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* hoping to move to Monte Carlo for a few months to work and get out of this rat race that is London, with my best friend
* dealing with the anger that sprouted when my previous employers fucked me up so bad i wanted to die
* wondering if i'm not the next victim of schizophrenia as i'm haven't a clue who i am, what it is really want and need...who am i?
* wondering if i'll ever be in love again
* despite all that, i'm keeping positive and holding onto my sense of humour as tight as i can...
it's all good *sigh*
 
Right now I am going to school. I am a history and german major with a philosophy minor. I valet park cars and go to school, and try and have fun when I am not at school or work.
I recently got over a long relationship and have started seeing someone else. She is unlike everyone I have ever met, so I am pretty stoked on that. The only thing is she isn't into my drug use, only because she had a bunch of stupid friends when she was younger. But I am really open with her and stuff. We talk about anything and everything.
Thats about all right now.
 
okay...sat. night i call up this guy that I fucked like 6 months ago who is now becoming kinda a friend again. Well we went to denny's along with his girl. well we got into some talk about us having a threesome. then we went back to his house and finished that conversation. It was really nice. they have this thing about they have a list of three people other than eachother they are allowed to have sex with. it's supposedly from doctor ruth. I brought this up with my boy 'cause I like the idea. but he doesn't i dunno.
 
Okay, well right now I'm finishing up my third semester of community college. I've been living back at my mother's house since mid-August last year, and quite frankly I need to get out to save myself! I am very thankful that I've gotten the chance to watch my younger brother grow up so much in the past few years though... he's finishing his Jr. year in high school and becoming such a man, it scares his big sis!
I made a decision very recently that scares me senseless, but I'm going through with it no matter what. In August, I'm moving about an hour and a half away from the small, isolated area I've spent almost all of my life in. Not only that, but I'm taking a year off from school to work full-time, and live with a close friend (yeah yeah yeah she's a BLer too, lol).
I don't have a job yet, don't know the area too well, and we don't actually have a rental yet. So I'm a little nervous, but this will be a good thing! :) At this point I'm going out there every weekend and a few weeknights as it is... I cut most ties to home a few years ago. I'll be living 30 mins from Providence,RI; 20 mins from Boston,MA; an hour and a half from home; and under an hour from Eastern CT. That covers all friends and loved ones I like to see. :D
For now, I just have to finish the last few weeks of school, find a summer job, and start saving some goddamn money! I'm in the midst of a parties-and-concerts binge that has sucked me dry financially. I need to end this "who gives a fuck" hedonism kick and get some responsibility again! I'm a workaholic and incredibly responsible, but it takes alot to get me to that point... and I'm not there at the moment.
It would also be nice if I had someone in my life... I love being single but goddamn I really do miss some things. A year ago at this time things were finally beginning to happen with the longtime friend I ended up falling in love with and living with for the entire summer... and the warmer it gets outside, the longer the sun stays in the sky, the more I've been thinking about that and missing him even more than I already do. Love sucks. :\ My lovelife has been nothing if not D.O.A. since February, so something/someone needs to happen, and soon!
Okay well thats definitely alot more than I planned on typing :) Thanks for letting me ramble.
Peace ~Katie
 
I decided I'd post for this because I'm dying to talk to someone new...just vent ya know? well,i'm 17 weeks along in my pregnancy and my bf is now my fiance. we've even set a date which i can't be happier about. i go find out what i'm having tomorrow. i hate being a 1st time mom..i freak out about everything ya know? but its great. works been busy and we're getting closer to getting the company. so much is going on i don't even have time to fold my clothes at home..they are piled up to the ceiling...literally and that bothers me. not only that but when i do get home i'm so damn tired i can't do it LOL..i guess from this point there is no slowing down...peace
 
