aveoturbo
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#1 for me = True but in a good way
#2 for me = True
#3 maybe
this shit is bomb. I made a lengthy post about it in the BDD Social. What a night! More has been ordered.
The Big & Dandy Methoxetamine Thread - 5th Dose (you took too much, seriously)
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#1 for me = True but in a good way
#2 for me = True
#3 maybe
this shit is bomb. I made a lengthy post about it in the BDD Social. What a night! More has been ordered.
PsychedelicPeptide
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No offense but this sounds like a terrible idea if you are wanting to use it daily or even semi-daily. You're going to be bugging the shit out of them I would guess. I think it all comes down to self-control. You either have it or you don't. If you don't have it you need to quit using the drugs until you do.
Seriously get yourself started on an exercise program and stay committed. Addiction is all about your head. If you struggle against it, you have to fight it. Consider it life or death. Look at it like a game you play. You versus drug use, who wants to win?
Maybe each time you want to use but know you need more days off, lets say you start with 3 days off at a time, you go outside and run until you can't run anymore or do pushups and situps until you can't do anymore.
The best thing about an intense exercise session is it will clear your head from everything else. Seriously your mind won't have time to think about anything but the run, or the lift. Your head has to focus on this one single thing. You will forget about the drugs.
Become addicted to your health, because as your health increases so will your ability to deal with life and not need drugs all the time. Just as so, as your health increases, your ability to deal with and recover from the drug experience will strengthen. Quid pro quo. It is one big cycle. Drug use has its place for many of us too, but it cannot be the only thing.
Two people above already quoted him, so I won't quote it again, but that post by PsychedelicPeptide was one of the best I've read on Bluelight in a long time. True words of wisdom. If the post was TL;DR for you, I suggest you go back and read it.
NotQuiteThere
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Fair enough, I've realized from observing myself today that it's a terrible idea as well. This shit has significant fiending potential (already seen that it allows me to inhibit impulses for anything, except taking more of it). Ergo fuck this, put away my stash, taking a nap, and hitting the gym tonight. Don't want to ruin this like I've ruined K/Adderall/etc in the past by overusing.
Question though, what is your opinion of doctors who prescribe people drugs like adderall, which is also highly addictive? People often use that daily, which can be bad or good depending on whether or not it's part of a holistic health program like you described.
Anyway moral of the story is yeah, I'm already feeling some tolerance and mental fog from the short period I've had this, permitting daily use is just asking for a drug issue.
foolsgold
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well today the scales of reality really off i think i know i'm not if you what i mean lol beautiful lighten storm on this stuff i'm now going to just sit out in my my back yard with a nice bottle of whisky and take a mad dose and watch gods light show
Br1tannia
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about 20 mgs is best, anything under is not anything great, 30 mg is where it gets interesting though, build up to that level and youll love it
aveoturbo
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I dont know how much I had tbh. I ordered half a gram and about half of that is gone. It was wonderful.
PsychedelicPeptide
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Well I haven't met all the doctors in the world and all of their patients so it is unfair to make a blanket statement about this really.
But yes adderall is way over-prescribed and many, many people abuse it. I've seen this all too many times with peers in college.
Can people get away with daily use and be healthy? I think so, but it has to be hard particularly when your tolerance has no chance to ever come down. It is very easy to let yourself pop adderall and sit on your ass, let your body deteriorate and eat very little day after day after day. Sure you may get all your work done, but the problem is take away the drug and where are you now?
Drugs are great, but powerful psychoactives are always best used in moderation. This especially goes for MXE. At the very least cycle the drug so you don't use it daily. I do this with adrafinil a lot. I much prefer adrafinil to adderall or anything similar. But I only take it 1 or 2 days a week, occasionally 3 and adrafinil is not nearly as powerful as adderall.
A lot of people, myself included, can use the help to keep up with today's increasingly demanding society, you just have to be smart about it and not let yourself get caught up in abuse.
