i broke my brain crook mate really badly the other week like a non stop 3 week binge at the tail end of an almost non stop 4 months binge something snapped thanks to mdpv but i know it was the dip abuse that caused it to happen
welcome to the garden your never leaving here are word i do not wish to hear again that or Satan shouting at me through the TV
the garden being Eden but i was not in there in a good way its like another version of hell and i was their because i had commit suicide then the voices started started coming out of the tv not nice
all this because of caining gram after gram of dip and eph before the mdpv
was hoping as though that this stuff could have an mxe style after glow to it
I'm sincerely sorry to hear that, man. On the other hand I do feel kinda good about having seen this coming and repeatedly warning you about it. ;P
I've had psychotic breaks myself before and most of the time MDPV was involved in some way. Surely the dissociatives will contribute to that, my best friend had his first schizophrenic episode induced by DXM+booze+sleep deprivation. Not all dissociatives have antidepressant properties btw. I tend to feel rather depressed these days, no matter which dissociative I take. Maybe that would be different for subthreshold doses cause I have a tendency to kinda overdo it.
So... Are you feeling back on top now? How old are you? If you were sleep deprived, I wouldn't worry too much. Otherwise, there is a chance you have an underlying mental illness. Just make sure you abstain from ALL psychotropic substances for a bit (even caffeine imho) and then when you feel fine again, try to use whatever you want to use in moderation. MDPV is a big nono for you now though, it's just notorious for causing psychotic breaks and relatively hard to use in moderation (as you will know).
The first psychotic episode was after 1g smoked MDPV (first time I tried it), but I was fine after only 3 days. Later I managed to use as little as 5-10mg MDPV per day (on top of my former daily amphetamine, caffeine, tramadol, citalopram, dxm, diphenhydramine regimen), but I still think it was the largest contributing factor to my full blown manic episode (took me years to recover from that!!).
Good luck with the abstinence in case you are trying to pull through with that for a while.
EDIT: Btw what is "eph"? People used to refer to ephedrine by that, but I'm guessing you're talking about ethylphenidate, right? Best to always call substances by the trivial names most people are using.