I inadvertently and completely unintentionally experienced my first hole.
Long story short at the peak of a candyflip, I though adding some mxe would be beneficial. I've added mxe to a candy flip with much success in the past. However, this time I decided to eyeball a line to rail, rather than eat a tiny pinch of it as I normally do.
I rail what I thought was about 25mg (turns out my eyes are poor scales) and continue on my fun.
About 45 min later I go smoke a joint and all hell broke loose. According to my girlfriend, about half way through my joint, I suddenly stopped talking and went catatonic for about 30 minutes.
What I experienced was hands down the most profound experience I have ever encountered. It is incredibly hard to put into words but I will try. I felt as if I had fallen through a portal to another world. I was so out of it I completely forgot that I had taken any drugs at all. I saw myself and started talking in understandable jabbering to myself.
It quickly appeared to me that my entire reality was a figment of my imagination, my friends, my family, my job was all made up to keep myself occupied in this neither realm where I simply existed.
About half way through my catatonia, my gf dragged me into my room and put me on the bed. She said I had the million yard stare.
My next memory is laying in bed with a time loop. My gf asked me if I was ok, then she said hey you're ok, you are just on drugs, then my buddy coming into my room and saying you alive man?
While I don't think it actually happened more than once, this exact scenario played on a loop about 5 times. By the 4th time, I started to get incredibly paranoid as I thought I had broken the damn universe and was stuck in this endless stupid loop.
The stress of this caused my heart to start beating and gave me a shot of adrenaline which snapped me back to reality.
I have done mdma and lsd countless times and probably made my way through 5 G's of mxe but never in my life have I experienced anything like that.
Wild shit.