DeadHead781
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- Oct 30, 2022
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I feel like crap in the morning; each and every one. My legs ache, my neck hurts, and I think, I can't function today. Then about 4 am I take 10mg methadone, and then by 5 or 6 I take 20 mgs more; and then I am ready to roll. Unfortunately I fell off my skate on Friday; I hit the ground really hard, felt a little concussed. Now for two days I have been so damn sore; went to the skatepark this morning only to pack it in after ten minutes as I really wasn't feeling well body wise. My arms and neck are really sore I know it's a reaction to falling and trying to catch myself. Why can't I just be happy to not try and catch air like the kids, Ive never been able to so I kick myself for pushing it too hard.
I will likely end up with another neck surgery I have had three and now I have cranial instabilty. However, counting my blessing as sore as I am each day, for two years I couldn't really walk without shaky weak legs, so I am over the moon to be skating again. I was a die hard surfer, but I am just too stiff and sore to do it anymore. i can, however, stand on a skateboard again so I am doing it
.Obsessively, of course. I have booked myself for more work as a teacher coming up this week and thru November. I usually am bothered by my old dog whining about 3 am and cancel my job for the day; waking up at 7 no matter what the dam dog does to my sleep.
I pound vicodin when I have it in the afternoon, and try to keep 10 mgs methadone in reserve. I use kratom when the vicodin is gone.
I am interested in high dose vitamen C, memantine or any other method to reduce.
Fucking chronic spinal pain is an awful, life changing condition. I don't know why I dont just resign myself to the rest of my life taking opiates.
Probably because of doctors and pharmacies making me uneasy with a regular source of medication. Scary shit.
Thank you all for your support, I want to hold myself accountable and work for a living, I love kids and school teaching as a substitute; but I puss out more than I follow thru.
but I can skateboard os I should be able to work, right? You would think!
Benzos help me deal with the uncertainty of my opiate rx. And I have to get off of them after 20 years because I made one mistake and went into withdrawal.
Yours in dope, years of dope, plus some hope! Hope keeps me going.
Tore my rotator cuff which keeps me from swimming which is what made me strong enough to skateboard again. Catch 22 I hurt my shoulder falling off my skate two months ago.
The beat goes on, nobody lasts forever, i tell myself, and know it to be t
Hey brother atleast your still out there skating! I will cruise too the store once and awhile i have always loved just cruising and carving now that im older. Need too get back into skating more and hobbies i use too enjoy before all this bullshit! I also have neck and head pain constantly. I fractured my skull and had a crainotomy almost ten years ago so i also gotta be careful about falling on my head. Hang in there brother! One day at a time just stay positive and we will get too where we want too be!!I feel like crap in the morning; each and every one. My legs ache, my neck hurts, and I think, I can't function today. Then about 4 am I take 10mg methadone, and then by 5 or 6 I take 20 mgs more; and then I am ready to roll. Unfortunately I fell off my skate on Friday; I hit the ground really hard, felt a little concussed. Now for two days I have been so damn sore; went to the skatepark this morning only to pack it in after ten minutes as I really wasn't feeling well body wise. My arms and neck are really sore I know it's a reaction to falling and trying to catch myself. Why can't I just be happy to not try and catch air like the kids, Ive never been able to so I kick myself for pushing it too hard.
I will likely end up with another neck surgery I have had three and now I have cranial instabilty. However, counting my blessing as sore as I am each day, for two years I couldn't really walk without shaky weak legs, so I am over the moon to be skating again. I was a die hard surfer, but I am just too stiff and sore to do it anymore. i can, however, stand on a skateboard again so I am doing it
.Obsessively, of course. I have booked myself for more work as a teacher coming up this week and thru November. I usually am bothered by my old dog whining about 3 am and cancel my job for the day; waking up at 7 no matter what the dam dog does to my sleep.
I pound vicodin when I have it in the afternoon, and try to keep 10 mgs methadone in reserve. I use kratom when the vicodin is gone.
I am interested in high dose vitamen C, memantine or any other method to reduce.
Fucking chronic spinal pain is an awful, life changing condition. I don't know why I dont just resign myself to the rest of my life taking opiates.
Probably because of doctors and pharmacies making me uneasy with a regular source of medication. Scary shit.
Thank you all for your support, I want to hold myself accountable and work for a living, I love kids and school teaching as a substitute; but I puss out more than I follow thru.
but I can skateboard os I should be able to work, right? You would think!
Benzos help me deal with the uncertainty of my opiate rx. And I have to get off of them after 20 years because I made one mistake and went into withdrawal.
Yours in dope, years of dope, plus some hope! Hope keeps me going.
Tore my rotator cuff which keeps me from swimming which is what made me strong enough to skateboard again. Catch 22 I hurt my shoulder falling off my skate two months ago.
The beat goes on, nobody lasts forever, i tell myself, and know it to be true.