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paranoid android said:
Oh god man i can't handle that shit. All American beer to me besides a few tastes fucking awful. I can drink a rolling rock if it's ice cold but that's about it. When im broke and wanna get drunk i will drink Faxe which is a 10% Danish extra strong beer that isnt drinkable unless you chill it to nearly frozen. 5 of those drank fairly quickly will get me drunk but the hangover ain't really worth it.

14-18 beers is alot for most people and it's usually around the 12-14 mark where i get to full and have to stop drinking. This is why when i wanna get drunk it's usually Vodka or lately Rum for me. I stopped drinking Vodka after i fell over the stairs earlier the spring on a combo of Russian standard Vodka and Zopiclone.

Dont beat yourself up though i know people in my area who drink more then you do every goddamn day. My uncle for instance drinks no less then 24 awful disgusting Molson Canadian every goddamn day. Lot's of other people i know average atleast 18-24 beers a day or a 750ml bottle of liquor everyday. Even a 40ozer of liquor a day isnt unheard of here.
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Yeah, rolling rock and Pabst are the only 2 cheap american beers I actually respect. Everything else sucks. I'm actually an American style IPA guy but buy the cheapo shit because I'm broke. I've never been a big liquor drinker, it feels more toxic and harder on my stomach. I dislike wine unless it's bone dry red.

I just beat myself up so much because I've wanted to be sober for over 16 years, have a deep hatred of my father who is a career alcoholic. Every day I keep drinking I feel like I'm turning into him. I'm in my 30s and at that age where I start realizing how much I'm like my parents.

I also had a liver scare and stage 2 hypertension at 32. It's time to quit if only for now and not forever.

I tell myself hey at least I'm not on heroin again.. it's ok to drink... And the weird part is to me that is both valid and a lie at the same time. Shit is both simple and confusing.

Heh c'est la vie..
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
Yeah, rolling rock and Pabst are the only 2 cheap american beers I actually respect. Everything else sucks. I'm actually an American style IPA guy but buy the cheapo shit because I'm broke. I've never been a big liquor drinker, it feels more toxic and harder on my stomach. I dislike wine unless it's bone dry red.

I just beat myself up so much because I've wanted to be sober for over 16 years, have a deep hatred of my father who is a career alcoholic. Every day I keep drinking I feel like I'm turning into him. I'm in my 30s and at that age where I start realizing how much I'm like my parents.

I also had a liver scare and stage 2 hypertension at 32. It's time to quit if only for now and not forever.

I tell myself hey at least I'm not on heroin again.. it's ok to drink... And the weird part is to me that is both valid and a lie at the same time. Shit is both simple and confusing.

Heh c'est la vie..
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Ugh i can't handle more then 1 or 2 IPA's. Ill drink one if i get it for free off someone but that's it. Im strictly a Stout or a rice lager person these days because im on wheat free diet but before i went on it i drank alot of Blackhorse lager (a Newfoundland only beer), Heineken and Stella artois. I don't really notice much difference in the 4.1% in Guinness and Murphy's and the 5% lagers i drink. Ill get drunk just as quick off Guinness as i will off Sapporo. But less alcohol means less carbs for me so that's good. I can't handle wine either it's fucking disgusting.

Oddly enough one reason why im drinking less now is because im back on Morphine. Before i got put on morphine for pain again i was drinking like a goddamn fish. A 750ml bottle of Vodka everyday i had the money was not unheard of. But since i was prescribed 30mg's and now 60mg's of morphine a day im not drinking nearly as much and have largely been sticking to beer.
 
paranoid android said:
Ugh i can't handle more then 1 or 2 IPA's. Ill drink one if i get it for free off someone but that's it. Im strictly a Stout or a rice lager person these days because im on wheat free diet but before i went on it i drank alot of Blackhorse lager (a Newfoundland only beer), Heineken and Stella artois. I don't really notice much difference in the 4.1% in Guinness and Murphy's and the 5% lagers i drink. Ill get drunk just as quick off Guinness as i will off Sapporo. But less alcohol means less carbs for me so that's good.

