lol, MDPV and phenazepam...
I was at work and I had both on me, and all my co-workers were talking amongst each other, and not at all subtly making references to some shit that was about to go down. It had to do with a shared desire to beat somebodies ass. Though they didn't use my name specifically, it was pretty obvious to me that it was my ass for which the beating was intended.
But they had good reasons. I had been pretty useless for about I think, maybe the 3 days leading up to this. It was taking me sometimes 5 minutes to read and enter order information received via the faxes which came through for any orders placed online (name, address, phone number, menu items ordered and any possible modifications, payment method, etc). A task which for me, could usually be done in under 10 seconds. And finally on the night before the flush, I last minute bailed out of my shift, and the store got slammed with orders so hard that my presence, even with the state I was in, could have been a great deal of help. Plenty enough reason for them to be upset with me.
In an attempt to shut it all out and get my focus off all this loathsome talk about me, I went into the back and just frantically cleaned shit, which wasn't all that much help since everything was pretty much spotless anyway. But my continuing ability to hear shit from up front actually turned out to be a be a really great thing, as it allowed me to hear the sound of the police radios of the cops who had apparently just arrived.
So that's when I rushed into the bathroom and locked the door and tossed everything into the toilet and flushed. Unfortunately, rather than graciously accepting my donation, it responded by rejecting my gel-caps containing measured doses, as well the loose powders, and the bags which had contained said powders. So I did what I had to; I got my hands dirty. After about 30 flushes with my hands in the toilet, and 15 minutes later, everything was finally gone.
I then immediately ran back up front where everybody was, screaming "IT'S OVER!! IT'S ALL GONE!! THERE'S NO PROBLEM ANYMORE!!! IT'S ALL GONE!! IT'S OVER!!"
However, I was stunned to find my cathartic act responded to with concerned and puzzled looking faces and someone asking, "Um, what the fuck are you talking about dude? What's gone?"
Baffled by the question, there was a long pause before I was finally pull myself far enough out of shock, to come up with and stammer a response, something along the lines of, "uh, yeah... in the walk-in.. it was.. there was mold.. a bag of the cheddar had mold... i got rid of it"
Then after long another pause, through which the strange looks remained fixed, the same person who had asked the question finally said, "umm... good work?"
A little quieter than my initial announcement, but with just as much haste, I said, "yeah thanks" and immediately rushed to the back, and out the back door where I stayed and smoked cigarettes until the shift was over.
In retrospect, I'm pretty glad that I had the phenazepam through my whole MDPV experience, which actually began a few weeks before my final breakdown. Thanks to the phenazepam, this horribly lucid nightmare was still punctuated by full nights of unconscious sleep, which probably helped some to mitigate the rate at which my psychosis progressed. If sleep deprivation had been a contributing factor, I probably would have ran into the real-life counterparts of my imaginary cops or perhaps received a still well-deserved beatdown.