Bo-- your diet before must have been
really bad for you to be feeling this wonderful just by eating more veg. Not that I want to put a damper on it- you sound like you're living well, and I don't want to take that away from you- but what you're feeling right now is called 'healthy'. Pretty nice, no?
Haha well yeh thats the thing you nailed it.
I always had a very twisted perception of what eating my veggies meant. I would actually buy a sub packed with animal meat that would have a few pieces of lettuce and a tomatoe and I would think "oh hey I'm getting my veggies". But I was only eating 1 time a day, and for the last 3 months I was almost living on subs. Mainly cause where I work they always have good one cheap.
Then prior to that I never exactly really ate veggies at all. I mean I would try to incorporate some broccli or corn into my meals once a week (other times honestly I'd go months not eating a single veg) and I was really just so focused on my drug problems that I never focused on it or realized what it was doing to my body.
I must have went 3 years w/out ever getting a consistent intake of greens/nutritous foods. And no I wasnt really eating a lot of fast food either (sometimes I would) I was just eating shit food from the supermarket really. All I know is I hated veggies for a long time and just did not think they were important.
Then it got to the point where I could no longer digest my food and began pooping out my meals exactly how they looked all chewed up going in. Like I'd eat a sub and would see everything that was in the sub in the toilet. And fuck I was really just extremely stupid. The thing that I honestly think happened is I use to compete years back and be a hardcore eater in terms of having a balanced diet but it also made me cocky and made me think I knew everything about food.
So once I stopped eating food the way I was suppose to I'd always just think "oh its not big deal I could go a few years and be fine like this". But hell no you absolutely can not. Hypertension, oscillating blood sugar, hair falling out, no more digestion, starting going days and days w/out being able to sleep then came the anxiety and aggravtion, mood swings. The thing is all the symptoms took a while to slowly develop so as they happened I'd attribute them to other things. Like "oh I'm not digesting my food cause I've been on opiates too long and maybe am just too constipated". Or "maybe my hypertension is being caused by the smoking". But man now my blood pressure has dropped so low and I'm still smoking, and so many things have changed since changing my diet that I know the dr was spot on about the adrenal fatigue. Plus he did thyroid tests and tested my hormone functioning and something else and all the signs were there.
So yeh I was one massive idiot I won't deny that. My diet was horrible and I honestly did not think food could break down a persons system at least the fast. Maybe over 10-20 years I thought it could cause issues but man this has to be wreaking serious havoc on all my organs just due to how off all my tests came back. I mean everything was off there was not one thing that was right. I was sodium deficient, far too many white blood cells, immuno suppresive reactions and getting allergies out of nowhere. Just to think ALL caused from my diet.
This has been one of the most profound learning experiences I have gone through though and like I said I'm just so happy that I know now. I feel soo normal now and my days are just so much easier, work goes by faster, I'm nicer to people, I feel better in my own skin.... I was so malnourished and had no idea how bad it had got.
And I honestly wouldn't be suprised if a large majority of a lot of issues in this world were somehow related to bad diet. Just looking around now with this new perspective it seems like I'm seeing it in other people too. The ones that shop for veggies and avoid the sweets and junkfood always seem to be more optimistic and happy in general. I work at a supermarket btw which is where I see this stuff. Then sure enough the ones who come through my line with brownies and cakes and icecream always seem pissed off about something or tired or are breathing heavy. Man the signs are really everywhere, diet is everything. And I will never forget that again. NEVER. Not from seeing this drastic change over these last few weeks I'm just baffled by it all really. I'm really only learning now how bad it was just by all the improvements I keep writing in this thread.Truely amazing stuff what food can do to a persons life. And really makes me see now that food can actually make a person more successful. I'm so much more productive. I run now w/out getting fatigued or dizzy. I am moving all day when before I just never had any energy at all. I mean I'd take opiates and feel nothing from them and now it even feels like my sub is stronger. I'm at less than half what I was taking just a couple months ago and I actually get this weird warmth from it that I was not getting a few months ago. Maybe my body wasn't even properly processing the drugs I was putting into my body. I also notice I'm smoking less too and caffiene gives me a jolt that I just never remember getting. I mean these are real things that I feel now I just can't convince myself its placebo. It had to be somehow tied to my diet I really think my body was begining to reject everything I was putting into it. The other thing I noticed is I also get lightheaded when I have cigs in the morning now. I remembered that happening years and years ago when I had a healthy diet its like even nicotine has a more potent effect in my body. 5 packs seem to get me through a week when before I had to smoke 1 a day. If I smoke too many cig I get this weird taste in my mouth I also don't remember getting and it turns me off from smoking more. I can't even explain the taste its almost like I can taste the tar when before I couldn't. I mean maybe my taste buds were even starting to go I really have no idea why so many things seem to be so much better now.
Life is really crazy sometimes just would have never expected this was what was going on with me.
The initial work i was interested in looking into is nowhere near where i live I have no fucking transport i'm having trouble surviving as it is and you motherfuckers want me to be paying 10$ a day to bus it out to woop woop, With no regard or concern that i have a fucking child to loook after, NO courses In the other avenue i was chaseing till next fucking year, The whole time i was there i was getting more and more fucking angry, With good reason these CUNTS just wanna get you off their fucking books and out of thier hair. Im so fucking dissalusioned @ the whole fucked up system and they cant seem to grasp that it is a magour cause of anxiety and fucking stress to me. Any way after beaking the fuck down there all i wanted to do was get drunk and drop pills which im in the process of doing. These fucking cunts are supposed to be there to help but all theyv'e done is sent me back down the stairs to near bottom again in ONE FUCKING HOUR
. Dont wanna listin to the fact that for the last 10 years our rights have been slowly chipped away, The world is going to shit and i see this clearly, no wonder im involved with occupy movements but they dont give a fuck there part of the fucking problem not the fucking solution, We are fast becoming a fucking economic dictatorship and they think that its just FUCKING DANDY. So now Im stuck in a spot where im so fucking angry, even more dissalusioned with the fucking pathetic fucking system and no closer to gaining employment OR getting my bridge year started. I really fucking worry how hard my child is gonna have it when she gets to working age. FUCK THEM ALL