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Which drug caused you problems?

ozzifar said:
lol what a lovely contradiction you made there.
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Hah .. I meant in the sense that I don't check for black helicopters when I go outside ;)
Even though I always swear the unintelligible voices are talking about me [I can hear what they say ..] the rational side of me says "no, you're just high, you can't actually hear them."

I hate alcohol. Its the only drug I've ever hated that refused to leave me be.
Damn you, 21st Amendment .. all or nothing, I say.
 
Cocaine and meth cost me a lot of money. The only time it got out of control is when I was on a vacation though. I don't think I could allow myself to sink into staying awake for numerous days at home with all my responsibilities. I have been somewhat dependent on amphetamines for periods when work is out of control, but I wouldn't say that it was a mega negative effect, since I made enough money to move into my own house due to an extended period. Not that the drugs caused that either, just that it made it easier lol.

When I do stims I am the type to do them till the stash runs out, although I recall one time where I had a rather large stash and I would run pretty early into the morning then make sure I got at least a few hours sleep before getting up, dosing, working, dosing, working then partying and doing it all over again.


I would say stimulant drugs are my main weakness, I could see myself slipping off to the dark side somewhat easily given the right circumstances.
 
As for actual compound scaring me, Imovane prescribed by my doc is the only drug I have felt really fucked up by. I would see the visuals for days after, when it got dark. I would say it made me functionally insane.
 
Bare_head said:
AMT, Used it daily before and has caused me bouts of emotional distress. i am sure this is from big doses. not small ones. Sure with abstinance my emptions will return to normal :)
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Yep... didn't take too long for me. Not like it does with MDMA. The symptoms are very similar though.
 
coke, I've been clean for a few years, but sometimes I still have major cravings and have trouble functioning. I can't listen to many songs I relate to doing it. I struggle often.
 
Nicotine and crystal meth. The thing I constantly try to figure out in my head is, why? Smoking is hardly what I would call 'enjoyable', except when drinking alcohol. Meth is fun for the first couple of hours but the tension, dehydration, 2-3 day bender leaves me wondering why I do it. But I always go back to them...a 25 pack of cigs every 2 days and meth once a fortnight when I get my pay.

Other drugs like MDMA and GHB are infinitely more enjoyable than either of my addictions, so it leaves me baffled and wondering why my brain doesn't make me 'crave' the drugs that I know I enjoy so much more.
 
My love affair with weed and my fling with cocaine caused me to fail out of school, spend all of my money, lose most of my friends, the one I loved most, the respect of everyone who knew me, a few jobs and almost my life, too. It got to the point where I felt like I couldn't stand being a disappointment and a loser anymore and I tried to kill myself. It was awful. But of course, not long after that I was doing it all over again. I went through two more "almost" situations (mostly with weed) before I watched a few episodes of that show Intervention and realized how pathetic I truly was and quit. It was hard, to say the least.

But yeah, to sum up, weed caused me the most problems; that is one hell of a psychological addiction. Coke (really never more than an occasional thing, but that craving is like nothing else) sure didn't help. I should really just leave it all alone, but it's always like, "just a few more times then never again..." God only knows whether "never again" will ever be a reality for me. Drugs are my old flame and they keep coming back into my life, looking all sexy.



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Nicotine is ridiculous, too. It was so hard to quit smoking but I did it -- not the case for millions of other people though.

And regarding MDMA: I have a friend who is a total E fiend who claims it isn't at all addictive and causes nothing but the most positive of outcomes. I feel she is misguided, especially after reading stories here.
 
weed will cause more problems over the long run becasue when using very obvious = lose friends, jobs family disappointed- but coke is a real ball breaker when that is off kilter
 
Adderall. I don't know why they give this awful stuff to kids. Those two years of being prescribed to it basically turned me into an anxiety-ridden fool. I still take it occasionally now to help with my schoolwork, but I won't go and start taking on a regular basis ever again. The cravings were just too intense, and became the reason for a lot of drama amongst my family and friends.

Although I'm confident in my ability to abstain, my hydrocodone use is starting to worry me. Even though I space out my use of the stuff enough to avoid dependency and withdrawal, it's beginning to seem like the only time I ever feel good about myself (or anything, really) is when I'm nodding out.
 
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Insane_Man said:
As for actual compound scaring me, Imovane prescribed by my doc is the only drug I have felt really fucked up by. I would see the visuals for days after, when it got dark. I would say it made me functionally insane.
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me to, I would enjoy these freaky visuals. I even see shadow people on them, and all sorts of strange energy stuff
 
i would have to say cocaine because my comedowns were awful and it gave me the crappy bummed out feeling every time,yet id still go back for more
 
first it was oxys, ruining 3-4 years of my life.

then I discovered IV coke, and nearly killed myself a couple of times. god, what a rush...
 
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