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[Deleted member 290563]

Literally every time I decide to get high something bad happens.

New ways of harming me I never could’ve imagined.

Nodded out for hours and my neck was in a weird twisted position and now my neck hurts!

Jfc addiction never runs out of ways to fuck me over even in the safety of my own home.

Seems like literally just one time getting high every few months - it ends up fucking me over from just that one time.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Literally every time I decide to get high something bad happens.

New ways of harming me I never could’ve imagined.

Nodded out for hours and my neck was in a weird twisted position and now my neck hurts!

Jfc addiction never runs out of ways to fuck me over even in the safety of my own home.

Seems like literally just one time getting high every few months - it ends up fucking me over from just that one time.

What's jfc? Well, if you can DECIDE that, you've got a lot going for you...

 

[sigmond]

I do not want to make a thread about this but I want people to be cognizant of how sick this world is. Please read this article: https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cd9dwxexp77o

I am afraid this might have happened to me and my own mother was complicit. Just for the record I am a heterosexual male and I assume the attackers were gay rapists. Ill never get Justice because the psychiatric community destroyed my mind and reputation.

This is what happens to some people in America. They get assaulted, they take medications to deal with the assault, eventually they get a diagnosis of some form of psychosis, and from that point forward they are not taken seriously when they try to defend themselves. I endured 20 years of slander, defamation, stalking, harassment, and assault and the entire State I lived in supported the abusers.

Any time I tried to defend myself I was mocked and ridiculed. But now I fear it was much worse. I would've never suspected I could've been drugged and raped but I suffer signs that point to this being true. There's some really sick people out there and it seems the assaults can take place when no actual memory can form, so all the victim is left with is the trauma encoded in their nervous system - their bodies. I just pray to God that someone will come forward and tell the truth. I'll never get Justice because the police protect the criminals and they tried to label me a gangster. I never harmed a woman or a child in my entire adult life. I was also once a loving decent human and a good friend and family member. I am still a good person but the damage has been done. Its almost impossible for me to interact with other people because of the treatment I have received and the isolation I was forced into to protect myself.

Stay safe out there.

 

[Hannah Capps]

I do not want to make a thread about this but I want people to be cognizant of how sick this world is. Please read this article: https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cd9dwxexp77o

I am afraid this might have happened to me and my own mother was complicit. Just for the record I am a heterosexual male and I assume the attackers were gay rapists. Ill never get Justice because the psychiatric community destroyed my mind and reputation.

This is what happens to some people in America. They get assaulted, they take medications to deal with the assault, eventually they get a diagnosis of some form of psychosis, and from that point forward they are not taken seriously when they try to defend themselves. I endured 20 years of slander, defamation, stalking, harassment, and assault and the entire State I lived in supported the abusers.

Any time I tried to defend myself I was mocked and ridiculed. But now I fear it was much worse. I would've never suspected I could've been drugged and raped but I suffer signs that point to this being true. There's some really sick people out there and it seems the assaults can take place when no actual memory can form, so all the victim is left with is the trauma encoded in their nervous system - their bodies. I just pray to God that someone will come forward and tell the truth. I'll never get Justice because the police protect the criminals and they tried to label me a gangster. I never harmed a woman or a child in my entire adult life. I was also once a loving decent human and a good friend and family member. I am still a good person but the damage has been done. Its almost impossible for me to interact with other people because of the treatment I have received and the isolation I was forced into to protect myself.

Stay safe out there.

I'm deeply sorry. I've been sexually assaulted, not raped, thank God. Any person of any background, creed, color, class, and orientation that does this is disgusting. They need to be jailed. This is pure evil. Thank you for sharing your painful experience and the reminder for all of us to be in the right place at the right time, never assume, and carry pepper spray. I've got mine at the ready.

