did quite a bit of MXE last night after returning home from a rave, was a bit drunk n felt a bit rough from the night before so it was an earlier night than usual. but it was awesome nonetheless. got tempted to have a nice little experience with mxe then sleep. weighed out what i thought was 40mg... either i read the scales wrong or they're broke because it looked like too much... but thought sod it and did it anyway.
jesus fucking CHRIST. blew me away, was absolutely flying. rocketing... fucked. started to feel like i was on nitrous... numb... then it kept building, and building, and building. couldnt move, every song i played in my headphones took me on a wild journey, re-lving the past, time became meaningless, full on tripping. never done a drug which has such a profound, deep effect with music. breathing became shallow. i became a part of everything, completely disolved into everything, HAMMERED with euphoria like somebody was slapping euphoria into me, was a bit too intense. thought i had done too much as it was hard to recongize my surroundings and it was getting too confusing. no need for gong on rollercoasters or anything when you have this stuff, takes you on such a ride. most euphoric thing ive experienced since DMT. infact it was on par with DMT. seemed to bring back memories of DMT trips and ended up re-living them. popped a valium and ended up in some semi lucid fucked up state on my bed for awhile... sod neil armstrong going to the moon... this stuff took me across the fucking universe.
damn wild experience, must of been close to ego death. stipped reality back to bare bones. woke up still wonky on it, went out and sunbathed for awhile and still had some minor closed eye things going on... was quite beautiful. drove to meet some people later, sunbathed and felt completely relaxed and at peace with myself and everything else. dunno if it was still the mxe in effect or the valium, or both
