Xanax used to be my favourite benzo. when i first started to take it it almost gave a stimulating effect & i wondered how happy & ''normal'' i feel on it. it was very euphoric to me!
i got my doc to prescribe me 60 2mg xanax xr's along with 30 5mg nitrazepams monthly, which only lasted me 3-4 days all together... afterwards i went to the city & bought packs of klonopins illegally every other day. i was afraid to run out of benzos & to go into withdrawal, while having no problem to maintain my heroin & opiates habit at same time. the benzo withdrawal was much more scary to me then heroin's.
that all lasted for almost a year, before i got arrested & forced to withdrew this habit cold turkey (with some clonazepam substitution maintenance but not tapering at first 3 weeks before i was switched to a rehab center), & it was a month of pure fucking hell...
then, after being totally clean of substances & living in the rehab center i managed to get a pack of xanax. at first i took 4mg, nothing special barely feel it. so another 8mg, then another 10 (the last thing i remember) i ended up taking 30mg (15 2mg xr's) & to not to pass out after 2 months of being clean & messed up the rehab center, & my house in these 48 hours... since then i haven't touched a benzo for almost 8 months now.
this is my benzo binge story
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