 

[deficiT]

A fairly insightful interview --

 

[AngelsandFairiesarereal]

Just found out my mom has been opening credit cards in my name and using them for all kinds of stuff … mainly her shopping addiction. I went and cancelled and shut everything down. I let her know and told her that she’s lucky that’s all I did because she could get in a lot of trouble if I had reported her instead of taking care of it myself and shutting it down. She lost it on me and told me I’m not her daughter anymore. She has been sending me all of these threatening txts since then and apparently reached out to other family member telling them I’m ‘not safe’ and telling everyone ‘you know she’s an addict’. She’s apparently telling everyone I’m ‘abusive’. I can’t believe this is my own mother … I also feel so stupid for being shocked she’d take it this far considering how she’s always been. I just can’t believe she did that with the cards and I’m so tired of her making up lies about me. I raised her son (my little brother) for her when she checked out and left when I was a little girl. She left us with my abusive alcoholic father … I cooked for my brother, made sure he went to school and hid him from my dad and took the brunt of the abuse so he wouldn’t. At that point all she cared about was being off with her sugar daddies. You think she would be grateful that I took over and raised her son when she bailed and everything else I’ve done for her (it’s actually a lot … there’s so much to this story). But, no all she’s done is continually tried to put me down, lie about me and sabotage me. The only thing she saying about me that’s true is that I’ve struggled with addiction, which I never ever have denied. But, everything else is literally lies and what she’s actually done.

I’m so heartbroken, I’ve had it and it’s different this time. I can’t believe a mother would treat her own daughter this way (well correction, apparently I’m not her daughter anymore since I decided to stand up for myself). The crazy thing is that I could have gotten her in so much trouble for that shit she pulled putting credit cards in my name … yet I didn’t. The fact that she’s actively trying to sabatoge and threaten me is … well like I said, just heart breaking. She can keep trying to hurt me all she wants and I will continue to pick up the pieces and I will never try to sabotage or hurt her … but I don’t think I can talk to her for a very very long while anymore. She’s clearly a very sick woman but still the missing heart is what’s tripping me up the most.

I’m crying my eyes out … I want to give up, but won’t. How can this be my mom.

 

[ions]

this is saddening @AngelsandFairiesarereal Family are supposed to be better than that.
A lot of battles in life you feel like you're alone in fighting. My door is always open, even tho it doesn't physically exist.
Stay strong.

 

[kiely]

They who think it is easier to be forgiven than to get permission are Those who don't care to begin with. Or never will.
It seems like her power is to be as inconsiderate as possible because it is more convenient and easy for her own selfishness and control that way.
She only cares about herself for some reason. Her brain must be a very bad and broken one.

No wonder you are so kind. It's because you know how horrible it feels when someone hurts you so badly.
And you can understand somehow or actually choose to understand this somehow.
Or she wants you to feel worse than she ever had to so someone else will have to suffer more.

Someday she will maybe understand how it feels. But I don't think that she can feel at all unless it is for her own good.
It seems like she lives for just protecting herself and has become an expert at what she does. And all that she can or will know somehow.

She is being evil and finding weakness in your kindness.
Somehow I wish that she could stop all of this. But those are the ones we have to be aware of the most.

They hurt others and find ways to keep themselves almighty and powerful. And then accuse you of the very thing that they do to begin with.
It's sad when we have to be victims of those who prey on everyone and everything.

Especially the kindest soul that they can find.

I hope that you heal from this and that she won't do anything else again to get more spiteful and hateful power over you.
Maybe the hurt can mend itself or at least there can be some relief from it for a while.

I am sorry that you are hurting. It seems that it was nothing but for her own well being. Doing worse things than anyone else
and putting the blame back on someone will never make anything better ever. Or even make you want to care about someone like that.

That is a really bad one. I hope that you can just get through this all somehow. You deserve to feel so much better than all of this.

Sorry for the Rant. Please feel better. ( Somehow ) I wish the Very Very Best for You Always @AngelsandFairiesarereal

My thoughts and Best Wishes are Voting for you. Don't let this Destroy Us. That one Hurt Badly though.