In terms of the body, amphetamines are catabolic to muscle (ie, they prevent anabolism - aka, muscle growth) and generally not good for the heart, plus it kills your appetite. This is the main reason I stay clear away from adderall anymore... if I am going to not eat for 8-12 hours it better be because I'm tripping balls not because the adderall killed my appetite!
psood0nym
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My tinnitus has been continuous for nine days since the last time I used MXE, though it seems to wax and wane in intensity throughout the day. From what I've read searching for drug induced tinnitus it can last anywhere from days, to weeks, to months, to the remainder of your life. It varies a lot by person, with certain drugs causing it for some people and not others. It's not so bad. If there any kind of constant noise in the background, including uniform noises that are easy to concentrate with like a fan, it's much easier to ignore. If it stops I'll post back.The tinnitus is beginning to worry me with this substance somewhat. It goes as soon as Mx's effects wear off, but I'm worried I could do some damage and get stuck with it permanently - is that possible?
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missimoo
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ive not had any MXE fpr 7 days. the tinnitus is still there. but not as bad. it comes in morning and night mostly. and can fade out. its worse in silent evironment. i have spent most of my life in a noisy enviroment, clubs, dj'ing, etc. so im pretty sure it could be caused by that as much as mxe. am going to try MXE later and see if it gets worse or better (thats the worlds worst excuse to get high ever ...)
Has anyone ever fallen asleep on MXE, even on a small dose of 35mg. I had some last night about 11:30pm and I planned to stay up until after 1am. I lay on my bed and within 10 minutes I was asleep. Had a weird dream on it too.
Jakeperson
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Ive slept on the comedown side of a high dose when I was still tripping pretty hard. Most times I cant sleep though
aveoturbo
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I had to take an Ambien to fall asleep when I was using MXE the other night.
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Last night was a night like no other that i`ve ever experienced.I made the decision to push the envelope on MXE,this could be deemed as irresponsible,but for us hard head psychonaughts its a mission of exploration into uncharted territory.
The time was roughly 10.00pm,i prefer to take MXE at night whilst lying on my bed,180mg was plugged of 97% purity,within a very short space of time...Time actually went completely out of the window and into infinite space through the duration of the experience,i was submerged in what i can only describe as a completely different space,and space shall be a recurrent theme in my writtings.
I will do my best to convey what happened,my focus or vision was compromised,i couldn`t see with my eyes in the usual way,i remember at one point looking at my duvet that lay on me and could see it was transparent,as was my body,it was like in the film Predetor when the Predetor uses his cloaking device,there was a background blackness that was the blackest black ive ever known,my bed wasn`t there anymore,my room wasn`t there,where the curtains were there was nothing and a consistent ray of light like that on Police helicopters,searchlights illuminating my space all of the time,they sweped across my field and seemed to change everything like the waves of the sea soaking into the sand.
Colours were amazing pastel varieties,at times the searchlight shone straight into my brain,i was surrounded by what i can only describe as other worldly beings,the places i was transported to were undescribable,curtains of psychedelic lace graced my being and swept through me.
I had a sitter who would look in on me from time to time,at one point i was told that very starnge noises were coming from my room,when they looked in on me i was under the duvet with my laptop,the laptop glowing through it,when the sitter asked if i was ok all he he got from me was unintelligible speach followed by manic laughter.
I couldn`t walk properly,i couldn`t see,i didn`t understand,i didn`t know,i don`t think i even was anything at all...This was more than what i can imagine insanity to be like,today i feel not myself,i know gradually i will come back,i am still me but i`ve been somewhere so different that it would be impossible to return the same,physically it was hard going,my finger tips are still numb,my body feels like its getting to know itself again after i had been seperated from it...I had travelled the universe and beyond,i had been to inner and outer space and all inbetween.
This was to be my last experiment with MXE as i feel there is nowhere further to go with the material,there was so much more that happened but i cannot describe it,i haven`t the words,i was dead,i was alive,i had never been,nothing had ever been.
MXE is truely a remarkable compound,not for the faint of heart,not for excessive or daily use in the doses that i had taken,not for the long run.
