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Finally, I could sit down in front of the computer and go back to the days of being a post whore.
First, I would like to say, it's great to have read this thread. It caught me up with a lot of people who I would wonder about from day to day. I would like to touch on some things.
Sweetpea said....
I've decided to give up working full-time and go to school to be a teacher(K-6). Being a teacher is something I've always wanted but was put-off because of the pay-I doubt any teacher is in that position because of money-Obviously the pay-off is a lot more rewarding.
Stronghearted and caring people brave the lack of pay to become teachers. I have confidence that you will succeed in the profession. You are right, the rewards are priceless. I could go on and on about the little things I see every day, but that would waste a lot of bandwidth. If you need any advice, any help, or anything at all, I do hope that you get ahold of me. Just remember, to teach, is to touch a life forever. Promise me that you won't give up on your dream. As endless as the nights are to get there, the reward is bountiful when you look at your very first class.
Dags said...
A huge issue in my life FINALLY has some resolve, and although it isn't the *perfect* solution, ever since I found that there IS a solution, I can't stop smiling!!!!!
Congrats hon, SMH89750324872 somewhat touched on BR, and the fiasco. It was eye opening to all that attended. I remember hearing about you, and how horrible I felt that you were not able to get where you wanted to be. Through your ordeal, you remained strong, patient, and fought off your depression and anger. Because of this, you are a stronger person than the one that I first met a little over a year ago. The sky is the limit for you, now go ahead and pick a star.
LapDawg said....
Life is good.
You hit the nail right on the head my friend. Life is indeed good. Life is a gift that we often take for granted. I read a lot of replies to this post, and even though I don't know many of you, I relate when things are good, and when things are bad. No matter how rough things get, never allow yourself to surrender. Flirt around with a virtue that we often ignore and that is patience. Soon you will discover all the rewards life does have to offer. If you don't mind me editing your simple, yet affective words, Lap Dawg, Life is amazing.
I hit a good run of luck the past few months. I could write a long novel, but I won't. I will just say that I have found a new passion, learned I am meant to do what I do for a living, fit in clothes that I have not worn in many years, and may have a love interest on the horizon. I am just about back to where I was before I became very active on this board 26 months ago. Getting back to the life that I once hated made me realize that things were never bad at all, I just made them out to be in my head.
Life is a gift ladies and gentlemen, it's up to you to unwrap your present.
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an update....Well, the new guy turned out to be an ass...I think. I slept with him on friday night and went out on a date with him on sun. Then last night I go to the bar and see him, and he doesn't pay a whole lot of attention to me, but oh well then I go back to his place...and he runs off with the other 2 people I know there and leaves me with his roommate who i had met before, a guy I had met for half a second at the bar, and some guy that was wearing at hat...I didn't see or talk to him the whole time I was at his place...so I left without saying goodbye and he didn't seem to notice...he totally just played me.
 