I’m crying my eyes out … I want to give up, but won’t.

 

[kris66]

Just found out my mom has been opening credit cards in my name and using them for all kinds of stuff … mainly her shopping addiction. I went and cancelled and shut everything down. I let her know and told her that she’s lucky that’s all I did because she could get in a lot of trouble if I had reported her instead of taking care of it myself and shutting it down. She lost it on me and told me I’m not her daughter anymore. She has been sending me all of these threatening txts since then and apparently reached out to other family member telling them I’m ‘not safe’ and telling everyone ‘you know she’s an addict’. She’s apparently telling everyone I’m ‘abusive’. I can’t believe this is my own mother … I also feel so stupid for being shocked she’d take it this far considering how she’s always been. I just can’t believe she did that with the cards and I’m so tired of her making up lies about me. I raised her son (my little brother) for her when she checked out and left when I was a little girl. She left us with my abusive alcoholic father … I cooked for my brother, made sure he went to school and hid him from my dad and took the brunt of the abuse so he wouldn’t. At that point all she cared about was being off with her sugar daddies. You think she would be grateful that I took over and raised her son when she bailed and everything else I’ve done for her (it’s actually a lot … there’s so much to this story). But, no all she’s done is continually tried to put me down, lie about me and sabotage me. The only thing she saying about me that’s true is that I’ve struggled with addiction, which I never ever have denied. But, everything else is literally lies and what she’s actually done.

I’m so heartbroken, I’ve had it and it’s different this time. I can’t believe a mother would treat her own daughter this way (well correction, apparently I’m not her daughter anymore since I decided to stand up for myself). The crazy thing is that I could have gotten her in so much trouble for that shit she pulled putting credit cards in my name … yet I didn’t. The fact that she’s actively trying to sabatoge and threaten me is … well like I said, just heart breaking. She can keep trying to hurt me all she wants and I will continue to pick up the pieces and I will never try to sabotage or hurt her … but I don’t think I can talk to her for a very very long while anymore. She’s clearly a very sick woman but still the missing heart is what’s tripping me up the most.

I’m crying my eyes out … I want to give up, but won’t. How can this be my mom.

I’m sorry you are going through this. There is something about a family member who is supposed to be there for us, especially a parent, that makes it so much harder.

We have to draw lines regardless of who it is. You did what you had to do. It sounds to me like she has a lot of problems that you won’t be able to solve. Maybe just let her know you still love her but can’t talk to her until she calms down and stops blaming you for what she did.

Do you have any other family support?

Sending prayers for you.

 

[kiely]

Thank you. I am so glad that there are others out there that have feelings for not wanting others to be Destroyed so deeply.

Thank you for your comments. I'm just too upset to be able to process right now.

Thank You again @kris66

I’m sorry you are going through this. There is something about a family member who is supposed to be there for us, especially a parent, that makes it so much harder.

We have to draw lines regardless of who it is. You did what you had to do. It sounds to me like she has a lot of problems that you won’t be able to solve. Maybe just let her know you still love her but can’t talk to her until she calms down and stops blaming you for what she did.

Do you have any other family support?

Sending prayers for you.

And thank you for your Prayers. Or that Empathy and Compassion with such mindfulness too. bye.

 

[kiely]

It seems like they want to get a reaction out of you though .... the one's that try so hard to hurt and destroy.

Like ... it's all that they have. Too Bad, How Sad ?

 

[kiely]

And the Vicious cycle continues .... you know.

and their selfish dopamine.

 

[kiely]

@AngelsandFairiesarereal No Just Noooo !!!!!!!!!


I can't believe I am reading this. I am so Sorry. Get Better Now.

It's all that we can do. Just one more peg on the wall. It can't get worse now.

