Vent/Rant Thread vs. 2 (POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING)

[DexterMeth]

If nothing is permanent then how is nothing permanent?
Do you see the oxymoron in this?

 

[snafu]

If you choose to see it that way.

Nothing meaning no one thing.. Not meaning nothingness. The oxymoron is evident but the idea overcomes the words that shape it into our understanding. Words can be corrupted and twisted, but ideas, even though brought to us thru the use of words, can usually stay untouched. The idea is that nothing is permanent. An idea can be felt in your soul without words. And that idea can have a straightforward meaning to you that if put in words, can allow others to criticize what you say thru their interpretation of the words.

 

[DexterMeth]

You're using words to express exactly what I just wrote.

Impermanence is not permanent.

-Falling off the edge's edge's edge.. 'till I landed on the sky.

 

[snafu]

Neither is permanence.

We are on the same page, just different ways of expressing it.

 

[DexterMeth]

Pretty much, but after few posts and posters, we will not be on the same page.

 

[snafu]

Now we aren't

 

[DexterMeth]

lol

 

[Dave]

Win!

 

[DexterMeth]

hahahah

 

[KiwiQflyer]

All night. I've been sitting up all night and I can't figure out what the fuck to do. Talked to several friends about being done and just been sitting numb all night trying to feel something again. Not sure which is worse. Balled up crying or feeling numbed. Thought about just driving myself to the hospital because I know where this is going....but shit if I do that, I have no idea how to deal with the after.

 

[xstayfadedx]

It felt good to watch the sun come up. I haven't been able to see that in awhile. Its good to know everyday is a new start; a clean slate. I'm content with my life and I'm content with how things turned out. Finally I can breathe and know a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'm happy for that and I'm happy to move on with my life.

 

[Dave]

kiwi - If you feel like you're in any risk of hurting yourself physically, or worse, please don't hesitate to call emergency services. We don't need another person in the Shrine, least of all someone as great as you.

 

[DexterMeth]

^..

All night. I've been sitting up all night and I can't figure out what the fuck to do. Talked to several friends about being done and just been sitting numb all night trying to feel something again. Not sure which is worse. Balled up crying or feeling numbed. Thought about just driving myself to the hospital because I know where this is going....but shit if I do that, I have no idea how to deal with the after.

What is your current chemical intake regiment, if any?

I'm really worried about Kiwi

 

[KiwiQflyer]

prozac, lamictal, and abilify. still changing it around trying to sort it out. decided to try one more day without drs before i commit to that.

 

[DexterMeth]

I used to be on all of those, then I got into meditation, as well as sobriety. It was not easy at all. Glad you're still around.

 

[pacmanchomps]

FUCK YOU OPIATES! I love you and hate you at the same time. You cant save me. Only I can. I guess ill take a suboxtitute.

 

[DexterMeth]

Everyone is always wanting something, instead of truely enjoying the company of others, in which they use and manipulate. It's sickening and the root cause of evil.

I'm trying my best to forget, or at least somehow ignore this. I don't think that's possible. All I can do is be honest.

 

[Dave]

Thankfully, not everyone is like that. It's tough as hell to find the few genuine people out there, but when you do, don't let them go. I don't have many RL friends, but those that I do have I can count on to be kind, caring, and to call me out on bullshit at a moment's notice. The phonies... well, they stand out, I find.

 

[DexterMeth]

All my best friends are dead or have gone completely insane. I guess it's never too late to start over. Thank you Dave.

 

[Dave]

De nada. And it never is too late