Lets see this is probably going to be a little hard for me because I am a huge Privacy nut and have a hard time talking about personal things but Im going to try and vent.. Well It's been a week since My mustang was stolen from Space (Club in Detroit!) the car hasnt turned up nor have heardanything from the Insurance Last time I talked to them they said I had to wait 30 Days before they could issuse me a settlement on the car. I start a new Job on monday and Im nervous I worked for my Former Employer for 3 1/2years But I didnt see myself advancing any further in the Company so as hard as It was I quit and accepted this new job as a Mananger for For the parking in Grosse Pointe They have 2 Parking Garages,3 Parking Lot's and a Valet Service It doesnt seem that bad of a Deal plus the part that sold me on this is they offer 100% Tuition Reimbursement which means I can go to School for My Buisness Administration Degree and they will pay for it,and that's what really sold me on it plus Im going to learn alot more about the Buisness Field! I started talking to this Girl Ericka again we met a few Years ago had a little fling and then kinda drifted apart well I ran into her mom at K-mart the other day and asked how she was doing and I gave her mom My Phone Number and really never expected to hear from Ericka so I was suprised when I got a Phone call from Ericka, we have been talking alot lately and things seem to be going good! It never worked out with Theresa We Dated awhile ago pretty Seriously and we ended up going our seperate ways then like 2 years later a Mutual Friend called me on a Sunday Morning and was like "Theresa wants to talk to you!" I replied with give her my Number and have her call me! I was excitied because at the time I thought this is exactly what I needed to turn me back around and be Happy again so she called and we hung out a little but it just didnt work! Oh well things happen for a reason! My Landscape Buisness that I am a Partner in seems to be going well I just got my Check for my End of the Profits and I was Very Happy with the Figures! I took my Pioneer Tv/Dvd player out of my truck and converted everything back to stock again (because of the Mustang Incident) Im just not into putting all this money into my truck only to have it ripped off by some loser that cant get a job and buy his own stuff but it also seems kinda pointeless to have $3000.+ worth of sound equipment just sitting because im afraid of it getting stolen. well I guess thats pretty much it for me for now!
[ 20 April 2002: Message edited by: tj-e ]
 
well, I told my boy about how I cheated on him and we haven't talked since. I miss him bad, but I'm surving. one of the guys I cheated on him with I thought I could date, but he seems cold and uninterested now...he took me on a date before stuff, I don't know. and the guy whose "list" I'm on. Well I saw him again today, and we had sex again. that's my kind of rebounding...casual sex, with someone you know doesn't want to date, and you don't want to date!
 
I just spent about 26 hours with several of my favorite people in the world (and one new addition to my list of favorites :) )... and I feel at peace. I love that no matter what is going on in my world, how stressed or tired or fed up I get, just one day with my friends brings me this wonderful sense of calm. I thank them, I love them, and I hope the effects of their company get me through the next three weeks till finals. ;)
 
I got back into UNCG :) I'm so happy I did. I am still on academic probation, of course, but I hope to have that penalty lessened after this summer/fall. I am going to bust my ass to do so.
On another note, I finally paid my first visit ever to a psychiatrist. I have been diagnosed with chemical depression. I believe it to be seasonal (its HORRIBLE in winter.. and mild in summer) I am on celexa and am not currently required to visit a therapist, as of yet. The celexa should balance my downs out more and even out the ups. It's also helping my anxiety problems as well :)
I'm still a biology major.. haven't changed my mind yet (yay)
Well this is all for now.. if you wanna know anything more.. just go here:
http://www.livejournal.com/~serefemme
peace
 
I am once again among the ranks of the employed... for now. ;)
Yet another contract position, but this time it's industrial telephone work (thank goodness, no more residential). We'll see how things work out and I'll update you groovy people later.
 
