyway, I take it in capsule form with a glass of water after breakfast.
TrickyGirl
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My head is spinning and I left my a little of stash out on my bed and my mom has been in my rooms a few times I hope to hell she didnt notice the little baggie I dont think she did but now I am paranoid like a mofo sheesh she wouldnt say anything if she did but she would be really dissapointed in me cause I have supposed to have been clean for 4 months and I was but damn I cant belive I just left it laying on my bed like that sheesh I must have been high and I didnt notice till I went to redose and couldnt find it oh noooo I hope she didnt I am so screwed damn and did I mention damn but I am high again so I am not going to worry about it for now or least I will try not too sorry this is so long.......but GEEZE!!!!8(
My head is spinning and I left my a little of stash out on my bed and my mom has been in my rooms a few times I hope to hell she didnt notice the little baggie I dont think she did but now I am paranoid like a mofo sheesh she wouldnt say anything if she did but she would be really dissapointed in me cause I have supposed to have been clean for 4 months and I was but damn I cant belive I just left it laying on my bed like that sheesh I must have been high and I didnt notice till I went to redose and couldnt find it oh noooo I hope she didnt I am so screwed damn and did I mention damn but I am high again so I am not going to worry about it for now or least I will try not too sorry this is so long.......but GEEZE!!!!8(
TrickyGirl
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Dang I wonder if she really did notice my stash on my bed huh thats fucked I will be way more careful from now on dag that was so stupid of me damn damn damn.....
Dang I wonder if she really did notice my stash on my bed huh thats fucked I will be way more careful from now on dag that was so stupid of me damn damn damn.....
throwitallaway
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Still got some of a roll left in me...stoned and feeling nice. 
TrickyGirl
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Okay so my mom totally didnt even notice I can totally tell so whoosh that was close and I am so high right now and so glad she didnt notice all is great in my world right now woo fucking hoo.....
Okay so my mom totally didnt even notice I can totally tell so whoosh that was close and I am so high right now and so glad she didnt notice all is great in my world right now woo fucking hoo.....
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my face is warm
im high off whatever chemicals r secreted after whacking off/orgasm
i am typing w/ one hand
im high off whatever chemicals r secreted after whacking off/orgasm
i am typing w/ one hand
Synapse999
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Ninjetic said:
Take that much, with false preception that "more is better" or at the momment.....and only for a split second.. You decide that will be most effective....it has to be enough.
50..100....200mg....its all the same.......so only thing logical is...take more to get more out of it. well, not real logical. but its hard to explain.
Taking that amount throughout the day is easy, becaues no thought is involved. Its a hand-to-mouth habit.....when you got them in your pockets etc. you just keep taking small amounts.
I take just straight Dextroamphetamine (Dexedrine) 5mg instant release.
Tonight, i'm a little bit over 200mg. I don't remember what i took throughout the day. that is just what i took a couple hours ago. Why? Not sure, i think i was pissed that i wanted to get motivated for something. So droped down 20 of them.
Well, since i take 360 of these a month...i knew already 20 of them at once was stupid and pointless....so then the instant/phase out happens again. I took 5, then 5, then said i bet 10 more i need. now that it all hit me, of course im layed back...stuck into doing small tasks wasting time. just like 10 would do by itself.
Point is, its not like coke..where you feel like your heart is gonna explode in a couple minutes...and freak out..from that line.
These are pills you can keep swallowing..and swalloing...with little added effect..
This is almost the case with ryanM, except not aware of it.
I have messaged him once before, replied to me like 3 months later..
with nada...he only likes to speak where alot of people can see i think. hard to tell if he is really up to say what he is as well...judging personality.
My daily intake, of dexedrine,xanax, and alcohol....is well. yeah.
He is lucky people even tryed to help him, and talk to him....etc. like i tryed.
I did it, becaues i know thats what i would have wanted.
Also, with addiction like this. You don't think of other drugs...or care. and wouldnt want to try all that other shit..or new shit.
The size of the dose, impairs you that one day.
The frequency of consumption, determines the difference between the walking dead, and everything else heh.
I don't worry about the guy, unless he has mentioned side effects, changes...things like that. something other then repeatly saying he took X amount today...and cant wait to doit tommorow. Unless he isnt that far into the process. At his age,"most" families....friends, general people.
Notice easily, You aren't the same person...and everything else that goes along with the impairment.
He doesn't even get it legally....so its all hidden....someone would have sat this kid down. and said "we are gonna get to the bottom of this".
Eh, sorry all. I could type forever right now...just cant get up and do something productive hah.
Druged to the max, and not done yet tonight. I remembered why eating them like candy is a good idea. To just get to the bottom of the bottle and be free of them.
-RyanM. Free coke all the time, adderall daily in high doses.
While you walk with limbs and eyes jerking in odd movements, twitching and trembling idle. feeling irritated, anxiety? the works.
Ever feel like........taking something to get more out of your drugs.
Xanax is only thing keeping me together now. At least get some magnesium like i may have mentioned.
Well, it seems there shall be no sleep for me tonight. But it doesn't matter, as I was asleep allday (so I guess it evens out) I keep blazing and it doesn't make me sleepy one bit, but it feels sooooo nice. I just made some weed brownies and now the house smells like weed. Delicious
TrickyGirl
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I am still awake as well maybe I should take a few more bars and then maybe I will finally get some sleep but I dont feel bad though so woo freaking hoo.....
I am still awake as well maybe I should take a few more bars and then maybe I will finally get some sleep but I dont feel bad though so woo freaking hoo.....