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AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Woke up & saw an article on my phone of a clip of Cassie Ventura & .. well I don’t even want to write his name … it REALLY reminded me of horrible shit & was already shaky from waking up from night terrors. My mind & body are all shaken … my head feels fucked. I will continue to hide from the world.
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Do some self care and get some rest, that's the best you can do at times.
 
I don't know why this scene strikes me so much. It's not supposed to be inspiring, within the context of the show. However, I think there is some deep philosophical truth to be found within it. Confronting your shadow. Accepting it. Self actualization. It's only after we accept the parts of us we hate that we can truly begin to love ourselves.

 
Snafu in the Void said:
I don't know why this scene strikes me so much. It's not supposed to be inspiring, within the context of the show. However, I think there is some deep philosophical truth to be found within it. Confronting your shadow. Accepting it. Self actualization. It's only after we accept the parts of us we hate that we can truly begin to love ourselves.

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Makes me think of that Carl Rogers quote I like …
“The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.”

Also makes me think of some other stuff …
But I won’t subject anyone to my fd up ‘The dark night of the soul’ shit I’m painfully trying to ‘Metamorphosis’ through right now

Abrazos 🌺💜❤️‍🩹
 
I had a strange dream, it was as if what was happening somehow got distorted. Like my dogs weren't dogs at all but human fetuses, and one was sick and had to be eliminated, so the others wouldn't get sick as well.
I was listening to a documental when I fell asleep, and later I rewatched and it was in fact about a cult leader here in Chile who drowned cat and later burned his baby son.

I very seldom do dream about stuff I hear or read about. But the cat drowning part really got to me. More than the baby burning.
 
I’m taking a break from the groups … trafficking survivors, survivors of gang violence, ptsd ect. I got too burnt out or something. I really don’t know if it’s the right thing to do but I don’t have it in me right now. Feel bad for some people I feel like I’m letting down (people in the groups) … but there’s other people to help. I don’t know what happened with the switch. I can’t tell if I shut down or need a break. I honestly have no clue.

Kind of scary not knowing.
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
I can’t tell if I shut down or need a break. I honestly have no clue.
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Only way to know is to take a break. If it helps that;s cool. I not, you can take it from there, hopefully a little more rested. That's what breaks are for.
Cuidate linda y culquier cosa, si es que sientes necesidad, aqui estamos (y aqui estoy yo tambien).
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
I’m taking a break from the groups … trafficking survivors, survivors of gang violence, ptsd ect. I got too burnt out or something. I really don’t know if it’s the right thing to do but I don’t have it in me right now. Feel bad for some people I feel like I’m letting down (people in the groups) … but there’s other people to help. I don’t know what happened with the switch. I can’t tell if I shut down or need a break. I honestly have no clue.

Kind of scary not knowing.
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Are these like online support groups or in person or something?

Sometimes we need breaks from things like that, helping people and being supportive, even if it's for our own benefit. Getting burnt out and exhausting your capacity for empathy won't help anyone. You can only deal with serious things like that for so long before getting tired and compassion fatigue.

But that's an assumption on my part lol, I'm not familiar with the groups you are talking about. But that's the way it is for me. I've had to take breaks from moderating here at times, especially in the dark side. You can only handle so much, it's good to get a break.
 
deficiT said:
Are these like online support groups or in person or something?

Sometimes we need breaks from things like that, helping people and being supportive, even if it's for our own benefit. Getting burnt out and exhausting your capacity for empathy won't help anyone. You can only deal with serious things like that for so long before getting tired and compassion fatigue.

But that's an assumption on my part lol, I'm not familiar with the groups you are talking about. But that's the way it is for me. I've had to take breaks from moderating here at times, especially in the dark side. You can only handle so much, it's good to get a break.
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A couple are in person, other online. I try not to be too specific because one of the centers actually helps people escape situations.

Yea what you said about burn out & empathy so true. I hope I didn’t burn out or lose my empathy (I still care, I just feel frozen if that makes any sense). I been also wanting to self medicate more lately … so feel like I fail people in one of the groups if they see someone that was helping them & there for them regressing or relapsing. (Like if someone tells you you gave them hope & helped them & they see you crashing then …. I don’t know, yea I need a break.) That’s the thing about being fucked up enough to empathize & relate with others from fucked up situations I guess.

