Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Yeah, rolling rock and Pabst are the only 2 cheap american beers I actually respect. Everything else sucks. I'm actually an American style IPA guy but buy the cheapo shit because I'm broke. I've never been a big liquor drinker, it feels more toxic and harder on my stomach. I dislike wine unless it's bone dry red.Oh god man i can't handle that shit. All American beer to me besides a few tastes fucking awful. I can drink a rolling rock if it's ice cold but that's about it. When im broke and wanna get drunk i will drink Faxe which is a 10% Danish extra strong beer that isnt drinkable unless you chill it to nearly frozen. 5 of those drank fairly quickly will get me drunk but the hangover ain't really worth it.
14-18 beers is alot for most people and it's usually around the 12-14 mark where i get to full and have to stop drinking. This is why when i wanna get drunk it's usually Vodka or lately Rum for me. I stopped drinking Vodka after i fell over the stairs earlier the spring on a combo of Russian standard Vodka and Zopiclone.
Dont beat yourself up though i know people in my area who drink more then you do every goddamn day. My uncle for instance drinks no less then 24 awful disgusting Molson Canadian every goddamn day. Lot's of other people i know average atleast 18-24 beers a day or a 750ml bottle of liquor everyday. Even a 40ozer of liquor a day isnt unheard of here.
I just beat myself up so much because I've wanted to be sober for over 16 years, have a deep hatred of my father who is a career alcoholic. Every day I keep drinking I feel like I'm turning into him. I'm in my 30s and at that age where I start realizing how much I'm like my parents.
I also had a liver scare and stage 2 hypertension at 32. It's time to quit if only for now and not forever.
I tell myself hey at least I'm not on heroin again.. it's ok to drink... And the weird part is to me that is both valid and a lie at the same time. Shit is both simple and confusing.
Heh c'est la vie..