Well an update....
My life has been sorta rather shitty....I made a major mistake last week and now feel that I am loosing my boyfriend even though he says I am not. I am a damn idiot as usual, and once again fucked up when I had something good.(I always seem to do this) I am beginning to think that I am just not supposed to be happy ever. I have come to realize that I am extremely afraid of ever being happy or letting anyone get too close to me.
I went out with one of my roommates last thursday and sum friends came up from Wilmington .... I know this is no excuse at all .... but I got extremely drunk ... beyond wasted! Needless to say I cheated on my boyfriend ... and majorly regret it. I realize I have to live with the outcome, but am seriously beating myself up over all of this really bad. I told my boyfriend as soon as I saw him, I couldn't even look at him. He is in jail, and has been for almost two years now. We weren't together b4 he went in but I am now waiting 4 him.
He is everything to me ... I really don't understand myself ... how I could do this 2 someone that I love so much. He forgave me, but is obviously very hurt. I explained all to him, I am lonely, and soo tired of being alone. I realize that I have some seriouse issues in my life right now, and am really scared that I may never be able to get over that I have done this to him. This is killing me!
Besides that I started a new job .... I have been working alot and am happy with that much.
Then comes the fact of my soon to be ex-husband ... he came by to see me last saturday ... he called me at 3 am and asked if he could come visit (which was very shocking)... I had just gotten out of work. We are still good friends but yet we both realize that we still love eachother to death but yet we drive one another crazy ... I will always love him .... but yet now just in a different way.
It has been bothering me a bit now, he started talking about how when we were in Fl together how great we got along and how he thinks it would have worked out if he had not had to come back to the USMC .... I hate this also, cuz now he makes me think. He was telling me how much he is gonna be missing me .... as he is leaving to go back to Fl next week. I know it would never work between us again ... I mean maybe it would but yet that is one road I would never go back down.
I miss him soo much though ... I can't bare to think about me being here and him not anymore. It kills me to think that I may never see him again. I guess maybe deep down I am still in love with him. LP ... pleaz don't tell him this!
I wonder in all reality if I would ever take him back .... I know I say I wouldn't but when he says to me that he is in Myrtle Beach and is thinking how if only he was still with me .... he would have the most beautiful woman and wouldn't have to look for one.
He still seems to suprise me at times!
Then tells me how he will probably just get to Fl and call me crying again asking me to come back ... for this has happened before. He emailed me a few days later .... telling me he was sorry for doing that to me .... and that thank you for being there for him when he needed me. God I miss him!
Why does my life always have to be so fucked up?
Well I have been off the drugs now too ... so that is a major plus also.
Well .... If any of you read this thanx for listening! I need someone to!
And also .... I went back to the doctors ....
My endometriosis is on my kidneys and bowel cavity so they couldn't remove it in my surgery due to the fact it would have done more damage.
I am now not gonna have insurance come the 21st .... and my only option to help me medicine wise is a shot called lupron .... once a month .... the shot cost 683$ each time, every month. So .... I am back to not being able to do shit except hope to god it doesn't get too much worse. Yay .... kidney problem's lucky me!
[ 04 April 2002: Message edited by: MissTwitch ]
 
Well said, old friend. Well said. :)
Life is absolutely amazing.
When things are clicking the way you dream about, you know you've got it good. ;)
El Jefe.
 
:) Brownie-
As much as it's not money-wise, I've taken a part-time job right by the college that is very flexible and also workable..by workable I mean, a great opportunity for me. It's a sales office with no admin whatsoever which means I get to run the place...it's a change which is what I'm looking at. It's a conscious change and sacrifice for my goal. Change, is good of course, but better when you change your course for an actual goal..hoping it will make a difference, can't wait to start classess :) Other than that, spending time with friends, friends who are succeeding, as much as it makes me feel kinda bad for not having much to say about my life, it also makes me push harder to have the comfort they have now- they are still taking care of me and loving me to a degree that I can't wait until they get it back-10 fold hopefully.
Going with the flow with a positive, sincere, direct thought is not so bad..or hard :)
 
My life couldn't get much more complicated than this.. I moved to the Canary isladns with my gay lover, in January we HAD one row, and he finished with me.. i came home i miss the island but not him as much as i think i should, And to top it all off im sleeping with someone else, his boss, and his boss and just asked me to go ack to the island to live with him, i dont know what to do... i have two weeks to make my mind up once and for all.. i love paul my long term lover, but i think i find his boss slighty more interesting and what i want which is bad i think HELP!"
 
Tomorrow is my school's annual Arts County Fair. It's actually a day-long outdoor concert run by the arts student assoc. I guess the faculty is good for something!! Anyway, this will be my fourth year in a row, and it is one of the best times of the year. Pretty much can't sleep the night before. My friends and I always start with a "champagne breakfast" before hand at my place, because I live on campus. Then starting at noon, there's just a continual stream of very "happy" students walking by my window. It is the perfect stress-forgetter!
 
Ok so since my last post....
I'm no longer with the man I've loved for the past two years. He cheated and it was messy but I'm dealing ok. He's also still with her and I can't decide if its better to be replaced by someone he cares about or by some random slut.
I don't talk about it much in real life....but I write a lot - on scraps of paper on the train, in bed at night, in my lectures...everywhere.
Some days there's just nothing to do but cry.
 
