Jesus is sugarcoated for the kids for good reason. But he was not meek and mild when it came to the word. I don't think you understand how hard it is to break out of dogma.
He came up with his own stuff and completely turned on those who created him. He bit the hand that feeds in a strange contradiction. These strange contradictions are a sure sign of God.
A fulfillment of prophecy. And a betrayer and judge to those corrupt in charge.
Why would you live any other life? Especially a creation of yourself determined by conformity and the masses, marked as a darkness slave?
The pen is mightier than the sword and when you grasp it's true power you witness the overpowering evil/good of the light. And this can only be by you, not anyone else.
No copying. No following.
Leaders are for the weak. And the leaders are weak themselves for having followers.