The time was roughly 10.00pm,i prefer to take MXE at night whilst lying on my bed,180mg was plugged of 97% purity,within a very short space of time...Time actually went completely out of the window and into infinite space through the duration of the experience,i was submerged in what i can only describe as a completely different space,and space shall be a recurrent theme in my writtings.
I will do my best to convey what happened,my focus or vision was compromised,i couldn`t see with my eyes in the usual way,i remember at one point looking at my duvet that lay on me and could see it was transparent,as was my body,it was like in the film Predetor when the Predetor uses his cloaking device,there was a background blackness that was the blackest black ive ever known,my bed wasn`t there anymore,my room wasn`t there,where the curtains were there was nothing and a consistent ray of light like that on Police helicopters,searchlights illuminating my space all of the time,they sweped across my field and seemed to change everything like the waves of the sea soaking into the sand.
Colours were amazing pastel varieties,at times the searchlight shone straight into my brain,i was surrounded by what i can only describe as other worldly beings,the places i was transported to were undescribable,curtains of psychedelic lace graced my being and swept through me.
I had a sitter who would look in on me from time to time,at one point i was told that very starnge noises were coming from my room,when they looked in on me i was under the duvet with my laptop,the laptop glowing through it,when the sitter asked if i was ok all he he got from me was unintelligible speach followed by manic laughter.
I couldn`t walk properly,i couldn`t see,i didn`t understand,i didn`t know,i don`t think i even was anything at all...This was more than what i can imagine insanity to be like,today i feel not myself,i know gradually i will come back,i am still me but i`ve been somewhere so different that it would be impossible to return the same,physically it was hard going,my finger tips are still numb,my body feels like its getting to know itself again after i had been seperated from it...I had travelled the universe and beyond,i had been to inner and outer space and all inbetween.
This was to be my last experiment with MXE as i feel there is nowhere further to go with the material,there was so much more that happened but i cannot describe it,i haven`t the words,i was dead,i was alive,i had never been,nothing had ever been.
MXE is truely a remarkable compound,not for the faint of heart,not for excessive or daily use in the doses that i had taken,not for the long run.
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NotQuiteThere
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Amen to that. Guess we're on the same page. FYI people working out DOES clear the fog up from this drug (going to gym last night helped a lot).
I can see this does have significant abuse potential. If it keeps nagging at me I may flush the remainder of my stash down the toilet.
A very helpful compound, too bad it's grey-market and can't be medically monitored/provided in a controlled manner to those who could benefit from it. (Though then again it would probably quickly become like adderall or any other addictive prescription med if that was the case).
I haven't noticed any tinnitus from this fyi - though maybe that's just because I already suffer from some tinnitus due to DJing without earplugs for two years (stupid).
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Milkdrop FTW!
I'm eagerly anticipating the next incarnation of the Big & Dandy Methoxetamine thread. This drug sure is popular.
pharmakos
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this sort of thing can easily happen once you start developing a tolerance.
ColtDan
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yeah haven't seen a substance rocket up the big and dandy threads since Mephedrone in 09. if i recall i used to be always banging on about meph, posting loads of stuff, the same way im starting to bang on about MXE lol. when this stuff is banned and i run out, ill be looking back the same way i look back on meph and think, "fuck, i wish i could get some good stuff like i could get back in 2011.."
best value bang for buck ever. ordered a gram last week, a gram the week before, haven't even touched either,
should last me ages if i dont get too generous and start giving away this stuff and introducing people to it like i used to with meph. keep getting too generious with DMT at the moment, love how people react when they get blown away by an amazing chemical. sharing the love
best value bang for buck ever. ordered a gram last week, a gram the week before, haven't even touched either,
should last me ages if i dont get too generous and start giving away this stuff and introducing people to it like i used to with meph. keep getting too generious with DMT at the moment, love how people react when they get blown away by an amazing chemical. sharing the love
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jhjhsdi
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i probably live the nearest to you on this board.......when you gonna introduce ME to dmt!!?? lol
and also yeah i know what u mean dan, 5 big and dandys with like 50 pages on each...in how long??!
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