Please Keep Your Head Up. I know I Want You To Also. k

 

[Deleted member 554582]

people are no good in general...more and more are sick,some severely ill,depressed,alienated,haunted by evil,frightened,sad,desperate.......fear to think that this could be just the beginning

 

[kiely]

Yes, she should be helping you not hurting you. She is your mom. The world seems to turn on a dime. That's how it happens.

We can hope for the best now that we know better than that. .... sending Love where it helps. k

Take care stay aware. It's an effort staying safe always.

Omg. I hope she can just stop it. She knows you are strong I guess. Maybe some Jealousy.

But definitely I ADMIRE YOUR STRENGTH. I just couldn't do it. You will always be my Super Hero.

I'm ... not that strong. I love your strength.

I want to give up, but won’t.

 

[kiely]

Wild animals are more human than people and other times people are more animal than animals. Wild animals never like to kill for sport and vindictiveness.

Human are the only ones to whom the torture and death of fellow human is an amusement to themselves and in itself.

They are polluted. Hahaa. Maybe Time will help and can Heal too. IDK at times. But still try to figure it.

people are no good in general...more and more are sick,some severely ill,depressed,alienated,haunted by evil,frightened,sad,desperate.......fear to think that this could be just the beginning

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Just found out my mom has been opening credit cards in my name and using them for all kinds of stuff … mainly her shopping addiction. I went and cancelled and shut everything down. I let her know and told her that she’s lucky that’s all I did because she could get in a lot of trouble if I had reported her instead of taking care of it myself and shutting it down. She lost it on me and told me I’m not her daughter anymore. She has been sending me all of these threatening txts since then and apparently reached out to other family member telling them I’m ‘not safe’ and telling everyone ‘you know she’s an addict’. She’s apparently telling everyone I’m ‘abusive’. I can’t believe this is my own mother … I also feel so stupid for being shocked she’d take it this far considering how she’s always been. I just can’t believe she did that with the cards and I’m so tired of her making up lies about me. I raised her son (my little brother) for her when she checked out and left when I was a little girl. She left us with my abusive alcoholic father … I cooked for my brother, made sure he went to school and hid him from my dad and took the brunt of the abuse so he wouldn’t. At that point all she cared about was being off with her sugar daddies. You think she would be grateful that I took over and raised her son when she bailed and everything else I’ve done for her (it’s actually a lot … there’s so much to this story). But, no all she’s done is continually tried to put me down, lie about me and sabotage me. The only thing she saying about me that’s true is that I’ve struggled with addiction, which I never ever have denied. But, everything else is literally lies and what she’s actually done.

I’m so heartbroken, I’ve had it and it’s different this time. I can’t believe a mother would treat her own daughter this way (well correction, apparently I’m not her daughter anymore since I decided to stand up for myself). The crazy thing is that I could have gotten her in so much trouble for that shit she pulled putting credit cards in my name … yet I didn’t. The fact that she’s actively trying to sabatoge and threaten me is … well like I said, just heart breaking. She can keep trying to hurt me all she wants and I will continue to pick up the pieces and I will never try to sabotage or hurt her … but I don’t think I can talk to her for a very very long while anymore. She’s clearly a very sick woman but still the missing heart is what’s tripping me up the most.

I’m crying my eyes out … I want to give up, but won’t. How can this be my mom.

Hmm .. I don't know much about your personal situation or stability atm (and I guess it's not too geat a position), nor do I know how much energy you have for this...

I'm also aware that this might be a massive overstep from my side,...But I would never be that kind fr.
Even if it's not wise or is going to hurt me as well, I would try to fight back. That's probably easier said than done but you have a solid an provable point against her. Idk how your relatives think about your mom and whom they'd believe more easily, but I'd tell the truth to everyone who'd come at me with the bs she said...
I'd basically hate her, no idea how you can not hate her . And I have and will become a beast of my own if my anger is really sparked. My Mom never did anything even close to what yours did and yet I've been quarrelling and fighting with her countless times. Seriously I don't know what I'd be capable of if she treated me like that...
.. although I might lack the pride I have now had I really been treated that way...
In any case it's a call to get away from her as far as you can, if you can - just my 2 cents...

