After a week of not hearing from her since i mailed my package, I decided to call her work at the end of the shift just to get her to call me for 5 minutes after work. Well I found out all I needed to know.
I'm crying my eyes out, but at least I know I will never ever bother wasting my time on her again. No friend would have done what she did. I don't care if she didn't want to talk to me for a while, and I would have not bothered trying to contact her if she just told me in a text, give me some time alone, I'll contact you when I'm ready. But no, she chose to ignore me, make me worry, make me try and salvage a relationship that i thought was falling apart. In reality she was just being a horrible person who has no respect for someone that is supposed to be a friend. She wanted me to not talk try to contact her for a week a straight, then she was going to call. I'm sorry but that isn't what a friend does. A friend doesn't play fucking games
She got my package also, and unfortunately the mirror with chemical etching on it that I made my self (it was an opium poppy plant I photo shopped to look bad ass, with Papaver somniferum etched underneath it) broke. She also said she plans on sending everything back (not the mirror since its heavy and broken). There was my live strong wrist band that I've worn for 6 years in it that she would have love to have back when we were together, a Diary by chuck palahniuk because i thought she would have enjoyed it based on her personality, a black and white photo of me rock climbing, and a real sweet note. If she truly was my friend she would have accepted it and appreciated it.
I have no respect for her anymore. She is not my friend, and never will be. I will never contact her again. I already deleted all her information.
Since shes a BPD individual she will continue to lose friends over and over, but the difference with me is that I didn't care that she was BPD. I cared about her even if she would go crazy. However, doing this to someone who doesn't run away from you because of how you act, is the stupidest thing you could do. She has like 1 good friend now, and if anyone actually gets close to her, they will see how crazy she is.
I don't give a fuck what happens to her in her life anymore, and I'm more than happy to have her out of it. I know in the long run I'll be happy and she'll be the one who is still stuck in the same place with no friends an nothing to make her happy.
Fuck you E. You can not do this to people you consider a friend. You can not do this to someone who has been there for you through so much of your hard times. I was here for you when you got fucked over from certain individuals back in September relating to something I will not mention here. I barely fucking knew you and I stood up for you. I decided to base an action that effected me, on what happened to you like only a few others did. I was here for you when you went to the mental hospital because you couldn't handle loosing something important to you. I was here for you everytime you need to yell and scream, everytime you were abuse physically or verbally, I was here for you on your mothers death/birthday, I didn't have a normal christmas because of you, fuck I did so much for you all the fucking time, and this is how you treat me. How can you expect to call me a fucking friend. I got a damn job finally and already started to save up money for our trip we planned, but no, not anymore. You can't do the shit you did to someone you call a friend. It wasn't like we were fucking dating and you need a week with out talking to me, we were just fucking friends at this point . I've never heard of a fucking friend ignoring their friend, blocking them from everything, with a stupid little game you made up. See if I can havea full week where I don't txt, call, email, facebook, whatever before you contact me. Any fucking friend who needs space says to their friends, hey I need s ome time alone, I wont be using my phone for a week or so;. i'll contact you when I'm ready.
I can't fucking believe you. This will be the last fucking time I cry because of you. I honestly hope you dont have a good life. I thought you deserved it, but if you can't treat people who love and care about you with any respect, you don't deserve anything but disrespect. Thats probably all you will get if you keep acting like this.