I can't handle wine either it's fucking disgusting.
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I used to love heine but for whatever reason I don't enjoy it as much now. Stella is good but a bit too sweet for me. Guinness always good, been to the Guinness factory in Dublin, but can't drink more than one without feeling bloated xD.

I'm trying to remember this one beer I loved... It was hugely popular in Spain... Hmm
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
I used to love heine but for whatever reason I don't enjoy it as much now. Stella is good but a bit too sweet for me. Guinness always good, been to the Guinness factory in Dublin, but can't drink more than one without feeling bloated xD.

I'm trying to remember this one beer I loved... It was hugely popular in Spain... Hmm
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Is it Estrella Damn? I used to drink that one alot before they took it out of the store here and instead replaced it with fucking hipster double IPA or some shit 🤬.

Weird how you have the exact opposite reaction i do. With me when i take opiates im like well atleast im not drinking or doing Coke. Granted i have never done Heroin i only do script opiates so i have little risk of overdosing. Sadly i have lost 2 friends to street Heroin in the last year.
 
did 40 minutes of guided meditation with this playlist keep alot more calm. Got alot to get through tomorrow. I have been on and off meditation so much usually to getting so caught up in life but i need a good routine each day again im going to start off with at least 30 minutes daily and expand that to a hour.

 
TripSitterNZ said:
did 40 minutes of guided meditation with this playlist keep alot more calm. Got alot to get through tomorrow. I have been on and off meditation so much usually to getting so caught up in life but i need a good routine each day again im going to start off with at least 30 minutes daily and expand that to a hour.

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I really need to do more serious meditation. I can't help but start seeing real CEVs and it distracts me from real meditation ;( starts feeling more like a trip.
 
Snafu of the Forest said:
@paranoid android I typically just drink cheap generic American beer. I'm that type of guy that needs to drink a specific amount. I can't just buy lower abv beer because I would just end up going out drunk to buy more. I typically drink 14-18 5% beers.

My desire and accountability to quit is a lot higher than any real hard consequences it's producing in my life. I'm just so hard on myself.

I keep telling myself it's ok to drink because at least it's not heroin and I tell myself it helps me stay off the heroin but part of me thinks I'm lying to myself.
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I'm surprised ( and pleased ) that you don't score when you are drinking. Every single time i have relapsed after getting some good clean time is because of alcohol. Sober I was strong. Alcohol threw all of that out the window for me. I'm proud of ya.
 
Pumpkin2021 said:
I'm surprised ( and pleased ) that you don't score when you are drinking. Every single time i have relapsed after getting some good clean time is because of alcohol. Sober I was strong. Alcohol threw all of that out the window for me. I'm proud of ya.
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Alcohol definitely inspired my last major relapse, but yeah it doesn't really trigger me like that. It satisfies that itch.
 
I got some "mead" at a bar the other night, was surprised they had it, and it was red, syrupy and tasted of straight robitussion. What kind of honey is red?
 
Ima def leave NZ whenever i can. Theres a good reason why NZ has the developed worlds highest youth suicide rates the worlds highest bullying rate in schools. This country is full of fucking dickheads and the future looks bleak for most kids.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
Ima def leave NZ whenever i can. Theres a good reason why NZ has the developed worlds highest youth suicide rates the worlds highest bullying rate in schools. This country is full of fucking dickheads and the future looks bleak for most kids.
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Where would you like to go?
 
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Since I started drinking every other day I feel bipolar or some shit. This is stupid.

Maybe if I just do something different for awhile....
 
schizoinfective said:
When I drank everyday for 3 weeks it almost seemed to work as a mood stabilizer, as fucked up as that is.
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Yeah I feel fucking crazy and super negative on the days I don't drink.. technically I have been diagnosed as bipolar but never believed it. Runs on the family. I just never looked at alcohol that way. Maybe I am?
 
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