Good lord man, another night of extreme drug abuse. I am not preaching or speaking with contempt, I am in awe that you can still walk and speak.
The mandarin orange/tangerine/clementine juice is flippin' fantastic, aint it? I let the little suckers dry out, when the peel is very thin, too hard to peel to eat, I cut them in half with a sharp Shun knife and squeeze. 9 clementines is 5 ounces of juice. not too shabby!
I like Ken Burns documentaries, Alan Watts lectures on Youtube, Ocean, Fire or Keystroke AMSR, and old baseball games (at very low volume) to be my best soporific backgrounds sounds.Iit. So relaxing....
I can vouch for the cravings for sweets as an opiate addict (namely chocolate) ; especially if I'm currently high or on the brink of withdrawals. I guess its my body's way of signaling me to refuel my dopamine receptors by any means possible--even if its just a sugar high. Haha. I've also known many meth addicts who more-or-less survive on soda (especially Coca-Cola and Mtn.Dew for some reason) and various convenience store sweets.
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ASMR, especially if its Bob Ross, the undisputed king of unintentional ASMR. Haha. Funny you mentioned Allan Watts ; my friend and best dealer recommended that I listen to him and said he's a very insightful philosopher.
In all sincerity, I can't imagine why you would be. It is just a list of things I was imbibing before resting.
Aw shucks, it was nothing if not just a stupid trick I learned in Nam (Joke.) I live and breath HR, man. Usually that is about doing something brave or difficult, just as is most of living a good life, so it's not all complicated.
My morning fix is bound to confuse you too. Another hearty meal, with some crack, before I crack my pillow with my head. Always has made me sleepy, when I do less than a a gram and a half or so.
Wait...full-stop....crack makes you sleepy?! And how on earth are you able to eat so much on meth? Doesn't it kill your appetite? I remember food being the furthest thing from my mind after doing concerta, adderall, coke, crack, or meth (not really a fan of uppers aside from caffeine and nicotine though), but I guess its not entirely unheard of. You still have to eat to survive.
Yeah, you have to force yourself to eat, and sleep, when doing stimulants. YOU HAVE TO, or you have no business abusing them long term.
I guess it doesn't hurt to live by the phrase "eat to live, don't live to eat". After all, food addiction is a thing, and at least that's one less thing you gotta worry about being addicted to. If what you're doing feels right and even doctors say your doing okay, then I suppose nobody can tell you otherwise. Its your body and your choice to do what you will with it, i always say, even if treating it like a temple isn't part of the routine. You do you. Its your right.