Hmm, well I was recently layed off because of company downsizing, so for the last 2 weeks I've been chillin with friend's and traveling around meeting up with people I havent seen in a while. It's the first time I haven't had a job, but Im good for now. I will hopefully be able to find something in a few weeks. Until then, Im just kickin back. Unfortunately my lovelife isnt much of anything right now, but I would rather wait for a good relationship than some flings. Oh well, either way Im still smilin. :D
thanks to sweetpea for starting this post :)
 
A lil update ....
Things r looking up, I have again realized why I don't wanna be back with my soon to be ex-husband.
Also what about and why I love my boyfriend so much! I'm just getting nervouse and scared because I am afraid of getting too close to people, and never let myself. This time I am definitely gonna let myself!
[ 08 April 2002: Message edited by: MissTwitch ]
 
well... i broke up with my gf about 2-3 weeks ago, because i found out she had started another relationship. for a while.. i suppose i was moping around... then i went to a party... rolled... and met the dopest girl ever. haha... yes.. i know.. i was ROLLING when i met her... but anyone who can put up with ME while i'm rolling is already a dope person in their own right.
too bad we probably won't see each other again. my friend says to not let it get to me... cause there are lotsa girls like her... i just wonder if he's telling the truth...
 
Well, I´m currently doing a PhD in a country different to mine while fighting depression, a fight that I´m starting to win. Also trying to sort out my love life, something that I don´t seem to be very good at.
 
Well, I'm back with the guy I was dating, but I still really like the other guy and will end up cheating on the guy I'm with. (Well, I sorta already have, but I wasn't exactly sober so yea..) I have told the guy I'm with that I'm scared I'll cheat on him and he just said don't...I don't know what to do. I just hope he doesn't read this...
 
This is a great thread. Well, here is my update:
My boyfriend completes his engineering degree this month and just accepted a job offer today. This means we are moving 8 hours north to a relatively small town. I have very mixed feelings. There is a university up there with a nursing programme that I really want to do (first nations healthcare) but now that we are certainly moving, I feel very sad and scared. I have never moved far away from friends and family before and I'm not sure how I will adjust. We literally don't know anyone up there. I plan to find some activities that will allow me to meet new people, but still...My boyfriend will go up and find an apartment for May 1st, and I will go up by the end of may (we are keeping our place here until the end of may so I have time to pack and give notice at my job). I am not finding a new job up there, but get to take the rest of the summer off, sort of a gift from my boyfriend. Yayyyyy. But I might just take a min. wage job at a clothing store or restaurant for the opportunity to meet others....ok, that's it. :)
 
Things have been kinda weird for me lately. They were bad for a while, then good, then bad, then for the past little hwile, things have been bad, but everything seems ok, and I don't know why. Pretty much everything is going wrong, but for some reason it's ok. Life is beautiful, I'm happier than I've been in a long time. The only thing missing in my life is love, but I can't really help that. I haven't been looking really hard. For some reason I can't see myself dating anyone from around here. I know its a collage and everything, but everyone around here is the same, and I just can't see myself dating anyone from here. But its OK, because I'm still young, and I have a while befor I have to worry about spending my life alone. Other than not having a soul mate, I'm just fine and dandy. Much love to everyone.
 
well... nothing has really changed much since last time...
i'm still becoming used to single life... think it's fun... but besides raves, it doesn't seem so dandy. i chill with my friends a lot more... still goin to community college...
still daydreamin about that unattainable girl... and i know the odds are completely against me... but still hopin we can meet again some day... but, again... highly unlikely... *sigh*
one of my friends keeps bringing up this one girl he knows... matches all my requirements for a dope girl... but no one else seems to be interesting to me. MAN... CHEMICAL LOVE! when will this end?!
 
oh dear, I have a sorry tale of woe to relate to you all tonight.
Just before I went away to uni I got to know a girl quite well and we decided to keep in contact online via icq and email. We had many conversations where I opened up to her emotionally and she was seemingly receptive to that sort of conversation.
She sent me a homemade card for my birthday and I guess I got my wires crossed at this point. To cut a long story short I ended up back home very much in love with this girl who I had shared my emotions with on icq. I fucked out majorly though when it became apparent that the icqs and emails hadn't been quite the same for her. Argghhh!
So now I'm nursing my broken heart and feeling waaay fucked up cause I quit drugs for her and so was/ am suffering withdrawl through this whole mess in my head. Not pretty.
[ 13 April 2002: Message edited by: jubbalo ]
 
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