Hope anything I said even made sense.
Either way I appreciate your support 💜❤️‍🩹
 
lecroute said:
Only way to know is to take a break. If it helps that;s cool. I not, you can take it from there, hopefully a little more rested. That's what breaks are for.
Cuidate linda y culquier cosa, si es que sientes necesidad, aqui estamos (y aqui estoy yo tambien).
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Gracias hermosa, eres una buena persona.
Abrazos 🌺💜❤️‍🩹
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
A couple are in person, other online. I try not to be too specific because one of the centers actually helps people escape situations.

Yea what you said about burn out & empathy so true. I hope I didn’t burn out or lose my empathy (I still care, I just feel frozen if that makes any sense). I been also wanting to self medicate more lately … so feel like I fail people in one of the groups if they see someone that was helping them & there for them regressing or relapsing. (Like if someone tells you you gave them hope & helped them & they see you crashing then …. I don’t know, yea I need a break.) That’s the thing about being fucked up enough to empathize & relate with others from fucked up situations I guess.

Hope anything I said even made sense.
Either way I appreciate your support 💜❤️‍🩹
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Yep makes perfect sense. It sounds like those groups are helpful to you, so being able to step away for a bit every now and then will help keep you involved for the long term ❤️ Whether it's for you, or for someone else, or both, it is important work.
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Just had an hour long therapy session talking about fucked up shit & now I want to do drugs or drink alcohol ❤️‍🩹

Therapy is not bad if anyone reads this … I’m just an extremely broken bitch
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Been there, feel that. Yeah, I'm really happy with my current counselor. She's really awesome and honestly the first one I've found that I've been able to continue seeing for a longer period of time. She's really great and has been a huge help.

Especially when I first got sober, EVERYthing and anything gave me cravings like crazy. Thankfully, I've mostly passed that shit behind.
 
I'm fucking really upset right now and I'm not sure what to do about it or who to talk about it with.

I got this voicemail, it was from this nurse case manager woman for my injury. But the voicemail was not intended for me, it was intended for some fucking insurance adjuster ghoul. I have visual voicemail so I got a screenshot of it.

This fucking bitch, goes on to explain that she doesn't think I need physical therapy for the injury that rendered me immobile for nearly 5 months. BECAUSE I'M WORKING MANUAL LABOR!!!!!!!!!!!

Apparently she doesn't understand how difficult walking is for me and how much fucking pain I'm in. They're literally trying to fuck me out of the most basic care from workers comp. When I talk to this woman, or her company, I am going to go ape shit.

I have not been this angry in probably a year. But it's like I'm just numb at this point, I feel nothing. I'm so used to everyone hating me, downing me, using me, insulting me, that at this point, I am just an empty vessel to be filled with everyone's inadequacies.
 
deficiT said:
I'm fucking really upset right now and I'm not sure what to do about it or who to talk about it with.

I got this voicemail, it was from this nurse case manager woman for my injury. But the voicemail was not intended for me, it was intended for some fucking insurance adjuster ghoul. I have visual voicemail so I got a screenshot of it.

This fucking bitch, goes on to explain that she doesn't think I need physical therapy for the injury that rendered me immobile for nearly 5 months. BECAUSE I'M WORKING MANUAL LABOR!!!!!!!!!!!

Apparently she doesn't understand how difficult walking is for me and how much fucking pain I'm in. They're literally trying to fuck me out of the most basic care from workers comp. When I talk to this woman, or her company, I am going to go ape shit.

I have not been this angry in probably a year. But it's like I'm just numb at this point, I feel nothing. I'm so used to everyone hating me, downing me, using me, insulting me, that at this point, I am just an empty vessel to be filled with everyone's inadequacies.
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I'm sorry you are going through this. The nurse is being ridiculous. Repetitive motions while doing manual labor is what causes a lot of injuries, and physical therapy can absolutely help.

You need to make a complaint, but first find the right phone number for filing complaints in this facility so you don't end up being ignored. I can understand your anger, but they will take you more seriously if you stay calm when you make the complaint.

Good luck! My husband's PA was fired after we filed a well deserved complaint. (My husband almost died due to negligence.)
 
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