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Which drug caused you problems?

in the following order from most destructive in my life to least

1) heroin IV
2) cocaine IV
3) crack
4) cocaine snorted
5) high dose LSD + mega high dose MDMA trip that landed me in a psych ward for a couple of weeks.

Those are the only ones that really caused me much trouble at all... LSD and MDMA I have done many many many times with no noticeable adverse effects.. I just took way too much that one time. I thought I was a prophet....
 
I haven't had any major drug problems fortunately, but some drugs have at least begun to cause problems.


Ecstasy - started doing pills a bit too much for a few months, to the extent that I was starting to get noticeably cracked out/paranoid and withdrawn in daily life. For whatever reason I didn't really acknowledge what was happening, and sort of tried to just fight my way through it. I still think one of the reasons for this was that I suddenly started getting really shit and probably heavily cut pills, so justified pushing up the dosage with the fact that they were such poor quality. I've since taken a long break, and that seems to have sorted things out a lot.

Alcohol - in the months after I stopped doing E so much, I maybe tried to drown the anxiety I had developed by drinking too much, to the extent that I started to black out almost every time I drank - apparently also sometimes becoming incoherent and generally out-of-character. That wasn't good. I'd find myself doing things like waking up just before the last stop on the last train to somewhere completely the opposite direction to where I should've been going to get home - or suddenly becoming aware that I was wandering along a road I didn't recognise at all at 4:00 AM with no phone, no money, and no memory of how I got there.


But thankfully I seem to have got these issues under control. :\
 
I'm totally behooved....

euphoric_rose said:
weed. weed fucked me up.
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I can't believe how many peeps said weed fucked them over8( !! I've been partaking in the wonderful herb for almost 40 yrs.
Was a successful businessman...have an excellent family life...in fact, I even retired at the age of 45 [I'll be 54 in 2008].
Weed has never made me procrastinate anything that needed done. I've never lost 1 single pal to weed. Now coke/crack, I watched many an old successful friend blow all his $$$ on blow...lost his family, home, career, etc, etc.
I've also seen many a friend lose it all to booze. That's why I can't understand how anyone could let weed ruin their lives...especially if you're buddies with growers. It can be acquired cheaply [I supply seeds to my grower pals & in return, I get 30% of the harvest] & I know a lot of dudes [some even have their own columns in various cannabis magazines] that have made their own various genetics & I mail the seeds to my grower friends.
"1 hand washes the other" has always been the way to conduct business & the cannabis business is no different than any other 'legal' business in the way to run it. I'm a middleman -- I supply the seeds to grow the plants, which I opt for a percentage.
Retiring at age 45 was the best idea I had...& I can't imagine how smoking weed has made me less of a success. :\ =D
 

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B9 said:
Overuse of anything is the reason behind it whatever your DOC.

Self control......... where art thou sweet friend ?

Hmmm squidhead I might take a leaf outta your book if I can suss a way to do so.
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LOL=D!! You're absolutely right about the 'self-control' coming into place. People should use self-control with every aspect of their lives...especially recreational drugs.

And, my old pal B9, I'd gladly give you the 3 easy-steps to making $$$ on your own. No boss, no time-clocks, no going to the office [unless you want to get outta the house] & using other peoples' $$$ initially, which you can payback within a month of borrowing it.
Might be a kinda bad time right now...with the housing market the way it is, but as we all know from past history, that too shall pass!! ;) :\
 
Alcohol.

Though I am no longer physically addicted, I find it very, very, very hard to be completely abstinent. I won't say impossible, but it almost feels that way. At the moment however, I have managed to cut down my drinking so that I have four alcohol free days each week, and I only drink to the point of getting drunk once per week. I also try and make three of those days completely free of any drugs. I don't want to quit alcohol altogether, and to be honest there's little reason to, but I still don't like the fact that I most likely couldn't do it.

Also I don't truly enjoy social situations when I'm not drinking, except with my girlfriend and my best friend- thank fuck for that- and drinking exacerbates my Generalised Anxiety Disorder during the days following a binge. It also means I am not really functional the day after getting drunk, as my hangovers are so bad because my tolerance is very high; it takes a 75cl bottle of spirits or equivalent just to be tipsy. This is bad because I am struggling with my course and need time to study, because I also waste a lot of time worrying. Still, I'm much happier during a week when I'm drinking compared to a week when I'm not; it gives me something to look forward to and helps me, albeit temporarily, with my anxiety, and lets me have fun socially.
 
Cocaine IV and heroin IV... crack i guess but not too bad, Ecstasy and speed fucked my brain up (weed probally helped abit).
 
weed, it ruined my life. it's been over 2 years since my last joint and i still feel burnt out as fuck. not to mention the anxiety, panic attacks and the havoc it wreaked on my body.
 
Spurs_1882 said:
Alcohol.

It also means I am not really functional the day after getting drunk, as my hangovers are so bad because my tolerance is very high
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I can definitely relate. I was a very heavy drinker for 25+ yrs & quit because the hangovers would completely destroy the next day. It was getting to the point of where the hangovers were lasting longer than my booze-buzz.
Waking-up in the morning gagging & dry-heaving in the shower [when I could drag myself into the shower]...not being able to even THINK about food...but then around 3-4 pm, force a beer down...then 4 more & I'd start feeling 'normal' once again. Vicious cycle. I couldn't handle the hangovers anymore, so I quit 8 yrs ago. Haven't even felt an urge to drink -- of course, weed helps in so many different ways & saved me from the gutter.
That's 1 of the reasons I feel so strongly about weed. I have never had any ill effects from cannabis/THC.
 
burn out said:
weed, it ruined my life. it's been over 2 years since my last joint and i still feel burnt out as fuck. not to mention the anxiety, panic attacks and the havoc it wreaked on my body.
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I'll bet you're pretty young...am I close? :\
 
Everything. What ever i do i go hard. I took 3 years off and when I started smoking weed again i smoked constantly. Started drinking and went to craft beer. Big beers like imperial stouts and double ipas. Smoked crack and was blowing paychecks on weekends. Started doing dope and basically am now stuck. When I finally get clean again i know for sure that i can't do anything. No weed no beer no nothing. I am a addict for any and everything
 
SCUMCHRIST said:
Everything. What ever i do i go hard. I took 3 years off and when I started smoking weed again i smoked constantly. Started drinking and went to craft beer. Big beers like imperial stouts and double ipas. Smoked crack and was blowing paychecks on weekends. Started doing dope and basically am now stuck. When I finally get clean again i know for sure that i can't do anything. No weed no beer no nothing. I am a addict for any and everything
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Honestly sweetheart, knowing what you need to do is the first step of concuring whatever sobriety you need for yourself. Much love and kudos. You are right you can do whatever you need to to succeed. If you feel weak than you already know where to come. We are always here for you in TDS. 💞
 
Painkillers of any kind. 14 years of savage addiction. Lost jobs, ruined relationships, made incalculable mistakes, died a couple times, lied, cheated, stole, manipulated, violent, unproductive, etc. all while convincing myself I was “high functioning and decent”.

I didn’t even meet my true adult self until August of 2017 when I got clean. Feels like I came out of a cocoon.
 
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