Congrats web!! And star... I'll see you in calculus this summer. :)
For the first time in a while, I have had someone make me question the way I look at the world. It's nice, because I tend to get too comfortable in myself, and after a while it gets stifling. If we sit still for too long and know our surroundings too well, then there is no incentive to change. And I love change, even though I resist it sometimes, so I am ever grateful for my new friend and his insistent stare. He makes a good point: rather than continuing to ask questions, maybe I should wonder WHY I feel the need to keep asking questions. Quite a lil paradox, eh? This one will keep my mind busy for a while... other than that? Well, the rest of it is just busywork, isn't it? The things in our head, our perceptions, the beauty we find in life... that's the good stuff. The rest of it, while enjoyable, is just in-between stuff. :)
 
Finals next week... school isn't looking good i'm probably going to have to straighten out some priorities in my life for the fall.
Gonna be looking for a summer job soon, i'm really thinking about getting a 3rd shift job because i'm a night person, i really think it'd work better for me.
I'm really looking forward to the summer and getting in touch with some of my friends who i haven't seen all year. We all kinda fell out when some of us went to college and/or got jobs elsewhere. I guess that's the way it works after you graduate high school.
I have met a lot of new cool people, one of which has pretty much become one of my best friends now. I think things are looking up, but everything changes day by day so ya never know...
 
Well I failed my computer science second year exams last time round which was bad and it is a year later now and I'm very close to the repeat exams.
I haven't worked much this year (until the last month) and am worried about failing. The revision that i have done is going well though so im feeling slightly more confident.
I need to get more involved in my course and programming and stuff.
I'm not getting enough time on my turntables and I also feel it's about time I started playing out - I'm good enough.
I need to get some work in the summer, and make some money so I can save it for travelling or for new records and equipment, I'm tempted to save up for a scratch mixer and put a lot of effort in my turntablism, it's really interested me of late.
I've had a lot of almost-friends for a while that I just haven't put enough effort into ringing or seeing them. I am feeling confident enough to change this but always forget to, but I always feel good when I know more people.
And with exams coming up I won't have much free time to do this :-(
I need more money
(EDIT) note i don't think money will buy happiness, it would just help me with a few things :-) -> and it's not much of a problem for me either not like a survival thing, i was just hoping. ;-)
[ 28 April 2002: Message edited by: Setarcos ]
 
lately:
-got a condtional acceptance to a university i really want to go to and really doubted i'd get into
-got my maple leaf tattoo at last
-got to travel and see people i really enjoy spending time with, and whom i wish i could see way more
right now:
-been up all night writting a big essay so i can keep my average above 70% and keep my uni acceptance, enjoying the feeling of strangeness sleep deprivations gives me
-trying to decide if tht's my dog growling in the next room or the rumble of far off thunder.
aj the femme
 
Im currently working full time (right now :) ) saving money for america. Im quitting this job in a month which im not looking forward too, its much better than i expected. Im going 2 america on the 4th of june to work on a summer camp in NY. Then traveling around america and england for the experince while im still young and free of any attachments (im single). ATM life is good and i only see it getting better :)
 
so me and my ex are talking a lot again. I don't know if we are going to get back together or not. We decided to start over...as in from the begining, dating, trying to win each other over point. Well he told me today that he had sex with this other girl last night, but she's only a friend. I know that I have no right to be so upset about ti but I am. Sometimes I wonder if he realises that I have feelings. I said something about having sex with the guy I cheated on him with. I want to just to get him back. He said it wouldn't get him back because I'm not going to do it...like he was trying to talk me out of it. I said we will date this summer, and maybe get back together next school year.
 
um...lets see...i love my boyfriend (Matt) with all my heart. i've always had a crush on another boy (we'll call him B for ease)..and i went to a house party this weekend and we ended up hanging out all night, just having fun, nothing happened, eventhou there was an opportunity to all night, i just didnt take it (good for me). but i spent time with my boy today and i all i could think about was B, and we watched Eyes Wide Shut, which didnt help at all. And i know i just have to get over it because i will never find anyone who treats me better than matt, but DAMN, i hate the extra stress.
 
so I friday night I went to the bar...got plastered and went home with this guy, I told my ex about it and he flipped and said now we aren't getting back together, but then today he was all I love you and I want you. i don't get it...why is no one post on this anymore...don't ya'll have craziness in your life to rant about?
 
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