 

[kiely]

People speak sometimes about the "bestial" cruelty of a Human,
but that is terribly unjust and offensive to Beasts,
no animal can ever be so cruel as a Human, so artfully, and so artistically cruel.

We probably need to change anyway.

 

[papercuts]

Just found out my mom has been opening credit cards in my name and using them for all kinds of stuff … mainly her shopping addiction. I went and cancelled and shut everything down. I let her know and told her that she’s lucky that’s all I did because she could get in a lot of trouble if I had reported her instead of taking care of it myself and shutting it down. She lost it on me and told me I’m not her daughter anymore. She has been sending me all of these threatening txts since then and apparently reached out to other family member telling them I’m ‘not safe’ and telling everyone ‘you know she’s an addict’. She’s apparently telling everyone I’m ‘abusive’. I can’t believe this is my own mother … I also feel so stupid for being shocked she’d take it this far considering how she’s always been. I just can’t believe she did that with the cards and I’m so tired of her making up lies about me. I raised her son (my little brother) for her when she checked out and left when I was a little girl. She left us with my abusive alcoholic father … I cooked for my brother, made sure he went to school and hid him from my dad and took the brunt of the abuse so he wouldn’t. At that point all she cared about was being off with her sugar daddies. You think she would be grateful that I took over and raised her son when she bailed and everything else I’ve done for her (it’s actually a lot … there’s so much to this story). But, no all she’s done is continually tried to put me down, lie about me and sabotage me. The only thing she saying about me that’s true is that I’ve struggled with addiction, which I never ever have denied. But, everything else is literally lies and what she’s actually done.

I’m so heartbroken, I’ve had it and it’s different this time. I can’t believe a mother would treat her own daughter this way (well correction, apparently I’m not her daughter anymore since I decided to stand up for myself). The crazy thing is that I could have gotten her in so much trouble for that shit she pulled putting credit cards in my name … yet I didn’t. The fact that she’s actively trying to sabatoge and threaten me is … well like I said, just heart breaking. She can keep trying to hurt me all she wants and I will continue to pick up the pieces and I will never try to sabotage or hurt her … but I don’t think I can talk to her for a very very long while anymore. She’s clearly a very sick woman but still the missing heart is what’s tripping me up the most.

I’m crying my eyes out … I want to give up, but won’t. How can this be my mom.

Angels and faeries I'm so sorry your mother is like this, she will continue to hurt unless you defend yourself, but of course then it just escalates.

Do you think you would want to forgive and forget after all she did and failed to do? She won't become the mother you want, she really won't, so either you keep getting hurt or you keep away. Is she paying the money back on the cards? Or has that been left to you? My father would be similar, used to take out loans in other family member's names, always the females in the family got hit with the bills, because he didn't care about losing us, he had too many daughters before his beloved son was born, we have all been used and dumped on repeat and now I've not seen him in months even though he is actually dying of cancer, so time is running out.

At the end of the day we had parents, then we discovered our parents aren't such good people, it's so shit I can't put into words, my heart goes out to you, my parrents had both abandoned me by the time I was 14, then permanently at age 16 I applied for my freedom and got it along with a government paid room to live in.

You'll never know why your mother behaves so selfishly, it'll drive you nuts wondering why.

 

[AngelsandFairiesarereal]

this is saddening @AngelsandFairiesarereal Family are supposed to be better than that.
A lot of battles in life you feel like you're alone in fighting. My door is always open, even tho it doesn't physically exist.
Stay strong.

Thank you so much for your kindness … sorry it took so long to get back. Had a bit of a depression/sadness breakdown over everything. But, I’m being strong and getting back to kicking ass … lol the depression/sadness’ ass, don’t worry I won’t kick anyone’s ass hehe.

Anyways, thank you for being so kind. I hope you’re doing well